I don't know why I thought I could hold it back

I suppose I underestimated the true strength of this storm

Looking back from the darkness in which I sit

I suppose it made no difference at all

I guess my path was laid already

That the smoke was waiting to swallow me whole

Maybe the fight was nothing but a dream

I was such a fool to try

I was such a fool to learn

I thought that it would stay put.

I thought I had expelled it from my mind

I suppose I just helped push it farther inside

Helped it grow and burst in size

Maybe the winds gave up

Or maybe it was time

But whatever the reason, I'm stuck here now

Wishing and waiting for someone else to try

To fail and join me

To wish they never let the storm into their mind