firstly, i want to wish a very happy
christmas to you all. unfortunately,
i do believe nova's story is over
as i've had the time to close that
chapter and believe and understand
that she is dead, as much as you all don't want her to be!! and since i'm most likely not going to be writing season 5,

here are nova's letters<3

please note that if there definitely
is a way for me to write her in and make it believable etc i will!!!

who knows, maybe in the new year
i will write a new lucas fic with
hopefully a happy ending.

ONCE THE party was all together, reunited and surrounding nova in hospital, steve was the one to mention the letters. everyone had noticed that lucas was not doing okay. he didn't eat, sleep and hadn't left her bedside since it happened two weeks ago.

everyone was slowly withering away. despite joining the party later, nova held the friendship group together. she was the glue. nobody could even believe it was her in the end that was taken from them. it was never meant to be like this. it was just meant to be four friends playing d&d and living a normal, happy childhood.

but when eleven came along, and max and nova, no one can deny that they would do everything all over again just to see nova again. she was their everything.

steve walks in with dustin, who everyone notices now has bat tattooes across his arm in memory of eddie. he sits across from lucas, and carefully looks up at everyone else to see their faces.

even mike looks distraught.

"hey, kid..why don't you read her letter?" steve speaks softly to lucas. "she told us to read them after...after everything."

lucas's eyes are fixated on her, and he shakes his head slowly. "she's not dead."

"lucas.." max says quietly, taking a seat next to him. "i know it is hard to believe—"

"i don't want the letter, i don't need one. she's right there..she's here and she's going to wake up." he says again, squeezing nova's hand a little tighter.

"just think about it. we're gonna read ours." mike says gently, his hand on the letter he had been shocked to receive.

˜"*°•dear will the wise,

i don't really know how to start this. but i assume everyone told you about what happened to me. and what's happening in hawkins. i really wish you was there with us.

i keep thinking about the last things you said to me before you moved away. i'm sorry there was never a lova wedding. i'm sorry i lost my smile and i'm so sorry we didn't play d&d as much as we should've.

kinda a shitty way to start a letter i know.

i really miss you. i feel like you'd make things better if you were here right now. you were always the positive one of the group.

i remember when i first met you, you were so unbelievably kind despite what you were going through at that time, when no one even knew. i don't want to make these letters emotional but i'm so sorry i never visited you in california. i was always so...sad and empty after billy died and lucas and i broken up...and then i was too busy getting stalked by some veiny dude named veruca. just my luck i was targeted huh?

i guess i should have seen it coming. vecna feeds off high emotions. i was distraught for months, it was bound to have happened.

thank you for everything. you were always there for me, i am so grateful for you, and you honestly deserve the whole world.

i really hope that me dying will make him stop and everything go back to normal and this vecna asshole will be gone and you and the party can finally live in peace again and play d&d every single day.

i'll miss you.
— nov!.•°*"˜

ps: tell mike you love him.
it's painfully obvious :)

˜"*°•dear hair,

first of all, to get the sadness out of the way, thank you for being the best babysitter, and brother, ever. when i first met you by the gate to the high school, you were stressing about nancy wheeler, saying she was slowly falling out of love with you...well, you were right!! because she is now happy and very much in love with jonathan. sorry.

and then, you fell for robin. which was even more painfully embarrassing for you since robin doesn't even like boys. (yes i knew about it, it was quite obvious. tell her i love her.)

now we have talked about your screw ups, i can get onto how much i appreciate you. even when you annoyingly ruffle my hair and mess it up.

i want to thank you for being the kind of brother i never had. you were there for me when my own wasn't, and even when i was being distant and nasty to everyone you were still there.

please take care of the group! everyone talks about me being the glue but genuinely without you i don't think they can function properly. you held...sorry, hold us all together.

anyway. i love you and good luck with getting girls, since you haven't been able to in the past. if im being honest, i never understood why. i always thought you to be very handsome, and you're unbearably funny too.

i'll miss you steve. a lot.

— nova.•°*"˜

˜"*°• dear dustbin,

dustin freaking henderson. i honestly don't know what to say to you. the other letters have been relatively easy to write. but i have so much to say to you and so little time.

i honestly adore you with everything. i'm so proud of you and just so you know when nobody believed in you about suzie, i did!

you're the happiest person i've ever met and i will miss your crazy hair and adorable smile, and i'll miss teasing you about the never ending story every day. i don't want to make you feel bad or anything...but i wish i heard that one more time. i think hearing you sing that and lucas and i joking about it was the last time i was truly happy. you made me happy.

although, i'll admit, i was pissed at you for taking mikes side and not going to lucas' game back at the start of the year, i realise that was literally the least of our worries since i'm literally about to be murdered tomorrow. and i'm dead now. holy shit i am actually dead. our plan failed and i am fucking dead. how does that even happen?

to finish it up since i am about to cry and i can see you watching me writing, thank you for always being there for max and i when we first moved here, you convinced the others to let us tag along with you and i am so glad you did.

i've had the most fun these three years then i have had in my whole life... i am forever grateful for you.

