Hi, this is my fear challenge! @SleepyNinjaa nominated me, she says she only has two fears! Man, she's strong! I have a lot more, and they're ridiculous!

Regardless of which, I'm going to begin now!

((I nominate @Levee_Ayzis @YoItsSharkWeek @Area11Dennise @SolarShine @Japhetthefirebird AND @black-talia-rose))

I fear losing all of my friends without reason, I've had to experience that once before and I never want it to happen ever again.I fear losing contact with one of my best friends, @BlaraZarbra, I've known her for what? How old am I now, seventeen...thirteen years! I've known her for thirteen years and been her friend for that whole block of time! I would hate to lose a friend like her, we don't go to school together but I'm glad we're still in touch, once I'm in my transition period into second year studies, or after my last exam or whatever, we have to catch up!I'm afraid that people are talking about me. I always get worried that the people who sit around me are laughing at me behind my back even though it's improbable, something just makes me worryI really am scared of the idea of having to accept adulthood, I'm not ready to be a mature and responsible adult with a job!I'm actually more scared than I would like to admit, of dying before I'm published, the idea of being a published writer someday has gotten me through a lot of shit and I do joke and say I would haunt a friend or family member and make them finish the process, so they could keep my world alive but it does really scare me.I'm scared of failure.I fear the idea of a book of mine being used for the spec of an English literature class! I would hate it so much! Teachers, particularly at my level of education, tell you where to find the symbolism and we just have to put meaning to a scene that might have actually just been filler in the eyes of the writer! I would have to personally go to every class and tell every student what is symbolic about my book in order to be satisfied.I'm afraid of change, I don't like new thingsI fear new people and the formation of new relationships face to face, I'm very set in my ways and awkwardI'm afraid of being hurt by people, pathetic, right? I've had a hard time with friends, I've been used before and I never knew.I'm afraid of being someone's senpai, I'm not an admirable person! I'm terrible; why do people like me?I'm afraid of losing, I hate losing, and I hate the idea of missing out! I'm afraid of missing out on something!I'm afraid of setting standards too high for others but I'm afraid of having set them too low, I hate being the dumb child, but I hate the idea of my sister having to fill big shoes!I'm afraid of my anger, I might go all RedQ on you, kidding, but I do say things I don't mean when I'm mad!And most importantly, I'm afraid of painful yet pointless criticism without evidence, I'm afraid of one person ruining my reputation, if anybody is going to soil the name of SquaryQ, it's going to be me!