private messages

june
i can't believe you would do this to me

seb
june i swear mina is just my costar there's nothing going on between us

seb
i've never thought about her or any other girl that way since the day i met you

seb
i would never EVER cheat on you

june
how you could not tell me about your secret side hoe

june
think of all the missed threesome opportunities

seb
i can't tell if this is joking june or joking but actually furious inside june

june
joking june

seb
oh thank god

seb
j you almost sent me into cardiac arrest i thought you were really mad at me

june
e!news could take a picture of you eating a burger at mcdonald's and post an article about your secret romance with ronald mcdonald

seb
still

seb
i'm not cheating on you i promise

june
it's okay i know you're not i already texted chris

seb is typing...

seb
you had to ask chris if i was cheating on you?

june
i just wanted to make sure

seb
jesus june

seb
how could you ever think there was even a remote possibility i would do that to you? is that what you think of me?

june
no!

june
but i can't help thinking about it sometimes

seb
do you not trust me at all??

june
i do trust you

june
but i deserve to be a little paranoid sometimes okay?

june
every week i see something about you with another girl and every time it feels even shittier

seb
i wasn't even thinking about that

seb
fuck i'm sorry

seb
but none of that means anything i promise

seb
i love you so much there could never be anyone else for me

june
i know i love you

june
sometimes i just forget you love me too

seb
june i'm sorry

seb
i wish i could be there with you right now

june
me too

june
being apart all the time sucks

seb
when you're gone i feel like a 1940s housewife waiting for her husband to return from war

seb
i just stare out the window and imagine you coming back

seb
is that lame

june
yes

june
which makes me lame too i guess because i feel the same

june
i miss that window seat

june
i miss sitting in it and eating breakfast with you

seb
i miss watching tv with the volume off and making up our own voices

june
i miss standing on your feet when we brush our teeth so i don't have to touch the freezing floor

seb
speaking of which you left your toothbrush at my apartment

june
ah fiddlesticks

june
bring it next time you visit i guess

seb
here's an idea

seb
you leave your toothbrush at my place

seb
with the rest of your stuff

seb
forever

june
but then i wouldn't have any of my stuff in sf

june
oh

june
wait

seb
what do you think?

june
about me moving in with you?

seb
no about the bee population

june
i think the bees are in grave danger and we need to work harder to save them

seb
j

june
seb i can't just leave everything behind

june
what about mel? and my mom? and the jupiter cafe? and the san francisco symphony?

seb
mel and your mom can visit, angelica's has way better coffee than jupiter's anyway, and you don't start rehearsals again for three more months

seb
we could at least spend that time together

june
seb you know i would love to

june
but this is my life it's not that easy to just give up

seb
i know it's a big step but please think about it june

seb
you were just talking about how hard it is to be apart

seb
i'm sick of going weeks without seeing you

seb
i just want to be with you

june
don't start getting all sweet and sappy you know i'll cave

seb
i want to listen to your cute snuffly little snores at night

seb
i want to watch you burn breakfast in the morning

seb
i want to lay on that couch you got me at that flea market in the spot where the springs are all worn down and you sink into me when we sit down

june
stop being cute

june
you dried fig

seb
i know food related insults mean you're being affectionate

seb
is that a yes then??

june is typing...

june
yes

seb
JUNE ARE YOU SERIOUS

june
yes!

seb
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

seb
you have no idea how happy you just made me

seb
do you think anyone would care if i skipped down the street and sang

june
i've heard your singing voice they'll probably call the police

seb
plus my skipping skills are really rusty

june
hey should i bring my purple or orange crocs?

seb
never mind there's no way we're living together

june
too late you're stuck with me

seb
well i guess there are worse things in life

AUTHOR'S NOTE: half of this is a lot angstier than the other because this was originally two chapters that i just stuck together without editing lol watch me go