I think that I should just give up on life. No one will honestly care. Theres no point to me. I wish there was one person in my whole world that would shut up and listen in my family.
    My cousins family always comes down or we go to her house for the holidays. Well if she is ever ( probably not) going to look at this, well she did this to me.

    She feels like a younger sister sometimes. But most of the time she is always being rude and getting center of attention. What ever I want, she wants. What ever I get, she wants something better to brag in my face. When Its a holiday, she make everyone care about her.

   If she gets a papercut, she crys. If she trips, she starts whining how bad it hurts and how she cant walk.

   Heres a story, 2 of 3 years ago, I was at her house and my grandparents were visiting from Europe. For some reason she kept sticking her fingers in the door frame. So me and her are about to go outside and were laughing and telling jokes. As were putting our shoes on in front of the door,  what does she do. Sticks her hand in the door frame. I was CLOSING the DOOR. She got a cut that started bleeding a little bit. My grandmother come, yelling at me for what  I did and goes to comfort my cousin. I loomed at her like she was crazy because she watched my aunt say, C/N,    ( Cousins name)  Dont stick your fingers in the door frame because you'll get hurt. WTF. I sat and cryed for an hour and my cousin was there complaining that the slightest touch would hurt her, but I watched as everyone left and she thought she was by herself, pick up the glass of water in front of her and drink it without saying " Ow" of " It hurts."

  Then when I get pissed at something ( Sorry if Im using foul language but It get on my nerves) my mom brings me to another room, " Addie stop being in a bad mood, talk to me, I cant help if you don't talk." I cant talk because she of always cutting me off and saying how she will fix it and does she, no. Then she gets mad at me, I become and emotional wreck and everyone tryst helping by not talking to me. The only way they cant see my anger is if I go into another room to cool off, and still they think its helping.

    And there are times when I feel I shouldn't exist. I feel like Im a pain to everyone. Im constently getting yelled at, and half of the stuff I don't even do. I get in peoples way because I try to talk to them and I have to be there shoulder to cry on. I don't see one person who has tryd to get the correct answer to the question " Are you okay?" I always give the same answer.

    " Im fine." No one will probably ever care and I guess that's why I love Wattpad. There are all of these people, and you guys who will listen  You enjoy what I write and like it. There aren't many people that I know who enjoy the same things as me.

   I meant yeah they may listen to the same music as me and watch the same shows, but that's diffrent. To me its that you know how to comfort and person when they are sad and your there to help when they are lonely. Thats what a best Friend to me is. Not someone who says they will just " Have your back." They need to be there for you thick and thin.

   I guess this is all. Bye