Pain. Five, agonizing weeks of no Ezra. Kanan, grew lost, tired and...deep sadness. Kanan was never really in a situation like this, only when Order 66 happen, he was. Hera, Zeb, Sabine and even Chopper worry for the Jedi.

Kanan barely came out of the shadows, eaten, nor spoke to any peers on board. Silences was the only thing, floating around. A mist of dead, guilt, loneliness and...deep depression. Kanan, who was laying in bed had cried every night now, making him cry himself to sleep.

Nobody knew, heck, they couldn't. He would walk out of his room sometimes but, either no one was out or...he was alone while the Crew we're out somewhere. The older Jedi sigh at his self. Kanan only wish for Ezra to be back home, to his family in one piece. Kanan only grew more sadder when he sees a flashback of Ezra smiling.

A tune played inside his head, he remembered as a few years ago when it played. He closed his eyes and listen carefully...

I don't mind, no I don't mind, I don't mind the rain.

The simple things and subtleties, they always stay the same.

I don't mind, that I don't mind, no I don't mind the rain.

Like widows heart, we fall apart, but never fade away, fade away.

Told you like a child, do you know where I came from?

No I don't, but I'm singing all the same songs.

I'm alone and, you're looking for your anyone.

Does it hurt just to know that it's all gone?

I can feel the pain in the words that you say.

Hidden in the letters that were written to no name.

Let me be the hands that you hold to your face.

Cause I'd give it all up, if I could take it away.

Buried in red, white, side of some blue.

Some will die too late, and somebody too soon.

If he could come back, we'll see what it cost him.

We had to lose it all, just to know that we lost one.

Hi, I am a just a shape in a shadow of grace.

Hi, I am just a voice in the choir of saints.

Oh, all the souls that nobody could save.

And just like a light, we faded away.

I don't mind, no I don't mind, I don't mind the rain.

The simple things and subtleties, they always stay the same.

I don't mind, that I don't mind, no I don't mind the rain.

Like widows heart, we fall apart, but never fade away, fade away.

Fade away...as I fade away, away away.

If I could take it all back

Before the flags were forced to wave at half mast.

That was long before my heart became black.

There's no way to make it change or go back.

You know that some of use grow old, with no home.

Some of use die in a cold house, with no hope.

Still surrounded by the people you don't know, so don't go.

Cause once it's over the time fades your photo.

How many goodbyes can fit in a lifetime?

How many good lies can make it it seem alright?

What do you see when you look into my eyes?

Or in the sky right before you say goodnight?

I could be the son that stands beside of your bed.

And I could be the voice right inside of your head.

I could say goodbye and you know where I went.

I just wrote a letter that'll never be sent.

I don't mind, no I don't mind, I don't mind the rain.

The simple things and subtleties, they always stay the same.

I don't mind, that I don't mind, no I don't mind the rain.

Like widows heart, we fall apart and never fade away, fade away.

Fade away... as I fade away, away, away.

As I fade away, away, away.

As I fade away, fade away.

As I fade away......

Kanan reopen his eyes again. Darkness yet, again. The song seemed to help him relax. He decided to get up but, voices were heard. "Guys, we need to just do this." It was Hera. Kanan was a bit confused but, felt like he knew what it was about. "Hera please." Sabine please.

"I'm sorry, Sabine. We...we can't get Ezra back." Kanan's heart dropped deep. What?! There has to be a way! He thought with pride. "Sabine's right, we can't abandon him. Not after what he's done for us!" Zeb snapped. Kanan only felt that Sabine and Zeb were on his side. "No! We can't get him back, too risky. Plus, we can't lose another member. We have to move, forward." Kanan was taken by those words.

We can't! Hera! No! He started shaking, madly. "This is our only decision here guys. Listen to my orders." Hera left and never said a word after. Kanan collapsed to the floor again and curled himself into a ball. They can't abandon the kid! Too much memories hurt, he wanted Ezra back, alive. One person, the same.

Kanan slowly, stood up and was losing his temper, he stared dead straight at the wall. Kanan formed his hand into a fist, and punched his wall...leaving a big dent in it!

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Five weeks passed, Ezra was still locked up. Oh how he wish his Crew was with him. He tried so hard to stay focus when Tarkin or The Inquisitor messing with his brain.

Speaking of them, they just walked in Ezra's cell and gave a tiny smirk. "Hello, boy. Want to answer now?" Tarkin pointed at the droid. "Hmm....No! Never!" Ezra yelled. Even though Ezra was covered in scars, blood, cuts and bruises he wouldn't push out any word.

"You seem to be pushing my buttons, spill or die!" Ezra didn't speak. The Inquisitor then ignited his blade. Uh oh! I'm so dead! Ezra felt the color of his face go pale.

"Well, then...no answers. Taste the answer to my blade!" He raised the blade up. Ezra blinked and started screaming bloody murder while Tarkin was a bit stunned on the kid. "Kanan! Help! KANAN!"

"He will never come! So let it go, no body comes for a street rat..." The blade was higher at Ezra....Then...

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Wow, intense right? Well....here's part 2

The song. If you wanna know is by Hollywood Undead called Rain. I do not own the song! But I love Hollywood Undead so, I thought of it.

If you do know the band. Which song is your favorite? Mine's 'Believe'