hi

so this chapter is very spur of the moment but i just wanna talk about it

so i have a problem as a fanfic writer where i put out too many fics because i get excited about the idea at first, and then i fall short because of lack of inspiration or complete plot detail at all.

i have so many unpublished drafts of stories that ive promised you guys but had to break because i move on too quickly, and maybe that's just how my brain works. im sorry to anyone who doesn't like that i do this, because every time i unpublish a work i feel like im disappointing at least one person out there who expected more from me.

my life isnt super busy, so that's not a good excuse. i do have school, but i have other hobbies. and i procrastinate like hell. and i have a health issue that's been a life changing experience this past year, so ive just been a little crazy recently. (i might talk abt the health problem i another chapter oof thats a long story)

but the main reason why i wanted to tell you guys this is because in this time of my life im trying so so hard to pump out chapters, but its easier said than done. im a perfectionist writer. i see a lot of people on this app post chapters almost every other day and i envy that. i envy how easy people can give out amazing content.

for me it takes longer to even get out a decent chapter. so i hope you can understand why im such a perfectionist. outlining stories has always been a struggle, i dont work well with planning my stories in a linear fashion.

its kinda all just in my head and that's where the world is the most strongest. i feel like the words on the page sometimes dont resemble what i feel inside and i wish i could give you that, but that takes a lot of time sometimes.

im now opening up a new video game account and its definitely a big task because i can barely keep up with my works on this account so
i hope you understand why it takes so long for me to publish things.

that's just who i am, and i hope you're okay with that.

ANYWAYS i love you all and im very excited to be able to talk about and express such a big hobby of mine in this vg account. im working on it!!

also listening to the last of us soundtrack right now cause damn its beautiful