Life is too short
to hide your feelings
don't be afraid to say
what you feel

~•~

Jungkook

"Is everything okay, babe?

"Yes, I'm fine."

She smiled back at me and slung her arms around my neck before kissing my. I felt awful.

Better said - I felt nothing. Before, I had enjoyed to kiss and make out with Sera, but now that I kissed Y/N again my lips felt just numb when I kiss someone other.

I scoffed. It happened all over again. I grew too fond of the girl that wasn't good to me, and I fucking hated it.

Or at least now I did. A couple of years ago my dumb self thought differently.

Sera, of course didn't notice her my mental absence and soon detached herself from me, strolling back into the fancy living room of our home.

Home. Nothing here felt like home. But whenever I thought of my actual home I got this suffocating feeling in my chest and the unexplainable want to punch the wall next to him.

This was hell.

3rd person

The next days went terrible for Jungkook.

He only dreamed of her lips, saw her face when kissing his girlfriend and - what was the worst - got excited by the thought of having her trapped under him against the wall of the small café.

But it needed more for him to give up than the fact that he was getting off by picturing a girl that wasn't his fiancée.

Jungkook

I woke up by the feeling of not being able to breath.

Sweat had formed all over my skin and my eyes were burning, it felt as if my whole body was set on fire.

I gritted his teeth as he set up, mumbling, "Not again."

I would not go through this shit once again. I knew this already. It had happened during the first months after leaving her, my body such as my soul screaming to go back to her. But at all the same time my mind refused to do so, cause after all, I knew that it was better that way, leaving out the fact that I was hurting like shit.

But I wasn't willing to endure this one more time.

I got out of the bed, huffing and careful to not wake Sera. My limbs - no my everything hurt as I made my way to the kitchen to get myself something to drink, before settling down on the couch, my phone resting in my hand.

I stared at the unlocked screen, that showed her contact Sera had saved on my phone, sweat dripping down my forehead that felt as if someone had filled it with lava.

But the pain was barely noticeable for my right now. I was too busy fighting with myself, deciding wether I should do it or not.

It had started to rain, small droplets drumming against the windows, but besides that it was completely  quiet.

I might have stayed like that for about thirty minutes, before I lifted my shaking hands to type the words, that would probably make my life a living hell.

But I had to see her, was it because I wanted the pain to stop or because of a totally different reason.

2nd person

No.

No, you would not answer that, you would never, under any condition-

"Sorry Felix, I'll be back in a minute." You said before hastily rushing into the workers restroom.

You:
What do you want.

Jeon Jungkook:
See my soulmate🙃

You:
Fuck off
You:
I stopped being your soulmate the moment you abandoned me like I was some kind of toy

Jungkook:
You can't be serious
Jungkook:
Pls princess😭 give me a second chance

You:
Princess my ass
You:
You don't deserve a second chance

You were about to go back to Felix, when he texted you another message, that had you wanting to throw your phone into a wall.

Jungkook:
I'll break up with Sera if you want me to

You:
Don't you fucking dare to. She doesn't deserve that you sick bastard

Jungkook:
Then go out with me or I'll break up with her.

You:
Thats so fucked up
You:
Ok but I'm doing that for Sera

Jungkook:
I promise you won't regret it😉

'Read'

I feel like that's exactly whats gonna happen.

You thought while turning off your phone.

"I can't believe I'm saving a girls relationship by going out with her fiance." You said out loud into the empty room.

You had always wished to meet Jungkook again and to go back like everything had been during the good old days. But now that you had the opportunity to, you wished nothing but him to stay away from you.

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I want to clear up the whole 'I'm going out with you to save your relationship' thingy

Jungkook kind of emotionally blackmailed her into this, knowing exactly that if he threatened to hurt another person (emotionally) because of her, she wouldn't forgive herself.
On top of that does she believe that Jungkook could actually be able to do that afer he left her ( Y/N) already, so of course she would agree to anything if it means to keep Jungkook from breaking up with Sera, althought this will obviously not make things better.

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