Disclaimer: this chapter contains SMUT. And the ozzy is a scouse word for hospital.

Two days had passed since the incident at Paul's birthday party and I hadn't heard from John during those two days. Even though I was still angry about what happened after seeing the man that John attacked got a black eye and possibly suffered other injuries from the attack, I just hoped that he's calmed down and is ashamed for what he had done that night. Especially when I was there to see it happen. As I wrote in my diary, the phone rang and I answered it.

"Hello?"

"Lizzie, it's John." Upon hearing John's voice, I went silent, I didn't know what to say. I both upset and uncomfortable, but I didn't wanna hang up immediately because it wouldn't feel right if he actually wanted to apologize for what happened. As if sensing how upset I was, he immediately spoke up.

"I'm really sorry for what you saw that night, I was really drunk and when Eppy told me that you left afterwards, I felt really guilty. I couldn't bear the thought of scaring you and letting my own temper turn you away. That man was a friend, his name was Bob, he was a disc jockey at the Cavern club. He's alright, he's in the ozzy now for treatment. Will you forgive me?"

As I listened, the apology felt sincere to me. I decided to forgive him and not be upset anymore. At least he admitted that what he did was wrong and informed me that the man in gonna be okay and is in the hospital.

"I forgive you. I understood that you weren't in your right state of mind that night. But I'm still a little mad that you almost killed him, I saw how badly he looked after they pulled you away. I hope you apologized to him." I said.

"I did. Eppy had me send a telegraph to Bob as an apology to him. Him telling me that you left after what happened was enough to make me do it and apologise to you after sending that telegraph," he said, I was relieved to hear that.

"I am happy that you actually apologized to him. And I do wanna mention that before what happened, you touched me from behind." It all went silent the moment those words came out of my mouth.

"For that, I am sorry. The reason why I called you is not because I wanted to apologise to you for what happened at the party, but I want to see you tonight."

When he said that he wanted to see me, I actually felt the same way. When I thought about that moment when he touched me at the party, no matter how inappropriate it was, maybe it was a sign that he does fancy me and he really wants to see me. So I said that I would come see him, he gave me the address of where he lives and the number to his flat.

So later, I went to that address and found his flat number. After taking a deep breath, I knocked on the door. After a second, the door opened. I could tell he was nervous from the moment we locked eyes. Even though I forgave him for what he did to Bob two days ago, he's acting as if he's nervous about something else. Maybe it was because of me mentioning that he touched me from behind at the party before his drunken outburst and he felt embarrassed about it. Things felt quiet for a second.

"Hello, Lizzie. Want to come in?" he said after he regained himself.

"Sure." I said as he stepped aside to let me go in.

His flat looked small and pretty decent as I looked around. I sat down on the sofa as he went to grab a drink.

"Anything you like to drink?" he asked.

"Do you have whiskey?" he took out a glass bottle.

"I do have Scotch whisky," he answered.

"I'll take that." I said as he poured the Scotch whisky in two shot glasses. He sat next to me as he gave me my shot glass.

"Pretty brave of you to drink whisky, other girls would just take wine." he said.

"Whiskey was my first alcoholic drink, my dad let me drink it when I turned seventeen. He decided to let me drink since it was my last year as a teenager before I turn into an adult next year." I said.

"Lucky you, I actually thought you were gonna pick rum since you live near the sea. Pirates always drink rum." he said as he closed one eye, obviously pretending to be a pirate.

I couldn't help but giggle at that joke he made. "I would have to go sailing on a pirate ship first before I would even drink rum. Besides, I have drank rum after trying whiskey. While rum was decent, I like whiskey a lot."

We smiled as we clink our glasses. "Cheers." We both said as we drank our shots. As I tasted the Scotch whisky, it tasted oaky and woody, even smoky too. It was different from the whiskey that my father used to drink.

"Like it?" he asked.

"Yeah, it's a lot different from what my father used to drink. But it's quite nice."

I suddenly couldn't get that moment when John touched me at the party out of my head. While I wasn't happy about it that night, it never left me as I kept thinking about John every night before I went to sleep. Even I wanted to admit that to him.

"Even though I wasn't happy about you touching me from behind at first, I can't help but actually enjoy it a little because I always have a fantasy of being touched by you and not letting me go."

Things felt pretty silent after saying those words, I probably took him by surprise. But hopefully, I didn't scare him by saying that I'm actually attracted to him.

"I know that it sounds unexpected. But ever since we've been spending time together, I've been thinking about you nonstop. My whole life, I was this girl that no other boy ever bothered to notice and was always invisible. But you were the first boy that ever noticed me both on the day I saw you for the first time on my birthday and the night at the club before asking you to dance with me. Even though I was angry at you for what you did to your friend at the birthday party, I could tell that there's something about you that's more vulnerable than you show on the outside. That's why I was willing to forgive you when you apologized. I... I love you."

John didn't say anything after I said those three words to him. Just when I was feeling like I'm embarrassing myself for saying that I love him. He took my worries away as he took my hand and looked into my eyes. "I feel the same way with you."

"Really?" I asked.

