Songs of the chapter:

My Understandings - Of Mice & Men

Something Real - China Anne McClain & Kelli Burgland

Happy Little Pill - Troye Sivan

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I woke up to the worst text I think I've ever gotten in my entire life that morning.

From: Carter

Hey.... I don't really know how to say this but I'm with a different management and they took me, Hayes, Nash, and Cameron off of the magcon tour... I won't be at another event. I'm really sorry hails. There's nothing I can do about it

To: Carter

Please tell me this is some stupid joke... 😅😅

From: Carter

I wish it was 😣

To: Carter

You're one of my best friends... how will I do this without you? 😭😭😭

From: Carter

You'll manage. I'll miss you so much. It'll be harder to see you now 😔

To: Carter

I'll miss you too biffle 😥

I groaned in frustration and grabbed the closest thing near me, being a water bottle, and chucking it at the wall. I screamed and fell back onto my bed, starting to cry. How will I survive this craziness and drama without one of my best friends? But I guess I just have to suck it up and tough it. I'm fine that Cameron's leaving, that means less drama for me, but Carter and Nash? Hayes? I've grown so attached to them. They're like family. And families don't break up.

I went onto twitter and saw a bunch of things about Magcon splitting up. People were harming themselves over this? That's awful. I feel terrible, and I'm not even leaving!

I quickly made a tweet to everyone.

@HaileyRenee: just found out.. so sad part of the fam is leaving 😥 we'll get through it together. I love you all ❤️

I could barely even get up, feeling exhausted after crying, and I only just woke up which is pretty sad.

I decided to skip showering, and I threw my hair in a messy bun. I changed out of my pajamas and put on a pair of sweatpants, a black sports bra, and an Avengers tank top. I went downstairs and saw that my mom left for work already.

"Hey" I heard. I turned around to see Roseanna.

"Oh hey" I struggled to smile.

"What's wrong?" She asked. I pulled out my phone and showed her Nash's tweet about Magcon splitting up, and she brought me into a hug.

"Now I'll barely see Carter, Nash, and Hayes" I said, my voice cracking. I felt like a 13 year old girl having to go through her best friend moving to a different state. But hey, can you really blame me? After spending almost a year with them, they're family.

"It'll be okay" She said.

"I'm gonna ask Jenna if I can go down to the studio and clear my head."

"Okay, just tell me if you need anything" She smiled.

"I will" I said, going up to my room.

I sat down on my bed and sent Jenna a text, asking her if I could go to the studio.

When I'm upset or mad is usually the best time to write songs. And I already have one in my head.

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The song was called Something Real. (A/N Creds to China Anne McClain and Kelli Burgland.)

Jenna added it to the new album that'll be released in a couple months, and we only needed one more song. I dug through my song folder and used one of the older songs I wrote.

The song is called Happy Little Pill. (A/N all creds to Troye Sivan.) I wrote it for my 9th grade crush. Stupid, I know.

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When I got home, my mom told me I was asked to join Vidcon. I didn't know exactly what it was, so I decided to check out the website before making any hasty decisions. I knew that it was a place for YouTubers, but I only occasionally made YouTube videos. It felt wrong for me to go there..

I looked on the website and saw that I wasn't the only non-YouTuber going. Matt was going. Ugh. Now it's gonna be awkward. At least I know a bunch of YouTubers going so I won't feel even more awkward than I usually do. (A/N PLEASE COMMENT SOME NON YOUTUBERS THAT WENT TO VIDCON SO I KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT INSTEAD OF WRITING RANDOM THINGS AND PEOPLE! THANK YOUUU.)

I called Jenna and told her to accept the offer, and she congratulated me.

Vidcon is in a few months, I better get packing.

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Hey guys! Sorry for the wait. I've been feeling kinda down about my writing lately. I don't feel very confident when I write anymore. I rush into things and don't put enough detail into it and I feel bad for you guys who have to read this garbage that I put up.

Anyways, I've been quite busy lately and it's harder to update so I'm also sorry about that as well.

I'm really stressed because school is in a month and I'm taking a business class for like court systems and criminal type things and I'm going to be the only 10th grader in there... it's pretty much all 11th and 12th graders. I was an exception since I had higher grades I guess.

But yeah so I love you all <3