Follows chapter, two birds one stone, BUT instead of it being a memory scene, this is the ACTUAL scene from when they were 16.

This is the steamy scene from Jade and Julien's first time together in JULIEN'S POV.

This will be a one part, then Jade's pov on this will be the next chapter, followed by their 'morning after' shower scene which is remembered in the chapter "THAT NIGHT".

Hope you're ready!!! Eeeek!!!

Here we go.

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*I listened to Halsey's 'Is there somewhere' and 'Roman Holiday" during this entire scene. It helps when you read. Im telling you. Put 'is there somewhere' on repeat.

JULIEN'S POV

I was so nervous as I stared down at the sparkling diamonds in the tiffany blue ring box.

Would she love it? Was it too much?

Of course it's too much you idiot. You got her a freaking engagement  ring as a birthday present.

I shook my head, blowing out a breath as my pulse beat out of my chest. I had this nervous feeling in the pit of my stomach that I had never experienced before, especially not with a girl.

But Jade wasn't just any girl. She is my best friend... forever.

The moment I decided to grow some balls and walk over to her house, I caught her standing outside as her dad drove off, her new car sitting in the driveway. She was ecstatic, the happiness in her eyes contagious to me.

"Happy Birthday Jae." I smiled down at her as she threw her arms around me, hugging me close. 

"Thank you." I could hear the smile in her voice even though her face was hidden. I felt like a man right now, giving an adult present to my best friend. I couldn't wait to see her reaction.

We spent a while checking out her new car, which she was in love with, before we went upstairs. I hadn't told her about the present yet, but I knew she knew I had one for her because I do every year, as does she for me.

She sat on her bed waiting expectantly with a sly smile on her lips, her eyes watching me knowingly. Letting out a chuckle, I shut the door to her room - which her mom wasn't home, it was just a habit. Pulling out the Tiffany ring box, I handed it to her and watched as her features transformed into one of awe.

Her jade eyes looked up at me with her mouth hanging open, then back down at the box in her hand. 

"No you didn't..." She whispered.

The moment she opened the lid, her hand went over her mouth as she gasped, her eyes watering as she stared down at the platinum ring with three princess cut diamonds in the middle, the center diamond being the largest. 

Tears fell down her cheeks as she looked back up to me and I felt something tug on my heart strings, my smile creeping onto my lips.

I had saved for a year for this and I wanted her to like it so much. 

"Oh god, Julien.." She whispered in awe, looking from the ring and back to me.. 

Plucking it out of it's case, I slid it on the ring finger of her right hand and saw how it sparkled on her. "This is a promise ring. A promise that we will always be best friends and that I will always be here for you, no matter what." I told her as her eyes leaked more tears than before.

"It's beautiful." It came out a half sob, her tears coming out in streams.

I wrapped her up in my arms, letting her crawl practically on top of me as she sat in my lap, still sniffeling. Something inside me was moving, shifting around. I didn't know what was happening inside my chest, but this was different than just getting turned on by a little show of thong... this was a need more or less. A need to protect her and care for her like I had never felt before.

I had always felt a brotherly love for her, but it had changed in the past two years. It had morphed into something more tangible.. something more of a love. 

She looked up at me, her eyes meeting mine as she stared intently, like I had brought her the moon or something.

"Don't ever take that off." I said, brushing my thumb against her cheek to catch the tears.

Jade shook her head slightly. "I won't. I promise." 

Her lips were swollen from biting them and she looked so beautiful sitting here in my arms, tearful from something I had given her. She loved it and it made me so happy inside to see that I did good - to see that she loved something so much it brought her to tears.

Her hand came up to my cheek, placing it there softly and my throat closed in as I kept on looking into those seas of jade waters, glassy with emotion.

"You're the first only girl I've ever given a gift to." I rasped, the first thing coming out of my mouth. There was a lump stuck inside my throat and I felt this all consuming need inside me. It was burning me up with how intense it was sitting inside my chest, radiating outward.

She smiled slightly. "I love it Julien. I love it so much. Thank you. I love you."

