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I ran and i wasnt going to stop.

I didnt want to exist more, all day long they complained at me, i couln't do that,i couldn't get good enough grades, i was lazy,my imagination world was too strong, i didn't have more than like 3 friends and, well the perfect boyfriend on the other side of the earth.

I wasnt good at anything i even failed at being a good girlfrend.

Right now i just sat in the corner of my room looking down at my phone waiting for a special text from the one i love with all my heart or just one of my friends... or someone that just wanted to Role play.

I waited for ten minutes then i took the ipad that was laying next to me and started looking through fanfictions about transformers. Mostly Megatron x Optimus, but i almost never found any good ones.

Mom always complained at me for looking at that worthless stories, she said i should focus more on math and school and be with my friends. Hah what friends?.

But what could i do? it was my passion, none could never take that away from me.

I looked in disgust at a pile of make-up and clothes that i got for christmas.

Im not a steriotypical girl, i would rather sit with the guys and talk about games and be in their playfights, but im too shy and dont have anything to say.What is there to say anyway?.Hey can i hang with you guys?, pft, dont think so.I dont want to be with the girls in my class they are so ... false against echoder and just talk about make-up,clothes and what more boring shit they talk about.

I like action and transformers.Transformers saved my life becuase that is the only thing i have left of my worthless life.

Well i have my boyfriend but my moodswings take over and i often get mad at him for no reason at all. i hate that i cant controll it, i already lost myself and he still holds me up even when im pissed...

i hate myself for being sutch a horrible girlfriend...If i could sit next to him right now holding him, telling him, showing him how mutch i really love him.

I wish he was here so i could lean against him as i cried myself to sleep as he held me close whispering that all will be fine and nothing could hurt me when he was there, he was my predaking, my optimus, my megatron, my matrix my everything...

we could sitt playing Xbox all night, sometimes i dream of us togheter, but thats not gonna happen in at least ten more years.. He lives on the other side of the globe.

i looked out at the stars and went to bed cuddling up to the soft blankets slowly drifting into sleep, once again dreaming about the furture with him and how wonderfull it would be to kiss him, hold him and cuddel up to him in a warm blanket.

soon enough tramsformers took over my dreams and my own character started her adventures on cybertron...