"yoongi!!!! yoongi...."

jimin sniffled, not able to find his friend anywhere.

tae squeezed jimin's shoulder, "wanna check the cemetery?  he probably went to visit hoseok again.  you know he leaves a letter there every few days."

jimin nodded.

"want me to go with you?"

"no its okay.  you're probably right, i'll be back."

as jimin made it to the cemetery he felt off.

"yoon!? yoongi!?"

he sighed when there was no response walking the path to hoseok's grave.

the weird feeling only grew.

he looked up from the gravel path and over to the gravestone ahead.  he saw the small male leaning against the gravestone and sighed in relief, "yoon! there you are!"

he ran over but gulped, "y-yoongi... yoon!"

he immediately noticed yoongi's face had no pink tint, all the color drained from his face.

jimin searched yoongi's pockets, finding a paper and pill capsule.

he grabbed the capsule first to find it empty and looked around, finding a beer bottle not too far. 

jimin pressed his fingers to yoongi's neck, tears in his eyes before he even pressed down.

no heartbeat.

"y-you're a fucking idiot." jimin couldn't stop the tears as he grabbed his phone, dialling tae's number.

"jimin?"

"tae...."

"what's wrong? did you find him, gguk is on his way."

"no! don't let him! stop him, he cant- fuck!"

"jimin?"

"it's yoongi!  he overdosed!"

it was silent.

"m-minie...."

jimin dropped his phone, spinning to jeongguk who stared with big eyes.  he grabbed the beer bottle by his foot, and looked to yoongi's cold body.

"h-he did it.... d-didnt he?"

jimin nodded carefully, "h-he's gone gguk........im so sorry....i didn't get here in time...."

jeongguk stared at the bottle, just angry.  he screamed, throwing the bottle at a tree nearby.

jimin flinched, jeongguk grabbing the pill capsule from his's hand.  "of course it would be with the same exact prescription as hoseok's.  selfish fuckers."

he crushed the capsule with his palms after struggling for a few seconds, cutting his hand with the plastic.

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"are you regretting it yet?"

"dont you dare."

"come on kitten."

"no.  i honestly dont.  i don't hurt anymore.  i can breath.  and i have you."

hoseok smiled sadly, "i'm sorry.  i regret it.  i regret it completely.  you kept trying to follow me."

yoongi watched his little brother cry, he did feel a bit bad.

jimin looked up from hugging the bunny boy and made direct eye contact with yoongi.

hoseok chuckled at yoongi's shocked expression.

"oh yeah, i didn't tell you.  jimin can see spirits~" hoseok kissed yoongi's cheek.

yoongi took hoseok's hand cowering in jimin's gaze.

"yoongi.  you're a mother fucking idiot for this you know."

yoongi nodded.

hoseok waved at jimin who narrowed his eyes before turning back to jeongguk.

"come on yoon, let me show you something.  you see their reaction isn't the only one.  tae told joon and joon told jin."

yoongi squeezed hoseok's hand, it wasn't warm like when they were alive but it was enough.

"d-did you read them?"

"what? oh, your letters?  yeah, all of them before the janitor guy took them thinking they were trash.  but i made sure to read them."

"why didn't you just read them as i wrote if you were watching me?"

"then why would you write them if you could say it out loud?"

yoongi hummed, it made sense to answer his question that way.

hoseok stopped, pointing to jin who was kicking around a rock looking lost.  he didn't even hear namjoon calling his name.

yoongi was silent.

namjoon went and hugged jin who immediately broke down.

yoongi could hear him crying.

"i can't believe he's gone!"

yoongi took a step closer but hoseok blocked him off, shaking his head before walking the other way to tae's apartment.

yoongi followed and saw tae sitting outside on a bench, his face red from crying.

yoongi huffed, not able to do anything with hoseok blocking his way.

"hobi!"

"dont interact just yet, wait a week.  let them cope on their own right now."

~~~~~~

"i still kinda dont regret it."

"at least not yet."

yoongi sighed, about to speak but hoseok placed a gentle kiss to his lips.

yoongi smiled, one of his first smiles in 3 years.

they continued with gentle kisses, yoongi crying after a bit.

"what's wrong?"

"n-nothing, i just missed you so much."

"i missed you too my kitten."