Is it okay to feel like nothing to you?

I want to feel like your number one, not two.
I'm so distracted, I almost washed my armpits with shampoo.

I just want to feel like everything to you.
Not your number two.
Three.
Four.

I want to be the only one...
But you make me feel like no one.

If you don't love me anymore, just say so, even if I would rather live a lovely lie than a terrible truth.
I'm clueless.
If I bother you, just say so, I don't want to feel horrible like I did something wrong.
Because I don't know what I did.
I'm clueless.

I want to change me for you so I can be the me you want me to be.
So you can be happy to be with me.
So I can feel like you actually want to be with me.
I'm clueless.

Instead of just listening to your phone buzz with my message while you're with someone better.
Just let me know. Because I don't know.

I don't know how relationships work.
I don't know how to keep you happy.
I just don't know.
I'm going with the flow.

I'm sorry I'm so
Clueless

((Honestly how Admin feels tbh))