My eyes darted down to her lips briefly and she parted them, taking a steadying breath that I felt so subtly against my neck. My skin goosed at the feel and I wanted something from her that I had never ever felt or realized that I wanted or needed.

I wanted to kiss her.

I wanted to kiss my best friend.

My eyes went slightly wide as this realization made its way into my mind and I froze. She took my hand in hers and moved away, taking me back with her on the bed as she laid down, cuddling into me. I put my face down into her neck, inhaling her scent as her ass pressed against me and my arm wrapped around her as a movie played on the T.V.. The feeling of being a provider.. a protector.. a man.. the feeling of her.. the way she looked.. the way she looked at me like I was the only one in the world..

It got to me.

It's amazing what someone can make you feel when you least expect it.

I felt my dick harden against her ass as she moved a little, her hand intertwined with mine as she smiled down at the ring on her finger. My mind was flooding with thoughts from the way she felt to the way she looked. She was proud of her ring and that made me proud. I wanted that kiss... I kept staring at her lips as she breathed and I couldn't believe that I was even thinking this, but I wanted it. I wanted to be her first kiss. I wanted that kiss.

"There's something else." I breathed, scared to death that she was going to reject me. Would she laugh? Say hell no?

I didn't know.

Her lids fluttered open and she turned in my arms to look up at me as I leaned up on my elbow, seeing how beautiful she really was with her hair splayed out around her, her thin long neck on display and the swell of her breasts moving up and down with every breath drove me crazy.

She was so damn beautiful. How did I never notice this? I mean, I noticed a lot about her over the past few years, how she changed, how she started to fill out and drive me insane, but fuck, she was so damn beautiful right here, right now.

"What is it?" She asked, curious.

Before I chickened out, I decided to just come out with it. This was a whole new territory.

"I .... I want to share something with you...Something that we will always remember. A memory. Besides this one right here." 

Her face turned up to me and I stared at her lips, mine only inches away from her as I held her closely.

She swallowed and whispered back with wide innocent eyes. "What?"

I watched her eyes flick down to my lips and her pupils dilate, her breath coming out in shorter pants. She wanted this too.

I did something that I never thought I would ever do with my best friend. I kissed her. 

It was like fireworks were going off and something inside me broke free, her gasp allowing my tongue to slide in her mouth after a nibble of her lips. Her body molded into mine and I pressed against her, my excitment against her thigh.

Her hands were in my hair and mine were sliding down her ribs, feeling the way her breathing increased.

It was the most incredible thing I had ever experienced.  I never wanted it to end. I wanted to hold her and kiss her all night.. feel her in my arms with her lips against mine.

After a moment, we broke the kiss, needing to take a breath, staring down at each other with lust in our eyes.

She wanted more, so I gave it to her. It was both of our first kisses. Our real first kiss. Not just a peck, but a real kiss.

I made a decision in my head right then and there. It felt so natural for us to be like this.

"I have one more thing. One more thing I want to ask you..." I was breathing hard and I couldn't believe I was about to say this. 

I couldn't yet. I had to at least plan it out a little, make it special.

She waited for me to continue, her lips swollen as her body stayed tucked against mine.

"It's a big thing.. and if you're against it, I understand. But.. you know I love you, right?" I urged her to understand that because I really did love this girl. More than I wanted to admit.

She nodded slowly and I kissed her forehead with a smile on my lips.

"I'll be back in a little bit to ask you. I need to do something first."

She frowned in confusion as I got up and ajusted myself.  She waited for me to explain myself, but I left her with that confused expression as I walked out of her room and next door to my house.

If I was going to do this, I wanted to do it right. 

Did I want to do this?

Yes. I did. I didn't want some douche bag taking her virginity. I hated thinking about some fuck boy being inside her and making her miserable. At least this way, I could give her the one thing she had always said she wanted - a perfect first time.

She wanted a fairy tale first time and I wanted to give that to her. I wanted to give her the most memorable moment she would never forget. I knew it could ruin us, but the thought of her with anyone else made me eager to pursue this.

