Chapter 3| Lost Thoughts

Song For Chapter: Ride by Twenty One pilots

Quote:"You will never find the right person if you don't let go of the wrong." Unknown

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As I walk into Jackies house no one seemed to be around. "Hey Jackie, Mrs. Lakewood?" I called out into the house. Still no anwser. The telivesion was on in the living room. I walked in and saw no one. I decided to check Jackies room. Her house was clean. I never once saw a dirty dish, or a messy bedroom, even her lawn was perfect. I never understood how it was so clean when Mrs. Lakewood was working all the time. As I turned the hallway to go up the stairs I saw someone on the back poarch. I opened the glass sliding door to see Jackie stuffing cookies into her mouth. Out of all the people I know, Jackie can eat the most. I swear she has a tape worm. She turned around to face me, her mouth was full of cookies making her look like a chick Munk.
She smiled at me and quickly pulled me into a hug jumping me up and down.

"What the heck? What are you doing?" I laughed and pulled away.
She was smiling so big. She started to jump up and down again. Her mouth was still full of cookies. She tried to talk but she was talking to fast and the cookies in her mouth just started to fall out.

"Eww! Come on Jackie slow down. Your gonna choke. What's so exciting?" I backed up a step making sure if she tried talking again she wouldn't spray me with cookie slime. She punched my arm at my step back and rolled her eyes. She quickly swallowed the food in the mouth.

"Oh my god Clare!"She jumped up and down grabbing my hands and squeezing her eyes shut. They way she shut her eyes it was like she couldn't believe what she was about to tell me. That if she'd open her eyes it would disappear and won't come back, like she almost believed it was a dream.

"What, what is it?" On the phone she seemed normal, a little more antsy for me to get there but nothing seemed out of the ordinary.

"Okay, okay. So you know how I told you I had a family emergency...ahhhh." I laughed at her squeal at the end of the sentence. I nodded my head. I was at the edge of my seat wating for her to continue on.

"Well I guess my parents have been seeing each other more. And...ah, I can't even say it." I rolled my eyes and pushed her shoulder.

"Come on tell me. This is not funny jerk." She playfully rolled her eyes and I crossed my arms over my chest.

"Well they decided to move back together, and they are going to try to be like girlfriend and boyfriend I guess. I really don't know how to explain it." My eyes widened and I smiled as big as I could.

"Oh my gosh. That's the best thing ever Jackie. I'm so happy for you. That's awesome!". But as I said this something crossed my mind, what if she goes and lives with her dad? He lives an hour from here. I pushed it in the back of my head as she continued to tell me how excited she was.

"I talked to my brother, you remember Lucas right?" I nodded my head. I don't remember him a lot but I do remember him. "Well I talked to him and he's so happy, I don't think I remember the last time he was this happy. Oh and the best thing is my dad is going to live here." I could feel my self start to breath again in relief when she said this.

"Yeah, they thought it would be better instead of having my mom and I move." We made our way into the house because the mosquitos started to come out and bite.

We sat in her room and talked about her parents. Jackie doesn't usually open up about her parents but to night she did. She missed her dad a lot. And she told me even if she sees him all the time it still wasn't the same as when they lived together. She also told me when her brother went to live with her dad she was really sad because she thought she was losing her family. However now she's going to be able to see him more as well. As she said all these things, a huge smile remained plastered on her face. I couldn't have been more happy for her. I looked at the clock on her dresser and saw that it was almost two. But the time didn't matter because I could finally talk to Jackie about things she didn't like to talk about. I didn't ask her about her oldest brother. Being a friend means knowing what to ask and when to ask it, making sure you don't push any buttons.

I slowly stood up and streached. I grabbed my bag sitting on her bed. I pulled a pair of sweatpants out and a old t-shirt. The t-shirt was from two years ago when me and Sid went to a small band concert. Honestly, the band sucked. But everyone was having a good time and smiling. The way me and Sid talked and laughed it made me feel like Sid was actually my mother. And in all reality, she pretty much was.

"Wow it's already two. Oh hey, I forgot to ask. How was the fight?" She looked over to me with sympathy in her eyes. She knew how much I didn't want to be there. She also knew how badly I wanted her to come with me. But when she called and told me she had a family emergency I told her instantly to take care of that. And now I'm actually gald she stayed with her family. However if she was there I'm sure she could have stopped that moment with me and Reaper. I rolled my eyes and flung my shirt over my head and put the new one on.

