i wobbly went back to my apartment, my eyes cannot believed what i just watched.

"i killed two people....."i whispered as i flopped on to my bed.

they deserve it.

"they do?"

ofcourse they did hurt you before you did right?

"yeah....wait what?"

i looked around the room to see who i was talking to. the dark room made it more creepier so i turned my lights on.

there's no one.

until i realized,

it's in my head.

i'm crazy. 

or am i just possessed? 

jungkook.

"fucking stop playing in my mind jungkook, you let me go, so please, let my soul go as well." i pleaded, my eyes full of tears, knowing he can hear me.

"everyone fucking hate me for what you did, you see yourself as my hero but i fucking don't! you're a monster who likes to use people's body for violence because you're a fucking coward! do it your fucking self! leave me alone!" i screamed on the top of my lungs, kneeling on the floor as i calm myself down.

sure.

what the fuck.

i want to kill him myself.

the world i'm supposed to be in, i am despised, the world he put me in, i am despised by my own sister.

where will i place myself then?

where will be the place i will call home?

i cried all night, thinking about the ways of surviving this world without getting caught by the police. 

i don't wanna spend my life in jail with a crime i didn't even do.

they won't believe i was possessed anyways.

the best thing i could actually do is just hide.

hide until when, y/n?

until you rot in this room when you don't even know when they'll find you here. 

i groaned.

i'm even arguing with myself.

i grabbed my first aid kit and rolled up my pants, seeing nothing but my not shaved legs.

where did the wound go?

of course, jungkook.

i laid on my bed until my stomach groaned in hunger. i don't even have food inside my room, even the instant noodles are gone. i slammed my hands on the bed, deciding on just to sleep this hunger.

i changed into my pajama and flopped onto my bed, almost crying of hunger.

day 1 of not eating : i'm already dying.

so i'm really gonna rot here, huh?

i looked at my palm and saw the letter carved on me, i ran my fingers through it. 

blood must have went to my palm when i got shot so jungkook have been getting in my head. first mistake.

first day in this world, i just got back and i already got hurt by somebody i love. 

my heart ached at the site of my boyfriend looking at me as if i was  a different person, as if i was a demon in his eyes. 

maybe what he saw in the video was a demon, but that wasn't me. i didn't kill anyone so why am i facing these consequences? 

can't be the actual devil face it himself, that a tiny innocent human like me would suffer in her own home?

my stomach growled continuously as i closed my teary eyes for sleep. 

i woke up with a smell of my favorite bacon and egg. but i'm sure i was dreaming so i decided not to open my eyes and just live in my dreams where bacon actually existed.

but i can't go back to my sleep so i decided to open my eyes angrily.

why can't i go back to a nice dream?

i sniffed and still smelled the bacon.

am i still dreaming?

i bit on to my arm and groaned when it turned red.

i looked at my bedside table and saw the bacon and egg.

what the?

i quickly went to eat it without even breathing. i was too hungry to even think about anything.

when i was done, i realized, i wasn't in a dream. i just ate food.

but from who?

i found a piece of leaf with letters carved on to it.

"ur fav. yea, i'm a monster."

jungkook?

am i supposed to feel bad for calling him monster last night? no way.

i dressed up to go to the store, at a small store at least, so i couldn't get caught in the cctv. i grabbed my wallet, went out.

the sky wasn't clear, grey clouds above me made me feel blue and sad once again. realizing i am alone in this storm. i walked with cap covering my face, hoping no one recognizes me or it's game over.

i finally found a small store without a cctv, i went to get all the thing i need. including a bulk of ramen. hope i don't die by eating these everyday.

well, better than dying in hunger.

i walked to the beer section where i saw a lot soju i could drink to entertain myself. i bought 4 bottles and grabbed two banana milk.

i also grabbed all my sanitary needs, if ever the monthly blood comes in the way.

i went to the cashier and a really old lady smiled at me so i smiled back. i then lowered my head incase she knows me.

but she didn't so i easily went outside the store with two big plastic bags in my hands. as i was walking back to my home, small tips of rain dropped on my skin. 

gosh, i even forgot to buy an umbrella.

i decided to ran fast the dark alleyway when i bumped and all the grocery went to the wet floor. my cap flew off and i gasp as the rain hit my face.

"sorry......wait.." i opened my eyes to see three guys hovering over me, "isn't she the most wanted in this town?"

"yeah, definitely. isn't the reward like so high?" the three guys chuckled.

"oh hello there, easy money." 

i crawled back, "i-i'm not!" i screamed.

"what are you going to do? cut our dick off?" they all laughed.

i stood up, "i'm not that person, please go." i confidently said, not showing the fear inside.

one held my arm, "stop!"

"is she armed?" 

one of the guys' hand roamed around my body as i tried to scream for help.

but who would help the most wanted woman?

"nope."

"good, let's bring her to the police." they all chuckled and dragged me by my hand as my body rubbed against the cement.

i cried in silent, thinking everything is over. 

until, the hand holding me stopped. i took this chance to run but looked back when i heard screaming of the guys.

"what the fuck! where did you come from! let go of him!"

"fucking bastard!"

i saw one of the guys tried to stab jungkook while he was choking one of the guy's friend but he caught it on his other hand.

he choked both of them in the air easily, making the one guy shivered on his place. he was about to run when suddenly a black creature appeared.

"what the fuck! please! no! mama!" the guy screamed.

i looked at him and shook my head, "are you possessing me again? please stop! i don't fucking like it! kill people yourself! don't use my body!" i screamed.

"who said i'm using your body?" he chuckled.

"what?"

"i'm fucking here physically choking two people." he rolled his eyes, "hey you, can you see me?" he talked to the scared guy with the four legged creature in front of me.

"w-what?"

"i said can you see me? what am i wearing?" 

"a w-weird red shiny coat a-and-" but then, the creature swallowed him alive.

"bastard. how can he call my fashion weird?" he muttered and then he looked at me.

he threw the bodies aside so the creature could feast on it deliciously.

he slowly walked towards me, tilting his head a s i started to step back.

"am i still a coward to you?"

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hope you liked this chapter, excuse the mistake!

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