Lapis' POV:

"Wow..." I muttered lowly in a raspy voice. I sat hunched over on my small couch in my apartment complex. My phone was held up to my ear, but my arm was already getting tired. I could barely keep my eyes open, due to the sleepless nights. "So...it really happened..." I added, staring straight ahead at my stained wall."Yeah...I didn't think it would last anyways." Jasper replied over the phone quietly.

"Do you think they'll ever get back together?"

"Probably not. I know how my mom is. She never looks back on things like that."

"My mother always takes that type of shit the hardest..."

"Well, what can ya do."

"You said it was just 'cause of business?"

"Well, that's the excuse my mom always uses for a breakup. It's what she used for dad too. Who knows the REAL reason it happened, honestly."

"Cold..."

"Yeahhh...but you do realize what this means, right?"

"..."

"Riiiiighhhht...?"

"Well...yeahhh...but I kinda doubt Peridot would ever wanna see me again. Much less talk to me."

"Well, it's worth a try, right?"

"Not really."

"C'mon, Lapis. Y'know you love her. You can't give up that easily."

"Mmmmm..."

"Lapis. Just give it one more try. I won't push you to anymore after this. But just try. One more time. For you guys. For your relationship."

"I guess I could try one more time...for our sake."

"There we go. I wish you good luck on that."

"Hey, I never said I'm for SURE going to."

"Well, think about it."

"..."

"I gotta go, but just lemme know how it goes. Alright?"

"'k."

"Alright, bye Lapis."

"Bye, Jas."

Call ended.

I stared down at my phone for about a whole minute, just contemplating on what my next move would be. Should I call her? I scrolled through my contacts looking for her name, and immediately halted as soon as I reached P. There was Pearl...then Peridot. I read her name over and over again, and her name was etched in my mind. Voices in my head kept repeating the beloved name, and I blinked a few times. I can't call her.

Calling her seemed like an extremely weak move. If I wanted to show her that I actually cared, I would have to physically go and see her. Go to her dorm. Go see her face-to-face. I sighed, and closed my eyes tightly. I pinched the bridge of my nose and took a few deep breaths. I finally stood up, and stretched my arms to the sky, groaning loudly. You can do this, Lapis. You can do this. Make things right.

I grabbed my keys, and headed out the door. I was gonna fix things, and get our relationship back on track. My sulking had to end NOW. I hurt Peridot, and I had to go apologize. She's one of the people you care for MOST. As I exited the apartment complex, I started walking down the empty sidewalk across from the entrance. I continued walking down this block, and sooner than I expected, the university building came into view.

My heart skipped a beat as soon as I spotted it, because every time I ever see that building, she pops into my head. I shoved my hands into my pocket, and looked to the sides of me. Building after building lined the streets, and Beach City citizens in their little cars drove by. I huffed, and stared down at my shoes as I continued to trudge down the path. My shoes are dirty ugh.

After a little while more, I looked up, and noticed the building was a LOT closer. I reached the double doors of the entrance, and pulled open one of the doors. I kept a low profile and immediately turned my head down. I swiftly walked down to the hallways, and took another deep breath. As I inched closer and closer to Peridot's dorm room, the pace of my heartbeat picked up.

I became more and more self conscious, and I looked down at my clothes. I came to the terrifying realization that I hadn't even bothered to brush my hair or ANYTHING. My clothes were from the night before, there were terrible bags under my eyes, and my hair was probably a rats' nest. However, there was no turning back now. I had already walked a few blocks to get here, and there was no point in having to go all the way back. Maybe I should just do this another time? I suggested to myself, and I mentally smacked myself immediately afterward. No. You're doing this NOW.

No more postponing this. You have to fix this. I took one more deep breath before raising a shaky fist to the door. You can do this. Just breathe. I then knocked gently on the door. I had a miniature heart attack as I noticed the door slowly open by itself. I realized that the door had already been cracked, and I looked to the side for a moment. I switched my gaze back and forth down the halls, then back at the doorway.