"Let me think. Well other then the rude people, the dirty room, bloody fight, oh and the fact that a fighter tried to kiss me, it was awesome." I replied sarcastically. She instantly turned around from putting a pair of shorts on and started to laugh.

I grabbed my sweatpants and put them on. I faced Jackie and put my hands on my hips. She was pink in the face with laughter. It really wasn't that funny. I glared at her until she looked up at me and tried to hide her laughter. "Sorry." She mumbled, I rolled my eyes and started to look for my tooth brush.

"So a fighter tried to kiss you? Isn't most of them like what, thirty, forty, years old?" I shivered at the thought of how worse it could have been. I could have been hit on by black ice. I think I'd rather have been hit on by him, actually no I wouldn't want to be hit on by any of them. I mentally puked in my mouth at image of Black Ice trying to kiss me.

"Yeah usually, but thank God he looked about my age. And I know what your thinking, I did not kiss that asshole." I pointed a acussing finger at her.

"You know me to well, but hey it would have been pretty cool to get-"
I rolled my eyes and grabbed the tooth brush out of my bag.

"I'm going to brush my teeth. I do not want to hear the end of that sentence." She snickered and went into her closet trying to find something.

It has been a long night. Jackie knows how much fighters and UGFC bothers me. She's just joking and I know that. Sometimes I feel like I'm just a stick in the mud. Jackie says what's on her mind and dose whatever she wants to. She's the kind of girl every guy wants to date. I'm the kind of girl who just sits in the background and tries not to make much noise. I don't get bothered at school, in fact if someone talks to me they are usually pretty nice. I'm just not the most social person. So I usually only talk to Kora and Ryan at school. And of course Jackie when she's not haning out with the other kids. I'm not the super smart kid at school, nor am I anyone in fact. I'm just "that one girl" that no one remembers her name. And honestly I'm okay with that. I wouldn't have it any other way.

I walked into the bathroom and took out Jackies toothpaste. Before I brushed my teeth I looked at myself in the mirror. My eyes had bags under them, and I looked like I haven't gotten sleep in years. My face still looked a little pale from the fight, and my curly hair did what ever it wanted to. I could smell the awful smell of UGFC on me still. Luckily it wasn't strong and I could barely smell it. I brushed my teeth and walked out leaving my tooth brush in the bathroom.

I walked back into Jackies room to see her on her phone scrolling threw some media sight. She looked up and smiled when I walked in. I stopped and frowned at her and her smile.

"What?" I mumbled at her. I crossed my arms and sat down on her bed.

"I forgot to tell you that my mom is having a barbaque and she wants you and Sid to come. My family is mainly going to be there. It's going to be fun, and you can spend the night if you want." I shrugged my shoulders, and nodded my head.

"I don't see why not. When is it?" I asked. I had to make sure Sid didn't have to work.

"Well... I think my mom said Saturday but you can come over Friday if you want. And Sid can come over Saturday after work." She said. Her voice held a tone of hopefulness, but if you didn't know her like I did you wouldn't even realize it.

"Yeah sounds fun. I'll tell Sid about it tomorrow." Jackie smiled and jumped out of the desk chair and on to the bed. She laid on the side by the wall and I laid on the other side.

"Good night Willy Wonka." I huffed out as I turned off the lamp beside me.

"Where the hell did that nick name even come from?" I turned my back towards her ready to fall asleep.

"You don't remember?" She mumbled this into her side but I could tell she wasn't ready to fall asleep.

"Not a clue." I yawned and closed my eyes pulling the blanket up further.

"Cameron gave it to you when we were like ten. You fell asleep eating that Willy Wonka Nerds thing." She mumbled. I opened my eyes as soon as she mentioned his name. And my heart droped. It wasn't like she was going into detail over her dead brother, but she mentioned his name. And since the year he passed away she hasn't even said his name. She would change the subject whenever something close came up. I felt weak and didn't know what to say, but I did know I felt awful. I didn't mean for her to bring him up. But she didn't seem to worried about it, or even put much thought into it when she said it. It put my mind a little more at ease.

"Oh yeah, I remember." I didn't say another word. And neither did she. I closed my eyes and waited to fall asleep. But I couldn't fall asleep. Not now. For the rest of the night I just closed my eyes and let time pass. This night was not good. The only thing I could think of was the blood on Reapers hands, or the way Black Ice body was limp. I wanted to puke just thinking about it. Out of all the slutty girls there, he had to screw with me. I also thought about Reapers eyes. They held a little sparkle or light behind them. But it only showed for a quick second before it was gone. They showed a diffrent side to him, not just the blood thirsty fighter. They showed a normal guy. But then it was gone.

