Hey,
I'm doing just fine.
I'm so glad
I met you.

Hey,
Are you okay?
I get asked that
Every single day.

The people around,
Are sometimes the best thing for
my mental health,
I wanna jump head first off my father's balcony,
but I don't want him to blame himself.

How
can I fix myself?
When all I do,
Is get confused and cut myself.

Though haven't done it in nearly a month,
And my dad doesn't even notice it,
My mom does but she notices everything.

I wanna stop,
Take a deep breath and
Fall.
I wanna go head first off my father's balcony.

Let me stop myself,
Before I something,
That is stupid,
And causes no one but more trouble.

Hey,
Let me say a few things,
I think I'm gonna end my life tomorrow.

Hey,
I'm okay.
I'm just looking for attention,
So look the other way...
My father thinks it,
I can see on his face,
Hes said it to my mother,
And other people too.
So maybe you should listen,
But I want you to stay,
Maybe you can save me from myself,
Or help me understand what I'm worth.

I have therapy soon,
So maybe I could drop all these thoughts,
To someone else instead of a rock,
Or a peice of paper.

I talk to the walls,
Like they're my only friends,
Please don't be worried I'm just bored.

I love writing stories,
And seeing people enjoy them,
Cause I feel like I have nothing to live for,

But then,
They come in

I've got two friends,
On the internet,
And when they talk to me,
I feel like more that what I claim to be,
I feel happy,
And we share our problems with each other.

Sometimes,
I feel like nothing,
But then my dad says
I don't have price.

And when I'm down,
My momma tells me,
Shes been through this,
And she'll go through it again for me.

And then I look down,
And hate myself even more.
Cause when people say that kinda stuff,
I hate myself for worrying them,

And I could count the stars,
For infinity,
Why would I want to kill myself,
With all this loyalty?..

I love you mom, you understand me,
I love dad, you make me feel like a champion,
I love you BJ, you're the best aunt like ever,
I love you brother, you make me laugh,
I love you Al, you're a better uncle then any of the ones I'm related to,
I love you Noah, I love your freckles,
Thank you for being my friend,
All 5 of you,
I love J, just know I'm here for you,

So I'll change my mind today,
And put it all aside.
Maybe one day I'll get closure,
But in the right way.

I want jump head first,
Off my father's balcony,
But I won't do it today,
Or ever.

Because I have people I love who care,
And my mother says its a cowardly act,
So thanks to all these people,
I'm haven't gone head first,
Off my father's

Off my father's

balcony.