Sakino keeps bugging me about it all day and all night. My phone won't stop buzzing. I've had to put it on silent and even had to mute her on all my social medias a couple of times because of how hectic my phone becomes. She won't stop pestering me about it! Every hour of every day, I get a text or a phone call or even an email come through asking about if I have said anything. It's gotten to the point where I don't even answer anymore. What's the point? She should know the answer by now and she shouldn't keep pestering me about stuff that doesn't even matter. I get to choose what I do, not her. She doesn't decide what I do or who I talk to or what I talk about. No one does.

Every nightmare that manages to weasel its way into my brain, I shrug off and tell Katsuki it's just me having a bad mental spell (which isn't wrong! I'm slightly stretching the truth) and that I'll be fine. Each night, waking with a cold sweat, Katsuki is there for me. He doesn't understand what's going on, sure, but he still holds me close and keeps me grounded enough to fall back asleep. To help me feel comfortable enough to release the string of consciousness and allow slumber to wrap its tight arms around me again and again.

But it's the same nightmare. Over and over. Again and again. Each and every night. It doesn't stop. Not for me. Not for Katsuki. Not for anyone. It's like a wasp that won't leave you alone in the summer time when you're wearing a bright colour. It's never ending. It'll never stop. Never. Not even for a little bit. As much as I want it to end, I know deep down that it won't ever go away. It'll come back again and again, all over again, until I eventually lose my mind. It's almost like he's winning...

That he's coming to get me again.

Dreams are always the same. A dark alleyway, pitch black. The sound of footsteps. My breath slowly trickling from my lips. Chest hurting. Unable to feel my feet from how fast I tried to run. Throat closing up. Chest unable to handle the beating of my heart. Stomach acid threatening to expel itself. The menacing glint of the knife in the light. That sinister grin that makes my stomach coil uncomfortably and my saliva turn sour.

Those hazel eyes that bring me nothing but fear...

What am I suppose to do?

Nothing... I can't do anything. All I can do is push this down. Bottle it up and hope that it'll just go away after a couple of days. Hope that I will never see that face or those eyes ever again in my entire life. Pray that he'll never try for a second turn and ruin my life even more. Hope and pray that Katsuki will never ever find out about this whole situation. He doesn't need to worry about me when he's already got too much to worry over. I'm not important enough for that...

Besides, I don't need to worry. I'm never ever going to Katsuki's agency for the rest of my life until that bastard is dead and/or missing and/or fired. It's a win - win situation! I never have to worry about seeing him nor do I have to worry about my anxiety playing up.

I just need to keep it on the down low.

My mother doesn't even know what's going on. I hope to keep it that way. The last thing I need is her screaming at me down the phone to come home and never leave again. She worries too much. My mom doesn't know when to stop worrying and she'll keep going until it drives her insane. She's a worrier. Always has been and always will be... yet when she found out that my boyfriend is the number two hero, it's slowly begun to put her mind at ease.

Sighing gently to myself, I sit on the couch in the lounge of Katsuki's home while flicking through my comfort series. A faint smile on my lips as I nibble on some chocolate from the 'emergency pick - me - up' kit that Katsuki had made for me when he did a workshop for kids to show them how to make their own little wicker basket full of treats to help them cheer up after a bad day. Katsuki filled mine with all my favourite candy and chocolates and a couple of miniature stuffed animals and stress balls that I may need.

As I lean back against the plush cushion of the couch, I smile gently to myself. The stress of my university degree slowly hanging in the back of my mind yet I can't be bothered to worry about something that doesn't really need worrying about at the moment. My lips slowly mumble the words of the show in front of me as I swallow down the chocolatey goodness that is my favourite chocolate. A faint giggle leaving my lips as the canned laughter wafts through the television screen.

Ring! Ring! Ring!

Almost jumping out of my skin, I stare toward my phone that's ringing loudly on the coffee table. Cursing under my breath, expecting it to be Sakino, I grab my phone and open up the Lock Screen before smiling when I see the contact name 'Katsuki' with love heart emojis on the screen. A faint giggle leaves my lips as I press on the green call icon and then place it on speaker so I can relax back onto the couch.

