Song of the chapter:

Hard 2 Face Reality -Justin Bieber
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Cameron's P.O.V

I love her so much. Ever since I found out it was Hailey under her Arabella exterior, I've been crazy about her. But it's not like I ever stopped loving her. Even during the year I thought she was dead, I couldn't seem to get her out of my head. I tried, trust me. I tried so hard to stop thinking about her. I started talking to Morgan Demeola, but that made me feel even worse. I tried talking to various girls, but nothing helped.

Hailey? She's the one. She's always been the one for me.

The way her eyes sparkle when she smiles, the way I used to make her blush when I complimented her. I was completely and utterly in love with Hailey Reneé Letchworth.

Other guys would say I was "whipped." And I guess I was.

Arabella's P.O.V

As I danced with Cameron, I felt an emotion inside of me. Anger? No. Sadness? Not really.... Love? Did I love Cameron? Ugh I'm dating Calum! I could never hurt sweet, innocent Calum. I love him. But do I really love Cameron?

I'm being delusional. My heart says Cameron, but my brain keeps screaming Calum. So which do I follow?

I feel sick to my stomach.

"I need to use the restroom" I blurted.

"Oh okay." Cameron smiled. But I wasn't going to the bathroom.

I went to where my purse was and grabbed it. As I was walking outside, I realized I didn't have a car to drive. Shit.

Just then, I bumped into someone. It was Sam Pottorff.

"Can you take me home?" I asked him, feeling nauseous and on the verge of tears.

"Yeah of course. Are you okay?" Sam took my hand, leading me outside of the club.

"Yeah I'm fine. I just feel a little dizzy. I think I'm getting claustrophobic in there. I just- I just wanna go home." No, I wasn't okay. I wasn't "fine." There were a million thoughts racing through my head. Why did I have to tell Cameron I was Hailey? If I didn't, I wouldn't be in this mess. Id be happy with Calum, maybe even end up getting married with him and having kids and moving to Australia. But no. Cameron had to come in and ruin everything. (A/N wow Cameron. Nice one. You just had to come in and fuck shit up. NICE ONE CAMERON.)

"Call me if you need something, okay?" Sam said as we got to my house, and he dropped me off.

"I will. Thanks again, Sam." I smiled and shut the car door, walking up to my house.

I went up to my room and sat on my bed, grabbing my phone and scrolling through my notifications.

From: Cameron Dallas
Hey where'd you go? Are you okay?

I feel bad for ditching him, I really do. But I can't talk to him anymore. I want a healthy relationship with Calum. All I want is Calum.

Right?

I sighed and set the phone on my iHome, playing Hard 2 Face Reality by Justin Bieber on repeat.

I decided to make a YouTube video to clear my mind. At least it's something to do to pass the time.

I pulled out my laptop and went onto twitter, making a tweet.

@ArabellaIMH: Hey guys! I'm making a YouTube video! I'm doing a Q&A so tweet me questions w/ the hashtag #AskArabella (:

Almost immediately, my twitter mentions were blown up with tweets, and the hashtag #AskArabella was trending at number one worldwide.

I got out my camera and set it on my tripod, positioning it to face the window bed. I sat down on the window bed and grabbed my laptop, not using my phone because I wanted the same song to play.

"Hey guys! It's me, Arabella and today I'm doing a Q&A!" I smiled. "I asked you guys to tweet me questions with the hashtag ask Arabella, which by the way was trending worldwide at number one! So thank you guys so much! Now, let's get started!"

I went onto twitter on my laptop and read off the questions.

"@liisaa316 asks, 'when is your first album coming out?' Well, our first album ever will be out October 25th. Why? Because a year ago on October 25th, we became Inside My Head. The album will be called Voices and there will be 12 songs, which some of them you've already heard, like obviously Voices, Let My Record Keep Playing, and Die Hard."

I scrolled through my mentions and saw more questions. They seemed to be never ending.

"@omfgitsmagcon asks, 'if you had to date someone from the band, who would you date?' Well, as you all know, I'm dating Calum Hood, and we've been dating for almost 5 months now, and I love him a lot. BUT if I had to pick someone, I'd have to say Jared. He's pretty attractive." I started laughing. "Ily Jared."

The questions went on and it started to get later.

"@omfgtobeone asks, 'favorite song off of the album? x210' Oh my god you tweeted that 210 times! Girl, I am giving you a follow." I paused and followed the girl, then continued answering the question. "Okay well there's this song on the album I wrote myself, and I can't tell you which one, you'll just have to find out. But it means a lot to me, and it's really personal. It has like deep emotions in it, and everytime I hear it I start to tear up." I laughed at how sappy I sounded.

I answered more questions and ended the video.

I decided I'd edit the video tomorrow, and I set all my stuff on my desk. I turned off my music and went to sleep.