Song of the chapter:

My House - Pvris

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I was happy to be with Cameron, until I started to have flashbacks of everything that's happened between us.

I promised myself to never let a guy control my feelings, but Cameron controlled my every emotion.

I suddenly felt sick to my stomach. What am I doing? Why am I here? Why am I giving him another chance when he's gotten far too many?

"Are you excited?" He asked as we walked in.

"Y-Yeah" I stuttered. "Wait...no. Why am I here? I need to go."

"Wait, what?" He looked confused and upset.

"I can't talk to you anymore. I never wanna see you again. What you did to me was unforgivable. I can't believe I agreed to come. Goodbye Cameron."

And I ran. To where? Anywhere but here.

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I ended up at an abandoned amusement park and I began to walk around. I started thinking of song lyrics, and I was surprised at how fluently they came to me. As I walked around I began singing.

"My House"

I feel you in these walls
You're a cold air creeping in
Chill me to my bones and skin
I heard you down the hall
But it's vacant when I'm looking in
Oh, who let you in?
You walk around like you own the place
But you never say anything
I caught you walking straight through my walls
Guess it was all my fault
I think I let you in

Never thought that I would feel like this
Such a mess when I'm in your presence, I've
Had enough, think you've been making me sick
Gotta get you out of my system, yeah
It's my house
And I think it's time to get out
It's my soul
It isn't yours anymore
It's my house
I think it's time to get out
Yeah, I think it's time to get out

You're at my bedroom door
Heard your footsteps on the floor
Closer than ever before
And now you're in my room
You're a cold air creeping through
Under sheets avoiding you
You walk around I can hear you pace
Circling my bed frame
Oh, but now we're face to face
Head on my pillowcase
But darling, you can't stay

Never thought that I would feel like this
Such a mess when I'm in your presence, I've
Had enough, think you've been making me sick
Gotta get you out of my system, yeah
It's my house
And I think it's time to get out
It's my soul
It isn't yours anymore
It's my house
And I think it's time to get out
Yeah, I think it's time to get out

Haven't you heard?
I'm not yours anymore
I'm not yours anymore

It's my soul
(And I think it's time to get out)
Haven't you heard?
I'm not yours anymore
I'm not yours anymore

It's my house

(I feel you in these walls
You're a cold air creeping in
Chill me to my bones and skin)

Never thought that I would feel like this
Such a mess when I'm in your presence, I've
Had enough, think you've been making me sick

It's my house
And I think it's time to get out
It's my soul
It isn't yours anymore
It's my house
I think it's time to get out
Yeah, I think it's time to get out

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I got home and went to my room, changing into a pair of black leggings, a black tee, and a black monster energy hoodie.

I decided I'd record the song at home since I have the equipment instead of going to the studio. I wanted to isolate myself from everyone for awhile, even my family.

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Hey guys! Sorry I haven't updated in awhile I've been meaning to I've just been busy.

But I'm turning 16 in like a dAY (Monday the 16th) AND IM SO EXCITED

Okay I love you all ❤️ night night