Waves of an ocean

An ocean unknown

Feeling for them

It fully flows

Float, hope

Try, die

Curl into myself

Try and escape hell

I am uncertain

I leave the curtain

No one can see

Even I am not me

I'll hold close

I feel most

Yet all is gone

Not what I thought

I wake up soon

I barely knew

I could push around

I could force down

I wait

I anticipate

The stress of then

The feeling bends

I pour out

I can now

Yet no longer

I feel "stronger"

I keep away

I never say

I long to change

But won't pay