Kanan POV

Ezra finally fall back to sleep. What turned out to be a challenge every time again.

On the way to the cockpit, I passed my room from where I heard Zebs loud snoring. Man, how the hell was Ezra been able to fall asleep with that!

Hera sat in the cockpit as every time after a nightmare of Ezra. In the beginning, when it did not happen so often yet, we all immediately hurried to the room. In the end we agreed that Sabine would just stay in her room, Zeb would try to calm down Ezra until I was there and then would go sleep in my room. Hera waited in the cockpit so I could tell her everything after.

"So what was it this time?" She asked as soon as I was sitting.

Quickly I explained it just like he had done. "I think it was about when he was at the Dark Side. Dreams have sometimes a weird way of showing the facts." I decided.

"This can't go any further like that." She said. Honestly, I think she would prefer to erupt into tears. All the stress and problems with Ezra. We didn't got a lot of sleep lately and at day we couldn't catch it up because we were either on a mission or running from Kallus, the Inquisitor, troopers or all three of them. Especially the Inquisitor seemed a bit out for revenge.

Just a bit.

More really badly.

This was really dangerous for Ezra.

"I think losing those memories still was worse than we thought. He sees them all the time in his nightmares." Hera said.

Yes it was. The first time was two weeks after Maia and Jonathan had left. Hera's contact Fulcrum had given them a safe haven. For their security even we didn't know where they were.

One of his first nightmares/ memories, because that was is it, a mix between a memory and a nightmare. But so it was when we had to tie him to a chair. Only he heard laughter all the time and then we were all gone for us all to see hanging in the cell. The ground disappeared beneath his feet and he fell into a deep endless going hole, still tied to the chair.

And that was one of 'nice' ones. In how far you can call it 'nice'.

Ezra had relived the tortures of the Inquisitor many times.

The one time the four children strangled the Inquisitor even was come in before. Also it was transferred into when Ezra strangled Dai near the Ghost.

Then he had hurt Jonathan.

Then he had hurt Maia .

Then he brought us pain inside when he was dominated by the Dark Side.

And many others things.

In the beginning it was once a week, then it was two, three and now at the moment it was every night.

"Kanan?"

I shook my head. Hera had apparently said something, only I was too deep lost in thoughts. Lately that would happens more often because of the lack of sleep.

"What did you say?" I ran my hand over my face and stifled a yawn.

"We can best get some sleep. In a few hours it will be light." She repeated. Normally she would ask what was on his mind, but she already knew the answer.

It was the one thing that kept us all awake.

That made us all worried.

Ezra's nightmares.

Ezra POV

Of course I knew that everyone was worried about me and wanted answers.

But I, myself, would also like those.

I kept dreaming but...

Mostly they were familiar. I just didn't do any of those things I dreamed about.

Or is that not true?

Could the crew have been hiding something from me?

And the funny thing of all was that Maia and Jonathan also constantly appeared in my dreams. First I thought they were visions and I was hell once start flipping.

Then I had a dream where Dai occurred. Partly I was glad about that, because I was now sure that it weren't visions.

Because Dai was dead ...

Despite what he has done in the past, I've never been able to say that I had forgiven him for it.

What would I like to do everything to just say that to him ...

Just say hello to my friend ...

And say that I had forgiven him ...

It's something stupid ...

But I hate that I had the chance to do that ...

Or had I?

                                                           OMG just had to put it her (and on some other places...)