▻ word count: 768
▻ title: be careful ; "is it worth the girl that you losing? / be careful with me"

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The front door shut, making you jump in surprise; not ready to face the problem between you and your boyfriend. The backpack that you had filled with some clothes was sitting on the bed, waiting for you to leave.

You had called Harrison without an explanation on why you were asking him to pick you up, and in no time, he was sitting in front of the apartment building. Taking a deep breath, you slipped your arms thorough the loops of your backpack. You twisted the doorknob under your shaky fingers, trying to come up with an excuse for Tom.

"Hey babe, I figured maybe we could gー" your eyes shut tightly together as you entered the living room, where he was. A sense of disgust pushed all of your feelings away; feeling disgusted that he was calling someone else that. "Where are you off to?"

The semi-bright room light blinded you for a second as you opened your eyes, giving him your weak excuse. "I'm going hiking with some of my friends?" It came out as a question. "I hope you don't mind, I justーhave to get out of the house for a while, you know?"

You nodded for him, trying to make it seem like nothing was different in your daily routine with him. Welcome home, make dinner, eat in silence, watch television, and then fall asleep on your bed, neither one touching the other. But you were cutting him off from your apology-accepting affection. He didn't deserve it.

He smiled. He thought that you knew nothing about his sneaking out; but oh, he was entirely wrong. A hand cupped your cheek, bringing you closer for a peck on the lips. You didn't retract, but you felt sick. He was kissing someone else with loving touches.

"I'll see you later then," he said, not forgetting about the ring that was on your right hand. He gave it to you on your two year anniversary, which seemed to make things a hundred times worse.

He twirled it around your finger, clearly not forgetting about it. You desperately wanted to break down right there, but you knew that if you did, he would comfort youーbut he wouldn't mean it. Letting go, he didn't forget to kiss your hand, giving you his beautiful brown eyes that you once loved so dearly.

He gave you a simple goodbye, opening up the front door for you. Smiling, you walked out of the door, towards Harrison's car just parked down the road. As soon as you heard the door shut, you broke out into a run with tears running down your cheeks. Harrison quickly noticed and unlocked the car doors so you could leave faster. He knew you couldn't be there anymore.

Getting in the passengers seat, you told Haz to go, strapping your seatbelt on. You couldn't pretend that everyone was okayー because it wasn't. When you and Tom first got together, you didn't bother telling him about your past relationships, feeling that he was going to be the one. Your last relationship was messy, him/her cheating on you. You thought of yourself as stupid, thinking how you convinced your mind that Tom could have anyone, there was no way that he was going to choose you as his forever partner. You were wary of love as it was; now you were just plainly a disbeliever.

If you would have taken a second to look in the mirror, you would have seen Tom in your living room window, watching you; he had easily noticed that the car was Harrison's. 

He knew he wrecked everything.

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[ a / n ]

oh jeez this is my last update before I turn emotionally unstable. I'm seeing Infinity War today and I'm honestly screaming. I'm not emotionally ready or stable enough for this but at the same time I'm ready, you know? uh I wanna cry already. I ACCIDENTALLY READ A SPOILER ON TUMBLR I DIDN'T MEAN TO I JUST COUDN'T LOOK AWAY IM SORRY SJDJDJ

I'm going to die at the movie theatre. Possibly quite literally from crying too much.

I'm literally going to be SOBBING tonight oof someone send help imma need it I also need tissues soooo

oh jeez I'm so not ready sksksjsjsj

ALSO I HAVE A NEW BOOK COMING OUT AND IT'S ALL ABOUT MY SHITTY LIFE/LOVE LIFE AND I PUBLISHED IT SOLELY BECAUSE Y'ALL CAN FEEL BETTER ABOUT YOURSELVES, YOU FEEL??? 💗💗💗

-meg xx