"Hey baby face, how's my favourite girl in the world?" Katsuki's voice rings through the speaker, a giggle leaving my lips as I smile to myself and relax now that I can hear Katsuki's voice, "You feeling better today?"

"I guess so, I'm okay," I reply gently, clearing my throat as I nibble on some of the remaining chocolate in my lap, "Hows your day been so far, Kat? Busy?"

"It's been full of paperwork," Katsuki explains making me grimace faintly and swallow the chocolate down before clearing my throat, "Hey, I was wondering if you wanted to go out for lunch? Deku's recommended this restaurant/cafe place and apparently they have really good food and I wanna try it out,"

"Uh... sure, sounds good," I hum, running my fingers through my hair as I take a deep breath and try to calculate what outfit I should wear for the date, "Where shall we meet?"

"Well, you could meet me at the age —"

"No!" I immediately cut him off, silently screaming at myself for doing so and covering my face when I hear Katsuki makes a small sound of confusion, "I — I mean... uh... why don't we meet at the restaurant? I'll order a table for us, just send me the —"

"What is with you?" Katsuki asks making my breathe hitch as I stare toward my phone and dig my nails into my palms, "You're acting so weird lately, you need to talk to me about this,"

"It's nothing Katsuki, I just had a rough night," I tell him, hoping and praying that he just dismisses it and doesn't keep pestering me about the whole thing, "Send me the details of the restaurant and I'll meet you there, okay? What time were you thinking? Twelve?"

"Uh... yeah," Katsuki hums with a small sigh, I could practically see him sitting in his chair silently seething to himself, "I'll send you the address, I'll book it. I'll meet you there,"

"Okay," I hum, biting my lip at how awkward I had just made things before sighing as he hangs up after bidding me goodbye. My stomach twists horribly as I grab a pillow and scream into it, "For fucks sake! What the fuck is wrong with me?!"

It's okay. Just act like nothing happened when you get there! This is fixable. You can do this. Katsuki doesn't need to know a thing. Everything is perfectly fine. I just know it is...

I better get ready.

Taking a deep breath, I head toward Katsuki's bedroom that we share before opening up my half of the closet. Hoping that this relaxes me, I turn on Katsuki's CD player and place one of my CD's into the player. After choosing my favourite track, I take a deep breath and go back to choosing my outfit. It's lunch. It's not dinner so I don't have to be too formal. Maybe I could go for casual yet formal outfit. I don't want to go all out when it's not the evening. I need to wear something lovely. Something that I'm comfy in too.

After some heavy deliberation, I ended up going for a long sleeved pink and white checkered shirt with the first couple of buttons done and the bottom bit of the shirt tied into a knot over a white spaghetti strap top that hugs my curves perfectly. On my lower half are light blue denim ripped jeans with ankle socks and some sneakers. After sorting out my clothes, I grab my hairbrush and gently comb it through the knots in my hair. A faint smile on my lips as I take a deep breath and smile at my reflection, hoping to psyche myself up for the date I'm about to endure.

Once I've sprayed myself with my perfume and put on some deodorant, I send myself a small smile again in the mirror before heading toward the front door. Grabbing my purse, I place my phone inside and head out. With the door locked and me out in the fresh air, I head into the street and check the address of the restaurant Katsuki had in mind.

Luckily it's only a five minute walk.

As I head down the street, my mind running a mile a minute. A faint sigh leaving my lips as I cross the road and edge closer and closer toward the restaurant. My shoulders tensing up slightly as I run my fingers through my hair, worrying about someone coming up to me. That my attacker will jump out of nowhere...

However, as I find the restaurant and find Katsuki standing outside the front in his civilian clothes, my shoulders relax and a smile plays on my lips. The male clad in a white buttoned up shirt and some slacks. My heart fluttering at the sight of him. Immediately, I walk over and giggle as he wraps his arms around me to press a kiss to my temple. The pair of us sharing a quick kiss before Katsuki slides his hand into mine and leads me through the front doors of the restaurant.

