I dreamed about him and had loads of fantasies about him, me and us. My dreams were just that too and I knew we were nothing. I was married with a family and he was straight. Soo..

I would love to say that we hooked up and got it on! But no... I know he flirted with me and joked around. We had serious conversations too. I found him staying late to help me more often and I just never told anyone. I considered him a friend at work.

Whenever they ordered out for food, he always got me something. Always. And when they went to restaurants after work, which I couldn't go to because I was still working, he always invited me... even though I had to decline. Like he would come out of the dressing room, dressed, and find me to ask me if I was coming too. He never forgot to ask me.

I went to a few house parties though. Just a small dinner with a few of them. Not all of them hung out together after work but the ones I liked did. One dinner in particular that I went to was just a small dinner with David, his wife, Kim, Anouk and his wife, also a nurse but she worked in the OB... She helped deliver babies... and Zale and whatever he was dating. Uhg!

So, I sat and listened to them all talk about their lives outside of work. It was very low key and nice. David was drinking. I learned that most of them drank alcohol when they weren't on call. Alcoholics! I teased them a lot. They talked about family and asked about mine since I was pretty quiet about the subject.

David smiled as he spoke. He was half in the bag by this point. "Hey, didn't I see you with some man at the store the other day?"

I sighed. I had in fact seen him at the store. I was holding my hubby's hand. I still loved him but we were having issues. He didn't see anything as a problem. He thought we were fine. We weren't. But I was trying...

"What guy?" Zale was sitting up on the edge of his seat. His sunglasses were on and he looked so suave. His black hair was always a mess but he was so cute. I swear. He had amazing taste and always looked so nice in his street clothes.

I sighed again. "My... husband..." I flinched. No one knew and I was hoping to keep it that way. But here we were... I just had to know people. Damn.

I saw shock on most everyone's faces and David laughed his ass off. Like he fell off his chair and spilled his drink, laughing. Asshole. I laughed at his antics.

It took David forever to regain some composure and I had no idea what that was about. "We thought you were homophobic!" David's wife, Kim, exclaimed. "Well, David did!"

I stared at them while I blushed. "What? Why?"

Anouk was still chuckling. "Oh, there was some comment made months ago about being gay and you never commented and walked off so we thought that you hated gays!"

I covered my face. "No!" I took a breath and wanted to die. "No! I just don't talk about it and I didn't know you guys then! That was like day three after I met you!"

Kim giggled. "Oh!"

Zale was still watching me. He had sunglasses on so it wasn't obvious. He leaned back in his chair and never moved his head. His eyes were locked on me. Great.

I tried like hell not to notice and tried to ignore him as conversation stayed on gays and being married to a man. They were all so interested. Kim especially. "I never met a gay couple! You guys.. You know... have sex!"

I blushed. "No! I am not talking about my sex life!"

David chuckled. "So you don't have sex?"

I glared at him as Anouk laughed. "You blush so much!"

"Shut up!" I covered my face and groaned. "I hate you all!"

David laughed as Kim giggled. They were drunk. "So..."

I glared at him. "Well, we're married so...?"

Kim laughed as she talked. "How often! I bet it's all the time!"

I wasn't ever going to my normal pale white again. "Shut up!" I covered my face and stood up. "I'm going to the bathroom!" I rushed inside to the bathroom. I didn't know where it was but I found it.

Things had calmed down when I walked back out but things were off... Zale was gone with his girlfriend. I sat. "Where did Zale go?"

David chuckled. "He's rethinking his life decisions."

Anouk chuckled. "Sure! I'm pretty sure he is breaking up with his girlfriend!"

"Oh..." I nodded. Okay. I feel like I was missing a bunch. And the conversation moved to Zale and his failed relationships and I finally hugged them all and left. It was overall, a very enjoyable dinner.