dear hoseokie,

im sorry about the drunk letter.  i keep doing it.  i keep drinking.  sorry, i do remember when i promised you i'd never drink or smoke so i could be your pure baby.  i know it was a joke but i still broke a promise to you. 

i miss you.

i miss you.

i miss you.

i read it.  i've been rereading it. 

you are selfish.

leaving me here.  it still hurts.  i couldn't even go with you cause my dumbass called the paramedics even though i knew you were going to die.  if i didn't call i could be with you.

you were still warm when i passed out so i guess we lasted that long together.  i want you back. 

i kinda wish i wasn't the one that found you. 

maybe it wouldn't hurt so bad hearing it from someone else.

love
your kitten; yoongi