As we walk in, I look around and can't help but smile to myself. It's similar to an American diner. Silver and red being the main colours through the establishment. All workers were clad in red shirts and a small apron wrapped around their waist. When we reach the front bit, Katsuki takes the lead and asks for a table for two while I look around and keep my hand locked in his. After grabbing our menus, the waitress shows us to our table and tells us she'll be back to help us order drinks later.

Once seated, I take a deep breath and look over the menu while Katsuki looks toward me and clears his throat. Nervously, I drop the menu to look toward him. My smile dissipates as he crosses his arms over his chest and narrows his eyes at me making me bite my lip and look down at my lap. I haven't ever really been on the receiving end of Katsuki's look of disappointment. Honestly, it's not a nice feeling...

"You gonna talk to me about what's going on?" Katsuki asks, watching as I shift under his gaze and look down in my lap with a small sigh, "You've been acting so weird lately and I'm starting to get worried... are you..."

"What?" I ask softly, watching as he clears his throat anxiously and sighs to himself. My eyes widening when I realise what he's hinting and I immediately shake my head, "No! God, Kat no... I don't want to break up. I promise you,"

"Then what is going on?" He asks, watching as I recoil slightly and sigh to myself as he quickly orders our drinks (he already knows what I like) before clearing his throat, "(Y/n), have I said something to hurt you? Please tell me if I have,"

"No, Kat... it's not you," I tell him with a sigh, rubbing the back of my neck while he leans against the back of the booth and watches as I close my eyes, "I just..."

"(Y/n), you need to talk to me or we can't get through this sort of thing," Katsuki tells me, watching as I fiddle with my nails when the waitress comes back with our drinks and we quickly order our food before going back to the conversation, "Please talk to me... if not maybe Mina or Momo? Just... I can't bear seeing you so upset,"

"I'll tell you... just..." I begin slowly before watching as Katsuki takes my hands into his and kisses across my knuckles, "I..."

"You don't have to tell me now..." He replies, smiling as I relax slightly. The male sliding round the booth to pull me into his chest to press a kiss to my cheek, "I just need to know that you trust me enough to talk to me about your feelings... about what's going on in your mind. You know how much you mean to me, right? You're my world,"

"Thank you Kat," I hum, looking up at him with a small hum and kissing his cheek while he pulls me close, "I just... need to wrap my head around it,"

"And that's okay, I just want you to know that when you're ready, you tell me," He says, watching as I nod before giggling as he holds his pinkie in front of my face, "Pinkie swear it,"

"Pinkie swear, huh?" I tease as I wrap my pinkie with his before kissing our thumbs to lock it, "Spending too much time with the twins by any chance?"

"Actually, it was Hiro. I would babysit him when he was younger and to get me to babysit him again, he would make me pinkie swear," Katsuki explains making me coo slightly. The male not pressing about it anymore and letting us just enjoy one another's presence, "Kinda miss him being the little squirt he was, he's a good kid,"

"Aww," I hum, drawing circles on his palm while we wait for food, "Thank you for understanding, Kat... it means a lot,"

"Hey, I've been through stuff that I don't want to talk about right away," Katsuki explains, running his fingers through my hair while I squeeze his hand gently, "Just don't bottle it up, okay? I'm here for you and I always will be,"

Blushing softly, I press my lips against his before staring toward the food that's presented in front of us. My eyes lighting up at the sight of the two burgers set on the table. My stomach whining happily at the sight as I sip at my soda before downing a couple of fries. Katsuki immediately begins to demolish his burger while I grab the corn on the cob and begin to eat the corn. A faint giggle leaving my lips as Katsuki gets grease all over his chin and cheeks.

"You know you're beautiful today, that shirt looks great,"...

"You look great too, Kat, you always do,"...

"I know,"...