With guys starting to notice her at school, the sinking feeling that I would lose her soon was harder to control and I knew this would make us stronger.. or it would completely tear us apart. All I knew was that I wanted to be with her and love her the way two people loved one another.

I walked up to my room and jumped in the shower. I wanted to be sure my stamina would last for her, so I got off twice on my own. This way, I would be less sensitive and I could give her what she needed - I wanted to take care of her.

Jumping in a pair of sweatpants and a tshirt, I thought myself crazy for doing this and possibly ruining everything between us if she said no. God, what if she says no.

She wanted to kiss me, but what if this is just too much?

I couldn't back out now, even if I was freaking out if I was going to embarrass myself.

I spent a little time on google, looking up a few things I had learned in videos online. I also made a playlist for us because I knew she would love it.

She was lying on her bed with a smile on her lips the moment I came through her balcony doors, deciding on a surprise entrance. Instantly she shot up with wide eyes, her lips parting in surprise. I could see she had showered and changed into something more comfortable, a black silk camisole with no bra beneath and a pair of matching little silky black shorts. Her jade green eyes watched me as walked toward her with determination now that I knew that she knew what I was going to suggest. 

"You know?" I asked, closing the door to the balcony.

Biting her lip, she nodded timidly. "I... I guessed." She knotted her fingers nervously, anxious. "But I wasn't... sure.." Her cheeks were flushed and her fingers were fidgeting.

I walked over to her as she sat up on the bed, crossing her legs. Sitting down next to her, I took her hands in mine and she peered up at me beneath her lashes. Her wide brilliant green eyes were focused on mine.

I moved away from her hands, cupping her petite jaw in my hands as I conveyed how serious I was at the moment. Taking a deep breath, I let it all out. "Jade. I want to be your first. I've known your for.. almost forever. We have history and every time I think about some douche bag sleeping with you, ruining your first time, it makes me angry. I know you've had this fairy tale in your head... and I want to be the person who gives it to you. I love you. You're my best friend.. but.. I... I think I..." I shook my head, closing my eyes. I knew the words but I didn't want to scare her.

"I want to be your first. I want you to be my first." I closed my eyes, waiting for her to speak.

"I want to." She whispered, not even giving a second passing. I opened my eyes wide to see her gazing up at me, her small hands covering my own which still held her face.

My breath came out of my lungs. "you do?"

She nodded, to my surprise. "I do. And I feel the same way. I didn't know I did... Well, I mean.." She got this nervous look as she glanced away. "I've been feeling different.."

"Me too." I kissed her knuckles, watching her.

Her lips pursed as she turned back to me. "What.. what is this.. I mean, is this just a friend doing a friend a favor? or." She was stuttering, seeming uncomfortable. I didn't want her to feel uncomfortable when it came to me.

Stopping her before she could continue, I slid my hands down her jaw. "No. It's not. I want to do this. With you. I want you. We can see where this goes, but I know I don't want to do this with anyone else but you." My thumbs stroked along her jawline as her eyes fluttered shut.

"Okay." She breathed, and I was pressing my lips to hers, taking her down with me on the bed.

her hands were shaking as I kissed her lips, tasting each one before my tongue entered her mouth, tasting how sweet she was. 

This was unchartered territory and I'll be damned if I was going to do this wrong. I wanted this to be perfect. I've been watching a ton of porn... I think I know how to make sure she feels good, but most of all, I want her to feel my love for her. 

I laid nestled between her legs, my hips meeting hers as I kept myself raised up on my elbows, kissing her softly, sweetly. I wanted her to be sure, not just to do this because I wanted to. I better ask.

Breaking away, I looked down at her, her eyes so filled with lust. "Are you sure, love?

Her hand cupped my cheek and she smiled slightly, nodding.

I didn't need anything else.

I kissed her differently this time, with more surety. She reciprocated, putting as much feeling as I was into this. 