As I stayed in my thoughts, a light shined into my eyes. It was morning. Some where in my thoughts I must have drifted off. I rolled over to see the clock on Jackies dresser. It was eight-thirty. I rolled back over to shove Jackie awake. She moaned and mumbled something. I shoved her again, and she threw her arm at me to go away.

"Wake up!" I whispered yelled making sure not to wake up her mom. She moaned again and shoved a pillow over her head.

I huffed out in defeat and got out of bed. I walked down stairs and walked into the kitchen. I grabbed two bowls and poured some ceral into the bowls. Jackie usually gets up after I get up. I poured milk into my bowl and walked into the dining room and sat at the table and ate my ceral in peace. It's weird but Jackie never eats dinner with her mom. I mean I know it's not exactly a family dinner with just the two of them , but they never eat togther. Sid makes sure when I'm home we sit down and eat togther. Unless she's working, or I have tons of stuff to do. That has always been something I felt bad for her. Jackie has never had a sit down dinner.

"I thought I heard someone down here. And trust me I knew it wasn't Jackie. She could sleep all day if I let her." I turned around to see Jackies mom smiling at me. She had a couple bags groceries in her hand. Jackies mom had short curly blonde hair. She was slim and pale with freckles scattered all over her. She still looked pretty young for her age. She looked nothing like Jackie. Jackie had black hair with blue eyes and dark skin. She was built like her mom but that was the only resemblance. I'm assuming she took after her dad. I fairly remember him. But from what I remember they both looked alike.

This Friday is when her dad is going to move back in. Saturday is when I'm going to meet her family. I knew most of her family like her aunt and uncle. I even knew her grandparents, I think they like to pretend I'm also their granddaughter. But that's fine with me. It's actually really nice, it makes me feel like I'm really part of their family.

After Jackie came down stairs and sat next to me eating her ceral, she told me all the details about the barbaque next weekend. She told me I don't have to wear anything fancy, she said it's more of a casual kind of thing. I could still see the faint smile on her lips that told me she was still excited about her dad. And I don't blame her, I would be too. I changed my clothes and left to go home. Jackie tried to make me stay but I told her I had work sunday. Even then she still begged me to stay.

I pulled into my drive way and got out. I looked inside the kitchen to see a stacked pile of plates in the kitchen, and something boiling on the stove. I started to clean some of the dirty dishes so Sid wouldn't have to worry. Unlike most people I liked to do the dishes. I don't know why. Maybe because it would let me think in silence.

Sid and I lived in a old country house. Like most of the things we owned the paint was peeling. The white paint was also stained with dirt. It was old and made noises when you walked on the hard-wood floor. The interior had old wallpaper, and their was no new furniture other then the TV in the living room.We also lost the key to lock the house. However, I dont think it would matter anyway. I dont think anyone would want to brake into our old house. It was a two story house with four bedrooms.

I personally think the house was too big. But this was my home and I loved it no matter what. Sid kept it because her husband, Tom, built it for them and their future family. Sid and Tom use to live on a farm. However the year I moved in with Sid, Tom died of cancer. I never met him, but sometimes I like to think of what he was like.

Sid was forced to sell the farm land, and she got a job as a veterans ascestant. I was only six years old when I moved in with her but some how Sid and I understood what each other were going threw. She lost a husband and I lost a father. We both lost our only chance at a family. So Sid and I became our own family. Just the two of us.

I looked out the window to see that Sids car was in the driveway, meaning she was home. It wasn't a mystery where she was though. She was in the barn dusting the old car, and car parts off.

Tom liked to collect nice cars and car parts. He use to put them all in the barn behind the house. He use to have tons of nice old cars. But when he died Sid had no choice but to sell most of them. She kept one. I don't know why she made sure to keep that certain one, but it made her happy. And I will do anything to make sure she stays happy. The car was a 1969 Chevrolet Camaro, she would walk out there and dust all the dust off. I knew when she went out there she was thinking about Tom. Whenever ever she came back in she held a bright smile and I knew she wasn't sad because of that car outside.

She deserved to be happy. She's done everything she could for me. I don't know what I do without her.

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And I believe chapter three is done. Sorry it was kind of long and boring, but there was a lot of information I had to get out before I wrote anymore chapters.♡♡♡

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