please never loose your smile, dusty.
— nov.•°*"˜

ps: i still love your hat! :)

˜"*°•. dear my maxine,

haha! i called you maxine AND i'm going to get away with it!

i don't even know where to start with this letter. when you first came to us in california, i was always curious. even though you never spoke much, and i was still close with billy, i always liked you. it's kinda weird to think we were a (incredibly toxic) family of five and now there's only you and susan.

im sorry for prioritising billy when we were younger. i just thought he would change and i had to stick by him.

i love you so so much and i couldn't of asked for a better sister. i know you act like you don't care a lot of the time, and because i know you, i know you will feel guilty for not showing your love more often, but you don't need to.

i'm sorry i distanced myself for a while, i'm sorry i wasn't the best sister these past few months but know i do love you so much, more than you know.

and please tell susan i am so grateful for her for taking me in as her own, and caring for me like my mom used to.

thank her for taking me away from my dad.

i promise i'll still be with you, always.

— your favourite,
and only sister.•°*"˜

˜"*°•.dear el

i miss you! i hope you're having a better life in california...so hey this is kinda random but since you're reading this i guess i'm dead! ...sorry.

im sure everyone will explain when they see you, so you'll most likely understand what happened when you read this.

i want you to know, i think you're incredible, if i didnt tell you as much as i should've. the build up to meeting you, when all we heard was hushed whispers and then finally meeting you that day where you looked so badass was sick.

you liked me, for some reason. i remember you called me pretty when i introduced myself. i remember being so star struck i didn't say anything back, but i think you're pretty to el. so pretty.

i'll miss you and how me and max used to always convince you to dump mike. that was kinda funny though, you gotta admit. i do feel bad for it, since it caused problems between you both, but i never wanted it to go as far as it did. i just wanted you to see your worth and understand that you deserve the world.

in another news, i do hope you and mike are very happy together and have lots of children, all of them are to be named nova or i will come back and haunt you.

i'm so scared writing these letters to everyone. not knowing if you guys will ever read them is haunting me. i wish you was here to reassure me.

i'll miss you so much el. <3

—novs.•°*"˜

˜"*°•.dear mike,

hello micheal. if you're still alive and reading this i'm assuming someone told you about me...you know. haha.

so, let's try and say a nice goodbye.

i'm sorry for kinda being a bitch from the beginning, but hey! at least i didn't choose some 35 year old crazy man over my best friend !! kidding. sorry. not really kidding though.

in all seriousness, i never really hated you, i don't think anyway. i admired you a lot silently. you would do anything for your friends, and loved el so much that you hated literally any other girl that talked to you, like when max and i tried to be friends with you.

honestly, i think you're pretty cool.

i never thought i'd say it...but i will really miss you and your annoying face. i know we never really got along, but i think that death brings people closer.

so maybe that's why i'm being delusional writing about how i admired you.

also please don't worry if you're depressed because of that fact you treated me bad, because my mom once told me that you are horrible to the person you love. soooo guess you have a crush on me? thanks, but i don't like you like that. sorry.

goodbye, mike.

i'm sorry again for being kinda rude.

i wish things were different and we could've been friends. i think we could've gotten along.

—nova.•°*"˜

ps: just know i will come
back to haunt you. don't
test me. treat el right.
be nice to lucas.

˜"*°•.dear lucas,

firstly, thank you for everything. i know that's not a good way to start a letter but it's true.

when i first met you, i thought you were kinda weird, but at the same time you intrigued me a lot.

i remember my brother would tell me to stay away from you, which only made me want to see you even more. i never told anyone but i always looked forward to going to school, just so i could see you in the hallway, or in class.

ever since i stepped into mr. clarke's classroom october 3rd, 1984, and saw you get all excited over max and i's dig dug names. and last summer, despite everything going on, i had you, and that's what made it one of the best few months of my life. i have loved every minute spent with you and the party. even some of the moments with mike were okay.

i'm sorry. i really don't want to go. i'm scared and feel so alone. i wish i could stop being so stubborn and just tell you how much i love you before it's too late.

i don't have much to say because i can feel you staring at me and it's making me want to sob. so. i guess this is it. i don't want it to be the end. but because you're reading this, it means it is.

please keep smiling. please don't let this ruin you and your beautiful personality. if me dying doesn't finish off vecna, you guys need to kill him. i have so much faith in you, lucas. never, ever forget that.

i love you in every universe,
— your supernova.•°*"˜

again, merry christmas.
you guys should know by now i
clearly enjoy making everyone
miserable! i'm a marauders stan,
it's just what we do.

sparks was the first fan fiction i
wrote and actually thoroughly
enjoyed. it was the first book i
would re-read to see the comments
and even the book develop. despite
the fact it's reallyyyy messy and
needs editing, i love it with
everything in me.

seeing all your guys' comments
about re reading and how much
joy this book brings you makes
me so unbelievably happy and
you don't understand how much
it means to me.

i love you all so much.

this is nova, signing out!!!
say goodbye for real this time.

🖤