When I close my eyes
I see you
When I open them
I miss you

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You woke up at seven after getting to bed already at midnight.

You had accepted that you just couldn't seem to sleep, too many thoughts keeping you awake.

Yes, you knew that he had been hella drunk when he'd done that, no meaning being behind his actions. But you couldn't help but to imagine that he actually meant to do what he did. And what it would mean for you.

You didn't realize when your thoughts wandered to imagine what could be if, while changing into warmer clothes.

You never liked being in your small stuffy apartement, all alone, although it was your choice to shut yourself down, preventing yourself from making new friends. Well, besides Felix.

So, you had made kind of your personal happy places, where you spent your free time. For example the park, or the place you were about to go now to - the library.

The old building was just five minutes away from your place, an old brickstone hall that didn't exactly remind of a library from the outside.

You pushed the heavy door open, calmness and the smell of books engulfing you.

The place was flooded by sunshine coming from big windows, tables standing at the sides of the hall.

You strolled past the shelves, picking a book before sitting down at one of the tables.

You soon found yourself being taken in by the book, not noticing any of your surroundings.

That was until someone sat down on the same table as you, just a few seats away from you.

You didn't saw but felt him, signalizing you who exactly the person was.

You looked up in surprise.

He was sat there, across from you, looking down at his phone, a closed book infront of him.

His strawberry cream hair fell into his eyes, that were staring at the phone screen. He wore a white hoodie without a coat nor a jacket, what was rather brave, considering the icy weather outside of the library.

There was no way he hadn't noticed you. All your sense had been alarmed as soon as he was near you.

You leaned forward, locking eyes with his figure.

"Since when do you come here?"

He didn't avert his attention off his phone as he answered, "I don't."

"Then, what are you doing here?"

He finally looked up from his phone, giving you a 'don't be annoying' look, that made you somehow angry.

You were about to say something when another figure came towards your table.

"Felix?"

You blurted out equally surprised and relieved. You glanced at Jungkook who's gaze hat changed from annoyed to simply staring at you.

"I figured out you would be here." Felix said grinning.

You heard someone snort next to you.

"I'm glad you guys decided to talk about what happened."

You threw an awkward glance at Jungkook, who had cocked an eyebrow, "We aren't... talking."

"Oh, I see." Felix said with a strange expression.

It was really silent for a moment. Felix staring at Jungkook, Jungkook staring at Felix and you looking between both of them uncomfortably

"I guess I gotta go." Jungkook stated all of a sudden, making you jump startled.

He stood up, leaving the book he brought untouched on the table.

You  watched him leave, feeling nothing but confused.

"What was that?"

Felix laughed, "Don't ask me. But I still think he should've apologized for what he did."

"He was drunk, maybe he doesn't remember."

Again, this weird expression on his face, "He didn't seem like a light drinker to me."

You just shrugged at that.

Felix sat down on the seat besides yours and turned his body towards you, leaning his arm onto the table.

"So..."

"So?"

"You wanna talk about something?"

You couldn't help but to chuckle when you realized that he meant the kiss between you but didn't had the courage to name it first.

"I um..." you didn't know how to explain.

The feeling you got when you kissed him was the same feeling you got from the few other men you kissed in the past three years. Of course you had tried to move on by finding a partner but...

"Jungkook ruined me." You whined making Felix jump slightly.

"I'm so sorry Felix. But when you ever get to kiss your soulmate you'll know what I mean." You tried to explain, "It's like you're being united with another part of your soul you didn't know you were missing. It's just like the best feeling ever."

You sighed, burying your face in your hands, "I'm sorry but as much as I like you, I just didn't feel anything."

He was supposed to be angry or sad or disappointed but he just gave you an adorable cheeky smile, "You like me?"

You blinked. Did you say that?

"But you also like Jungkook, but like ten times more?"

You were amazed how he managed to say that all cutely, sounding like a five years countig till twenty for the first time.

"I-I..."

You knew that 'liking' Jungkook was and understatement.

But you felt like admiting it loudly would only make you vulnerable.

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