People already hate, but they don't actually know it's me. They're gonna figure it out eventually, probably soon, then they'll genuinely hate me. Someone posted something on their board shortly after my mistake and they didn't mention any specific names. But I can tell it's about me by the context of the post and the time it was posted. It scared me to see how people already hated me. I didn't mean to hurt anyone, but they don't know I didn't mean to, so no matter what they're gonna hate me, and I won't be able to defend myself, I can't. And I'm too scared to apologize because I know I don't deserve forgiveness or another chance, no matter how much I want it. I'm just scared to get another chance because I know I'm gonna ruin it again and everyone will hate me again.