46| Broken
One month later
"Amber... Amber?!" I jolted in surprise and glanced at Kayla.
"Yeah?"
"Why do you still have your head on the computer? It's lunchtime."
"I don't feel like eating," I mumbled, looking back at my computer.
"You need to feed something to your broken heart." She sighed, leaning her hip next to my table.
Broken heart? It's much worse than that.
"First the food goes in your stomach, not your heart..." I answered furiously, typing on my computer. "And second, I'm not heartbroken."
It's torn into so many pieces that I don't think I'll be able to put them back together.
"Don't lie, because I can feel the misery radiating from you." I kept my eyes on the screen, trying to avoid her gaze
"I'm fine Kayla- Hey!" I shrieked when she pulled my computer's plug. "I am working!"
"It's lunchtime and you won't get a promotion for working on your break." She rolled her eyes.
"But I will get a promotion if I write a good story." I groaned, plopping my back on my chair. "I just need to find it."
"You already have one." She pointed, and I shook my head.
"I won't write about him."
I began investigating Finlay's case for the story only, but on the way, I got distracted. I shouldn't care, but it didn't feel right to write about him when he didn't even remember me. That day dug a hole inside me and nothing could fix it. It felt like yesterday when it was almost a month ago.
A month of my misery and grief.
When Finlay woke up that day, the doctors asked him what he recalled. He remembered how he was born, his parents, the Cockburns, and his revenge, which made the others astonished while I bounced on my steps as I waited for him to say anything about me. He remembered the night of the accident and every little detail, but not me.
I wanted to scream and beat the shit out of him for not knowing me, but I couldn't because I knew he wasn't to blame. It was his soul with whom I spent the time and I should have comprehended from the beginning of this possibility. Whatever happened in that period meant nothing to him, but for me, it was everything.
I even fell for him.
That day I heard my heart shattering loud and clear in my ears. It echoed through my whole body and I thought I might pass out, but I didn't because I felt numb. I watched as everyone greeted Finlay and Dolina, weeping as she hugged her grandchild and thanked god he remembered everything.
Everything but not me.
His ocean eyes wandered around the room observing everyone and when they landed on me, I saw nothing but dullness. They didn't even stay on me for a second and went next to Neil.
That's when I knew I wasn't needed there anymore. He didn't remember me, so what was the use of staying? I sneaked out of the room with no one noticing me, quickly booked my ticket on my phone, went to the Cockburns' castle for the last time to pick up my things, and flew back to New York City.
Mr. Bulter almost caught me at the castle, but I told him I just needed my things. I placed Finlay's mother box I brought with me in his room and walked out of there, never looking back.
It's been almost a month and if I say I got back to my usual life like Finlay never happened to me, then I will be bluffing because I couldn't stop thinking about him... I knew him for just a few weeks and fell for him hard and fast, and it was all my fault.
Instead of relaxing as I planned, I began working the next day. I tried to find another story while working on my usual task, but no luck.
Kayla was the only one who knew about Finlay, so I told her what happened in Scotland. She said I was stupid to run away and should have confronted him, but I was a stranger to him.
I had a little hope in my heart that maybe he'll remember me someday and try to contact me, but it had been a month and nothing happened, so I gave up all hope.
"If you don't want to write about him, then fine." She said, getting me out of my train of thought. "But you need to do something to get over him. You need closure."
"If I eat lunch with you, will you stop talking about him?" She pressed her lip together and then sighed.
"For now."
I unwillingly got up from my seat and we went to the elevator and pressed the button. As we waited for it, I felt someone standing beside me. I side glanced to see Paige looking ahead with her usual blank expression. We greeted her and entered the elevator. There was an awkward silence as I stood between Kayla and Paige. I haven't interacted with her since I begged her to give me Finlay's information.
"I heard Finlay woken up from a coma." She said out of the blue.
"Yeah..." I cleared my throat as I shifted on my steps.
Why does everyone want to talk about him?!
"It turns out his sister-in-law and cousin were behind it." She told us, not knowing I was the one who caught them.
"Where did you hear from?" I asked curiously.
The last I know there wasn't any news going around related to Finlay or Cockburn and Paige wasn't interested in it since it got restricted by the FBI.
"Conner told me," she answered. "When they found that Agent Oliver from that Scotland agency was also included, they put Conner back on the case to end it." Kayla and I side-glance at each other.
"You, uh... In contact with him?" Kayla's curiosity perked up.
"We are dating..." she said, making me choke on air. "Kind off I think," she mumbled the last part, but I heard her. Her ears turned red, but she kept a straight face.
"That's a... Good to know." I beamed, and the elevator stopped at our floor. "What happened to Candice?"
"She got ten years of imprisonment for misguiding the police and helping with criminal activity."
Good, that bit*h deserves it.
Kayla and I walked out while she remained in her spot.
"Finlay's mother's death anniversary is the weekend," she said, making me halt. "He goes there every year."
I stared at the closed door as I processed her words. Paige was the one who was assigned to Finlay's case before it got restricted. That's how she must have known this information.
"You should go," Kayla said, getting me out of my trance.
"We don't know for sure if he'll come all the way from Scotland," I mumbled.
"But what if he does?" She stressed it. "This may be your chance to have your closure to get over him."
I don't want to get over him... But I need to see him again, even just for a minute.
"I don't know..."
"Stop acting Amber. I know your curious a** is dying to go there right now." she snorted, and she was right.
"Fine..." I sighed. "Guess I'll pay my town a visit."
I haven't visited that place since I graduated from high school. Things that Finlay makes me do, and he doesn't even know about it.
"Your uncle is going to kill you." Kayla giggled as we walked towards the Cafeteria. "He was literally freaking out in his office when you told him about Scotland. He looked like he'll yank anyone's head off so no one talked to him that day."
"I'll just say it's for a story. He won't have any choice." I winked as we stopped at the coffee machine.
"So... Paige and Conner?" Kayla smirked. "I'd like to see how that turns out."
Me too.
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A/N
Ok... So I misjudged the chapters like every time 😬 we will start the countdown from the next chapter!
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