Before I knew it ,we were deep into the routine my new workplace. Of couse ,it took some adjusting on my part but nothing to permenantly distub my ,dinamic on any drastic way.Working while finishing up my Masters ,was turning outto be less of a chalange and more of,a self-searching chance to start over.With my first assigned project , I was paired with a native coworker Christopher who ,as if the stars had aligned used to work for my dream architecture firm in Munich. He was charming ,yet not my type, while the one I really had a connection and friendhop with ,was Frederico Webbe.

Fredericco and I quickly bonded over ,our shared love for photography and it was refreshing to have someone to talk to and release the pressure ,of high expectations.Time was slipping away ,and slowly the ache in my heart and the loneliness were replaced by ambition and the need to prove myself.During the day , I loved working on creating an urban forest and a strategy for a self-saficient art distict .Tritopias and Creative Districts ,made my long work hours worthwhile.
I was going over, errons when I got the phonecall from the blocked number.One I immidietly regreted picking up.

William. Immidietly after picking up ,my self-esteam and grownth were endanged but I endured the conversation regadless.

"Clara ,we have to have a painful and inevitable conversation which I find is better over the phone."

My heart was on my sleeve,and all of the sudden I was back in the body of that insecure sixteen year old ,who never felt heard by him at any point.

"The only thing we agee in here, is we do have some tension to resolve,onmce and for all ! So you have five minutes of my time. No more."

It was so obvious he was reacting over ego, considering at the end of things w e were constantly fighting ,and he was narcessistic and controling ,while I had began to free myself from the chains ,rising from the ashes like a phenix, making a life for myself while William was stuck in time,when I was okey with being his puppet on strings.

"I see. Even though I am aware of how your feelings towards me developed over time, I have to get off my chest that they are not recipicated,never were. First of all , you are bonkers ,unstable and disabled . These are qualities I, cannot tolerate in someone .I deserve better, than someone like you ,born broken .The only reason I suggested you move to Germany,was a bet with the guys,I had over a drink ,about you, since I have been analizing you for quite some time.We had a case with such an unstable client,who just like you is born broken and lost. Oh ,I won the case and the bet ,so ... Thank you,and we best lose each other's contacts from now on."
"Am I on drugs, or did your sick narcecistic ass ,just call me after all this time ,only to call me broken and a case-study ?!"
"Clara, I do care for you,and that is why I think it is best you seek help."
This jerk was a real peace of work ,and for the first time in forever ,I was actually glad my heart was cleansed from his toxicity. I didn't have in myself at 16, to go with grace because whenever I fought with him,he'd tell me I was brave.This conversation shed light on some of my worst fears,but finally broke his hold on me and my decisions once and for all.

I was supposedto feel devistated , leveled with the ground and worthless after hearing all that shit about me from the person, I once loved with every ounce of my being,wasn't I?
Instead,I felt my power flowing back in my blood .

Finally I spoke .

"Here is what is going to happen ,you sick son of a bitch . You are going to forget I existed,and just to be safe , by the end of the day I will have several restriction orders filed against you!"
I hang up ,blocking the number .
The reality of the whole disturbing conversation, clashed into me like a plane and I broke down before colecting all my peaces and closing the book ,that was in my life,William.

Ian Price, a colegue that was beginning to grow on me ,always said "Life makes no mistakes and everything around us is a form of love." For some reason, I couldn't quite figure out, remembering this and hearing his voice in my head, gave me the stenght to get up on my feet,dust off the shock of the last few minutes and remember my own value.