dear hobi,

today was....shit.

jin got mad at me again cause i was 'in one of my moods'

i just miss you.

well he was mad cause today i was super sensitive to the mention of you.

today was the day we met.

remember?

it was in middle school, you picked on me for my height, using me as an arm rest but i remember you clearly stating you loved ny attitude.

you would call me little gummy, kitten, or sweetpea.  i didn't understand why such sweet names when you still picked on my height.

well joonie called me sweetpea and i just started crying.  jin got mad and got annoyed.  it's been 2 years, i should be over it.

jimin tried to defend me, saying that my love for you isn't something that i can recover from that easy.  he said it's possible to die from heart break.

honestly..... that'd be the way id want to go.  i'd want to miss you so much i die.

and i said that outloud like an idiot and jin got even more mad saying i should get over it because he didn't want me to suffer forever.  he is right, but i'll probably never get over it.

it hurts.  i want you back.

remember when we agreed to have sex so our friends wouldn't be able to tease us for being virgins at the end of highschool?

and how you killed yourself 2 months after.

but it took us 2 hours for your argument to win and i'd bottom.

i'm not going to lie and say i didn't enjoy bottoming to you cause i loved it.  you were so gentle with me.

you knew i loved baths so you gave me a warm bath and lots of kisses after, and praised me for being so good.

i just wish we could do it again.

time to go, i love you sunshine.

-love,
      your kitten; yoongi