He nodded. "I was a mess before I met you. I couldn't trust myself with another girl after I once hit the last girl I was with out of jealousy when I saw her talk to a boy at a party. After that, she never spoke to me again. I left her alone and hoped that she'll be better off with someone else who'll treat her better. But when I saw you, I couldn't help but admire seeing someone so beautiful like you. You were the only girl in the crowd that I couldn't take my eyes off, I actually thought that I would never see you again after that show because pretty girls always come and go. But I was wrong when I saw you again on the night we danced. I could tell you were very special as we talked and danced. It felt like fate brought us together."

It felt true when he said that fate may have brought us together. My father once told me that fate can do anything to make your life either better or worse. He learned that when he met my mother and went through ups and downs together. Even though their marriage didn't last long, everything still turned out fine because I was the one good thing that came out of their marriage, and they were happy to have a special daughter like me.

"I was afraid that I wasn't gonna see you anymore when Brian mentioned that you left the party after you saw what I did and got angry. I had to wait for the right time to apologise. I was thankful when you forgave me. Because I never want to lose you now." He said.

"I don't want to lose you either." We leaned closer to each other's faces. Before I even knew what I was doing, I kissed him. His lips felt soft and warm against mine. He wrapped his arms around my back as we opened our lips and allowed our tongues to explore each other's mouths. It felt so amazing. Even if our breath smelt like Scotch whisky, we didn't care. It felt so right. It was my first kiss and it felt like heaven.

We broke the kiss to stand up from the sofa before he started kissing me again as he led me to his bedroom. He pinned me against the wall gently as we kept kissing before he kissed his way across my face and down to my neck as he started kissing and sucking the skin. It felt so intense that I grabbed his hair with one hand. It was like my fantasy, only it was very real.

"I want you, darling. I've always wanted you so badly." he said in between kisses.

"Then have me. Take me." I said as I started to feel very tense from everything.

In response, his free hand touched my leg as it went under my dress and dug into my underwear before I felt his fingers inside me. I moaned, and I grabbed his shoulders tightly as I felt the intensity. I've never felt that before in my life, and I suddenly wanted more. He looked at me with concern. "You alright?"

"Yes, it feels good. Just keep going." I answered.

He went back to kissing my neck as his fingers kept going in and out. He started out slow and gently before he increased the pace a little as he knew that he had to be gentle with me as I've never had sex before in my life. As the intensity grew more and more, I started to feel my very first climax. He kissed me on the lips as his hand pulled out from under me. "You enjoyed that?"

"Oh, God, yes. I really did." I answered as he smirked at me.

"I'm only just getting started." He said that as he started to undress quickly, and I immediately followed with taking off my dress and letting him see my entire body.

"So beautiful." We started kissing again as he unclipped my bra and held me so close as our bare chests touched before we fell down on his bed. He then started kissing every part of my skin before he grabbed my underwear and took it off before tossing it aside before spreading my legs apart.

He started to lick before sucking on my clit while holding my legs. Then I started to feel his tongue inside me. I started to moan more as I arched my back and gripped onto the bedsheets. Just wanting more and more. As I felt another climax, John climbed back up to me for another kiss. "Want one more?"

"Yes, but please tell me that you have a condom."

"I do, actually. I'm not that stupid to do this without a rubber. I'll grab it."

He rolled over to grab his condom from his nightstand, I felt relieved knowing that he had one. Even though I've been on the pill after turning 18 to avoid getting pregnant by accident, I didn't want to take any risks of having sex without protection like a condom. After he puts it on, he gently goes back on top of me.

"If it starts to hurt, just tell me and I'll stop." he said.

I nodded and kissed him as he pushed inside me slowly. I moaned as it was starting to hurt but it was a good kind of pain, I was willing to go through the pain and not back out, I just grabbed the sheets as I felt something pop inside me. I knew that he popped my cherry. He stroked my hair as he started to slowly thrust inside me, I wrapped my arms around his back as I wrapped my legs to pull him as deeply inside me as I could while he was attacking my neck with kisses. He was losing himself in pleasure. I could tell that he was still trying to be gentle with me, but he was losing the battle. He began to increase his thrusts as they became rough, deep and harder that caused my back to arch in pleasure. I moaned loudly as it started to feel more intense, even though I enjoyed it so much to the point that I wanted more of it, I knew that I wouldn't last much longer. Everything erupted around me as my orgasm crashed through me, John came as well after a few more thrusts. He gently pulled out of me and rolled onto his side, threw the condom away and pulled me back into his arms. We lay together on our sides, kissing tenderly. He gently pushed a streak of my hair behind my ear.

"You alright, darling?" he asked, I kissed him happily in response.

"It was amazing. I'm so glad that you came into my life and made me happy again."

"I'm glad that you came into my life too, you've become the most special girl in my life. I love you. I'll always love you till the end of time."

As we both fell asleep together, it was the most amazing night of my life. Every negative feeling I felt from losing my father and the drunken brawl at Paul's birthday party all went away as I confessed my feelings to John and I lost my virginity to him. I was thankful that he admitted that he loved me. I just hope that I will never lose him.