I didn't know what to do. Should I go in? What if she kicks me out? Would that be too invasive? Should I just wait here? I just stood there quietly for about thirty seconds before letting out another shaky breath. "P-Peridot..." I whispered, and I cursed myself for being so nervous and quiet. I decided to try again. "Peridot..." I said a bit louder, but I received no response. "Peridot?" I called even louder, but still received nothing in return.

The click of the door across from Peridot's room startled me, and that door opened instead. I whipped my head around to look over at it, and my stomach lurched. There stood Peridot's best friend Amethyst, and her eyes widened as soon as she made eye contact with me. "Lapis?!" she paled, and her eyebrows scrunched up. "Uh yeah...h-hi..." I murmured, scratching the back of my neck. "Wh-what're you doin' here?" she asked in a surprised tone of voice.

"Um actually...h-have you seen Peridot? I don't think she's in her room..." I replied quietly. "Dude...where have you been?" she then asked me. I felt my face heat up, and I looked away. "A-around..." was all I said in response. "Whatever you said to Peridot...really fucked her up, man. Whatever you did." she then said, and my heart sunk in my chest. I already felt tears begin to form, but I held them back as best I could. "Wh-what? What'd I say? Did she talk to you about it?" I questioned all at once frantically.

"She's outta here, man. She left Beach City to pursue another robotics career in support of her momma's business, dude. She doesn't live here anymore." Amethyst explained with a sad expression. "I-I...sh-she's not here anymore?" I shakily asked. "Bro, she's gone." she replied quieter, scrunching up her eyebrows. Those words kept echoing into my brain. She's gone. Tears began to flood from my eyes, and there was nothing I could do to stop them. I missed my chance. I missed my opportunity to actually show Peridot how much I love her. How much I care for her. How much I miss her.

I wiped my tears away, and I blinked a couple of times. I turned around and peeked into the doorway of Peridot's dorm room. I pushed it open a little wider, and looked around. The room was in fact empty, and it felt as if my heart shattered into a million pieces. I missed my chance. I waited too long. "Th-thanks for letting me know." I shakily murmured to Amethyst, turning back towards the end of the hallway. "Uh, you good bro?" she asked, and I turned away even more. "I-I'm fine. J-just...do you know where she went?" I asked.

She shook her head no with an apologetic expression on her face. I sighed, and shoved my hands back into my pockets. "W-well...if you ever talk to her again, t-tell her that I'm really sorry." I said, trying to keep my voice steady. "Yeah yeah for sure man." she replied in a soft tone. I gritted my teeth, and clenched my fists inside my pockets. God fucking dammit. GOD DAMMIT. I kept cursing to myself as I exited those door one last time.

She left Beach City. Never to return, as far as the I can see. Never to return to me. She was upset, and most likely was always going to be upset with me inside. I couldn't blame her one bit. I was upset with me too. I missed my chance. I had to face facts, she would probably end up a lot better off without me anyways. I was only holding her back, and causing her pain. She hoped for a future between us, and I just ended all of that. I was selfish. I felt disgusting.

She would probably thrive and become successful off of her brilliant technology anyways. Her brilliant mind. I would be stuck here, nearly broke and working at a run down coffee shop - probably where I deserve to be. Part of me wanted to be happy for her for making such a wise decision, but the other chunk of me felt miserable and heartbroken knowing I was gonna have to live a full life without her. I would never be able to hear her adorable voice again, or see her beautiful face. Everything about her is just so amazing, and I couldn't bear to face the harsh reality of all this.

The next time I'd see her face again would probably be on a billboard or on television. She is just so intelligent, I had no doubt in my mind that she would become something huge. Before I knew it, my apartment complex had come into sight again, and I sighed glumly.

I missed my chance.

((Hey guys so it's ISuckAtLife here. I'm posting this for Baggy today. So sorry I posted it late, I just had a lot of softball today. Y'know me AhA. Baggy is gonna be a little busy but she's still posting chapters! Uh, that's it, byeee))