Here i am, holding tightly..
To a friendship.. Which was using me

I say things.. I know i do.. But when it comes back i know who..

You think just because of my hard shell.. I am not enough..
But who i am to judge.. I am still holding on to what you said..

Who needs it? I do not..

Who holding you when I'm at distraught?

understand.. You need to hold on..

But I'm still holding on so strong

You need to stop saying shit..

You think i am one of them.. I am not.  The one..

All you do is make me think.. Why did even check about it..? You are a pain in my chest, i need to get rid of.. You make me feel so sad.. But who needs it..

Yes i wont lie.. I cant deny... I have feelings for you.. And they just wont die.. No matter the gun the knife.. I cant kill them for you..

I need to be strong, like my friends say... But whenever your in my sight I feel reckless..

Me? I am something i can't explain..  And sometimes i dont even recognise myself.. No matter how hard I try..

I am growing, i am changing.. I am showing pain inside..

No matter.. How hard our love was.. You are still the one i think of.

Crushes, they are not suppose to last this long.. But no matter how hard i try i just cant move in, yes i sound desperate.. And i hate it.. I hate that i cant get over you, and lie to myself when i say i do.. Why can't i go back in time.. To remove it.. Tears shed.. For different reasons.. Sadly they shed for you

I am strong, but not when it comes to emotions... I cant hold on.. I need to stop it, i am young i dont need it.. Young love? Faking..

(A/N  not one of my best songs i wrote)