Sparrowflight sat under the high rock next to Batfeather, having a bad feeling about this meeting. He'd given away the father of Lilystem's three kits, who was a rogue. He did it out of panic, in fear that he might lose his position as deputy. He now felt terrible for it. But he couldn't lie to his leader, could he? He'd already done that enough with his lies about Snakekit. After what felt like an eternity, the leader finally spoke "Today, our deputy, Sparrowflight committed a treacherous act. He attacked a Clanmate." Sparrowflight took a glance at Badgerstep, who had a smug grin on his face. Foxheart. "Windclan cannot have these actions from its deputy, so I hereby announce that Sparrowflight is no longer the deputy of Windclan!" WHAT!? Sparrowflight's eyes blazed with fury and surprise as his claws unsheathed, digging into the ground. He tricked me! He was never going to keep me as deputy! He just wanted to know the father of Lilystem's kits! "I say these words before Starclan, and hope that they hear and approve of my choice. Badgerstep will be the new deputy of Windclan!" WHAT!? Him!? Sparrowflight grew even more angry. How could Badgerstep be chosen as deputy. Cats exchanged doubtful glances, even Falconpaw, Badgerstep's own apprentice seemed doubtful. The only satisfied one was Badgerstep himself.
"I accept, Blazestar." Badgerstep meowed clearly, stepping forward. Sparrowflight glared at him angrily and fought back the urge to claw him again. Batfeather brushed his back with her tail "Stay calm." She whispered to him "You're fur's bristling like a porcupine!" Sparrowflight then flattened his ears in embarrassment, forcing his fur to lie flat. Blazestar cleared his throat loudly "There is one more thing I have to announce!" Sparrowflight huffed in annoyance and pricked his ears towards Blazestar. It couldn't possibly get any worse, could it? "I have just learned that the father of Lilystem's kits is a rogue!" The Clan gasped in shock as they all turned their heads towards Lilystem in the nursery "Is this true?" Hareleap asked his daughter, standing next to Sunpelt, his mate. Lilystem nodded slowly "I-it's true." She stammered. The Clan gasped again and Blazestar glared down at the golden furred she cat "How could you commit such a terrible act to your Clan?" He snarled "You disgust me!" Lilystem shook her head quickly "N-no, it wasn't like that, you don't understand!" She cried. Blazestar bared his teeth "The only thing I don't understand is how a traitor like you stayed unnoticed for so long." He growled "There's only one punishment fit for a traitor. Lilystem, you are officially exiled from Windclan!" Lilystem gasped in shock, her eyes watering "What? Y-you can't Blazestar! What about my kits?" "Do what you wish with your kits. They can't control that their mother is a disgrace to her Clan." Blazestar snarled. Tears rolled down Lilystem's cheeks as she looked down at her kits "You'll be safer here." She whispered. Stonekit hugged his mother's foreleg "Mom, you can't leave us." He whimpered. Sparrowflight flattened his ears. This is all my fault! Sparkstorm stepped forward "You can't just exile her Blazestar!" She protested, defending her sister "I'm leader." Blazestar responded "What I say goes." "Not without Starclan's approval!" Sparkstorm snapped back. Sparrowflight tilted his head. What does she mean without Starclan's approval? Sparkstorm looked over at Lilystem "I'll look after your kits, sister." She said, stepping towards her and pressing her nose into her shoulder. Lilystem did her best to hold back her tears, resting her muzzle on her sister's shoulder before pulling away and nuzzling her parents "We'll miss you." Sunpelt whispered. Hareleap stayed silent, resting his almost fully gray muzzle on his daughter's shoulder. Hareleap was so old now, same with Sunpelt and Mudpool. They would all be elders by now if it weren't for Blazestar forcing them to remain warriors. "Don't leave Mom!" Goldenkit cried out, tears running down the kits cheek. Timberkit stepped towards her "I'll look after you." He whispered. Lilystem let out a sob and pulled her three kits close to her. Sparrowflight couldn't bare to watch anymore, brushing past his sister and bolting out of camp.
