starlit supernova
❛ o. dear caroline ❜

━━━━━ DEAR CAROLINE,

               Did you know that your name means "free woman?" That's why I gave you the name Caroline; I want you to be free. I don't want you to be bound to me or my family. I don't want my family's sins binding your hands. I want you to be your own person.
               That's why I gave you up.
               It wasn't an easy decision. It was never going to be an easy decision. My heart wrenches at the thought of you. My heart twists knowing that I will never be able to hold you again, or ever see you grow into the beautiful woman I know you will become. But it's for the best. I have to keep telling myself that — this is all for you. Not for me.
               I know that's not the answer you will want, and if you're anything like me, you will demand to know more. But do not. Please. Trying to find out who I am will cause you more pain and grief. I bet by the time you get this letter, I will already be dead. That is what they want — they want me gone, so they will want you gone.
               I'm involved with dangerous people, Caroline — not of my own volition, but they know who I am, and I know too much about them and what they're planning. I think I made them even more upset by breaking family traditions and having a kid with a Muggle man, and not following family traditions of names.
               I know I will never be able to keep you from this world entirely — not with my blood flowing in your veins. I know you will attend Hogwarts, and I know you'll be a shining student among your peers. But I hope by my sacrifice, the Hogwarts you attend will be safer than the Hogwarts that I had to leave behind.
               I know you will want to know who I am, but I beg of you to let my name and past and my mistakes stay a mystery to you. When I die, I want not just my body to die — I want my memory to die with me. Know that I love, love you so much that I gave you up so you could have a better life than the one I could have ever given to you.

✴   NOV. 26TH, 2023   /   prologue thing?? a letter?? super confusing??

good. it's supposed to be 🤭 just keep the letter in mind it's super important to the plot

i think i have like 95% of act one finished from the previous time i posted for this fic- so hopefully chapters come out quicker that way!! (praying fr 😭) i wont mass publish them so hopefully i can finish act one and work into goblet of fire

anyways, thought? opinions?