*Warning, this chapter is triggering. If you are easily hurt by these things please don't read this chapter. I don't want any of you to hurt yourselves <3 I love you all*

Songs of the chapter:

Starring Role - Marina & The Diamonds

Best Mistake - Ariana Grande ft. Big Sean

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"ILL BE RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE, TILL 3005!" I heard someone singing very loudly. I laughed when I realized it was Jack G. I got out of my bed and quietly walked into his room, poking my head in the door. I didn't see him, but he was in the room. I walked in and he was in the bathroom, but he didn't see me.

I kept listening as he sang and he was actually really good... I'd never heard him alone. When he sang at Magcon, his voice was usually drown out by the screams of teenage girls.

"You're so talented" I said, making him jump.

"Jesus Hailey" He said, chuckling a little bit.

"Sorry" I laughed, leaning against the bathroom doorframe. "But you're really good."

"Really? Maybe we should collab sometime" He laughed.

"We should" I said.

"I was joking Hails. I'm not good enough to be on a song with you." He said.

"But you are. And I'm calling Jenna and we're gonna go to the studio you go to and we're gonna record a duet. I promised everyone I'd stop writing for awhile, so we'll have to do a cover."

"Really? This is amazing! I'm recording with THE Hailey Reneé!" He said excitedly. I laughed.

"You know I'm your girlfriend, right?" He laughed, throwing his arms around me.

"Yes, and I'm the luckiest guy in the world" He said, kissing me lightly.

"Let's go pick a song" I said.

I was beyond excited to work with Jack on this song. Working with a complete stranger on a song is hard, but I had a feeling working with Jack would be fun and romantic.

"Ooo we should do Overboard by Justin Bieber and Jessica Jarrell!" I said.

"Ugh, I don't like him" Jack said. I immediately slapped him on the arm. "Ow, what was that for?"

"He's one of my friends, duh!" I said, beginning to search through songs on my laptop.

"What about Almost Is Never Enough by Ariana Grande and Nathan Sykes?" I asked.

"Nah, too corny." Jack said. I have him a look. "What?"

"Love songs are supposed to be corny, idiot." I said, laughing.

"We should do a dope rap man" Jack said, getting up and starting to bust out raps like he was Busta Rhymes.

"Sit down crazy" I said, laughing even more.

"No but really, I can rap if you want."

"Really? Because I wanted to do Best Mistake by Ariana Grande and Big Sean but I didn't know you rapped."

"Well c'mon, let's get this set up and get in the studio" Jack said excitedly.

"I have to get ready" I laughed.

"UGHHH but girls take forever to get ready" He complained.

"I take a shorter time than you do" I commented.

"Whatever" He said, leaving my room. I giggled and got my clothes and towel, going in the shower.

I blow dried and curled my hair, did my make up, and got dressed. I wore a pair of black ripped skinny jeans, a cute top, a jacket, and a pair of black converse.

"Ready?" Jack asked, knocking on my door.

"Yup" I said, grabbing my bag and phone and leaving with Jack.

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We finished the song in about 3 hours, which was very quick for me. I usually goof around in the studio and I act like a child, but truth is, I was scared. Jack said Sammy was coming over later to our house with JJ, but Sammy creeped me out so much. I got this weird vine from him, like something was off.

We got back to Jack's house and his parents were home.

"Hey Katherine" I smiled, seeing Jacks mom.

"Hey sweetheart" She smiled. "I heard the rest of the boys are coming over so I'm gonna make you guys some snacks."

"Oh okay. Do you need any help?" I offered.

"Can you actually go to the closet in the hallway and grab the chips out of there. That'd be great."

"Oh sure" I smiled, going to the hallway. As I was about to open the closet door, I heard Jack talking. I think he's on the phone. I didn't want to be a bad girlfriend and eavesdrop, but my curiosity got the best of me and I went to Jacks room, standing outside the door.

"Yeah but I don't know how to tell her.......well yeah you're my girl but I don't want to upset Hailey. She's going to be here for 2 months. I'll tell her when she leaves okay babe?..... Okay, I love you, bye."

Jack is cheating. I can't believe this.

I quickly went to the closet, grabbed the chips and rushed back into the kitchen, setting them on the counter and making a mad dash to my room.

"You okay sweetheart?" Katherine called after me.

"Y-Yeah just not feeling too well. I think I'm gonna take a nap." I said as I felt tears begin to fall down my cheeks.

"Oh okay. Don't be afraid to yell for me if you need anything."

I shut my door and laid down, crying my eyes out. I've been doing so much better. I haven't thought about self harming in months. I haven't been depressed in months.

I went to my bag and grabbed my pack of razors, going into the bathroom and grabbing a razor out of the pack. I smashed it onto the counter multiple times until it finally broke and I could get the blade out. I immediately took my jacket off and brought the blade to my left arm as I made a cut. And then another. And then another after that. Cut after cut, I counted as I did them. 11 on my left arm. I switched the blade from my right hand to my left as I began to cut my right arm.

It felt so good. I needed the pain. I haven't felt it in months, it felt so good.

After a minute, the pain was worse. I turned on the faucet and carefully and slowly set my arms under the water, biting my lip as I felt immense pain.

Once my cuts were clean, I found bandaids in one of the drawers in the sink and put them on all of my cuts, since I didn't have any white bandage with me.

I went back to my room and laid down as I felt regret. Why did I do this? I was so strong, I ignored all the hate I got, I kept going. I felt as though I was on top of the world and nothing could possibly bring me down.

But now? I feel like I'm going mad.

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Ooo bad jack bad! No cheating!

It's so late/early rn (3am) and I'm at my friends house and I knew I needed to update so I didddd

And I just wanted to say something. I get a lot of hate on this story and I try to ignore it and not get so butt hurt over the smallest things and I used to always be happy to read every comment, but it's gotten to the point where I'm scared to death to look at the comments on each chapter. I try my best to make this story how you guys want it. it's honestly not my story anymore, it's yours because I felt like no one liked my writing or my ideas.

But yeah, that's it I guess

Till next time