This was all his fault. Sparrowflight tore a family apart. How could I be so stupid? He ran and ran, just trying to burn off steam. He went faster and faster, taking long strides across the moor. This was easily the worst day of his life. Tigerlily died, then he was stripped of his deputy position, and he told Blazestar about Lilystem's kits. He didn't deserve to be deputy. Everything was taken away from him. It must be Starclan punishing him. He sinned them by having kits with Blissnose. Since then, he'd lost Blizzardkit, Tigerlily, and his deputy position. Before that, he'd lost his mentor, Stormheart, his apprentice, Gingerpaw, and his mother, Dustbreeze. Why does this all have to happen to me? He eventually stopped running, panting tiredly. He was about to go back, when something caught his eye. It was a bush, full of bright red berries. Death berries. If he ate those berries, he'd be dead in seconds. But Sparrowflight didn't feel scared. He actually took a couple steps closer to the bright red berries. He could go to Starclan. He could see everyone again. Stormheart, Antfoot, Gingerpaw, Blizzardkit, Dustbreeze.... Tigerlily. He never got to confess to Tigerlily when she was alive. He'd been too wrapped up with Blissnose. He loved Blissnose, yes, but it wasn't the same as Tigerlily. He could tell her how he felt if he was with her..... up in Starclan... Sparrowflight slowly leaned forward, sniffing the death berries
"What are you doing?!" Sparrowflight's head snapped away from the berries, looking behind him to see Batfeather, standing with her neck fur bristling "You run off in the middle of the meeting and now you're eyeing those death berries like fresh kill?!" Sparrowflight turned around to face her "I can go where I like!" He replied sharply "What's gotten into you?" Batfeather asked. Sparrowflight flattened his ears "What do you think?! I just lost Tigerlily and got stripped of my deputy position!" Batfeather flattened her ears "That doesn't give you the right to eat death berries!" "Well why not? I've lost everything! There's no point in trying anymore! Every time I think things are going well, Starclan just turns my life to foxdung!" Batfeather's eyes showed hurt "I'm still here." She replied softly. Sparrowflight flattened his ears "Yeah, but some day, I'm gonna lose you too. I don't want to see that day." Batfeather stepped closer to him "Sparrowflight, you're being selfish!"
"I'm being realistic!"
"Everyone knows loss!"
"Not like I do!"
"She was my mother too!" Batfeather snapped "She was my mother! Tigerlily was my friend! No wonder you were demoted from deputy! You're too much of a wreck to handle it!" Sparrowflight bared his teeth, leaping at his sister with his claws unsheathed. Batfeather, being surprised, was taken down, but dug her claws into his sides "You're letting grief make you crazy!" She hissed "Shut up!" Sparrowflight hissed, digging his claws into her shoulders. Batfeather kept going "You think no one else has lost cats? Everyone knows loss, but it's all about you isn't it?" She said, rolling over so that she had him pinned, but she didn't claw him. "Shut up!" Sparrowflight hissed, craning his neck and biting down on her foreleg. This caused Batfeather to loosen her grip, allowing Sparrowflight to kick her off with his hind legs. Batfeather, however, quickly rolled back to her feet, although she tried not to put pressure on the leg Sparrowflight bit "What's wrong with you?" She asked "I'm your sister for Starclan's sake!"
"If you really cared, you'd let me make my own decision!" Sparrowflight hissed
"I won't let you make a stupid decision because I care! You think you're the only one who knows loss? Imagine how I'd feel if I lost you!" Batfeather snapped, still trying to catch her breath from their scuffle. Realization then hit Sparrowflight. What am I doing? Sparrowflight sheathed his claws, glancing down at his paws. "I'm sorry." He whispered, his voice barely audible. "I..I'm not like you, Batfeather. You're strong, and can deal with losing cats. You'd make a far better leader than me." Batfeather frowned, stepping closer to Sparrowflight and pressing her nose into his shoulder "Sparrowflight, you're going to make a great leader one day." She whispered "And I will always stay by your side because that's what siblings do." Sparrowflight frowned "I will never be leader. Not after today." He murmured. Batfeather stepped back "Cats are talking, Sparrowflight. They disagree with Blazestar's decisions. No one thinks Lilystem should have been exiled." Sparrowflight perked his ears up, remembering that he missed the conclusion of the meeting "Has she left yet?" He asked. Batfeather nodded "She left just after you did, then I followed your scent trail." She then sighed "No cat should be exiled when they still have kits." Sparrowflight tilted his head "Are the kits safe?" Batfeather nodded "They're all safe in the nursery, Sparkstorm is with them. All the kits are with her except Snakekit." Sparrowflight narrowed his eyes at the mention of his son's name "Where's Snakekit?" Batfeather sighed "He wouldn't leave Tigerlily's body, and he's laying at her burial spot." Sparrowflight sighed "It's hard on him. Hard on everyone." Batfeather's words rang in his head 'everyone knows loss.' Batfeather flicked her tail "We need a go back to camp." She told him "Make sure Badgerstep hasn't burned down the moor yet." She joked with a small smile. Sparrowflight nodded "Let's go back to camp."

Ok, I know it's been a long time, so I hope this chapter is worth it :)