My free hand trailed down her jaw and neck, moving over her shoulder slowly... down the side of her breast to her stomach and I felt her muscles clench as my fingers slowly teased the skin under the hem of her silk camisole. I could feel her hardened nipples brushing against my chest through the material of our shirts and I wanted to feel them against me.

I raised up, taking off my shirt as her eyes wandered all over me, devouring the image with a need as she bit her lip.

I smiled down at her before returning, opting to kiss down the side of her neck, licking and sucking. 

Fuck, this felt so good. Her scent was so enticing and her body was molded against mine perfectly.

She let out a breathy moan as I got lower at the base of her neck, my fingers brushing the skin beneath her camisole again, raising it up slowly as I pressed my hips into her, letting her feel how hard I was.

Her eyes were closed, her lips parted as she breathed so deeply and breathlessly, tilting her head back as her fingers glided up my bare back slowly. It was like a slow dance with our bodies. I reached in my back pocket, pulling out my phone and clicked it on without looking, tapping on the screen to press play on the playlist that was already up and waiting on my screen.

Halsey. She loved halsey, though her songs were so beautiful and some of them sweet. I picked her favorite when I was at my house, putting them on a playlist for this moment right here.

She let out a gasp as she heard the music and I looked up at her to see her eyes open, staring at the ceiling and her hands stopped moving over my back. Lifting up so I could look down at her, she just stared, so much damn love in those jade green eyes I could fucking swim in them.

"You're amazing." she whispered, her arms clutching me to her chest as her lips came in contact with mine. I slid my arm under her lower back, clutching her to me as I pressed my hips to hers, grinding against her. I could feel the material of her shorts slide across the slickness of her crotch, knowing exactly how amazing she thought I was right now.

I wanted her naked beneath me.

I'd save myself for last. I know she's seen me, but this was a whole nother level and I didn't want to scare her too much. she's never seen it hard like this.

It can be intimidating at first...

I carefully slipped my hand under her shirt and she willingly raised her arms for me, letting me tug the flimsy material off of her and throw it behind us on the floor. I looked down at her bare chest and a whole wave of excitement crashed through me. 

She was breathing hard, her chest rising and falling softly as her nipples stood hard, her breasts so full and inviting, wanting me to taste them.

She was so brave, looking me straight in the eye as she waited for my reaction.

"You're so beautiful." I breathed, lowering to capture her lips with mine. She moaned in my mouth and I tried so hard not to go too fast. I wanted this to be special for her so I let my need to be inside her take a backseat as I took the extra time to kiss and touch her body, my hand sliding down the middle of her chest, gliding down her breastbone and across her stomach slowly. 

Her skin was tensing at every place I touched, my hips still moving into hers, grinding into her. Her legs were wrapping around me on their own accord, her ankles crossing behind me as she ran her hands up and down my back.

Her lips let mine go to throw her head back and I leaned back to kneel, looking down at her gorgeous body as I ran my fingertips down her collar bones, down her breasts.. slowly down her stomach and slid my hands along her hips, closing my eyes at how right this felt. My hands dug into her hips , massaging slowly and her eyes met mine as I opened my eyes. 

So fucking beautiful. 

Her lids were heavy, her lips parted and her hands brushed up my chest, over my shoulders. No words, just touching and the most meaningful looks in our eyes.

She was looking like she fell in love tonight.

This is right where it begins.

Because I did too.

I didn't want to let this go.

Lowering back to her level, I tasted her lips again, her moans becoming louder the harder I pushed into her hips with mine. She was taking control, arching her back to gain friction against me.

I let my hands roam her body as I moved to kiss down her chest and took a peaked bud into my mouth, twirling it with my tongue. She gasped, locking her legs around me tight and I knew that this was her weak spot, aside from her neck. I lavished her, my hand tweaking the other nipple as she opened her mouth wide to let a moan escape.

"Fuck." She whispered and I knew she was soaking wet waiting for me.

I moved to her other breast, spending as much time on the other nipple, my fingers tweaking the other bud. The moment I thought she couldn't take anymore, I trailed kisses slowly down her stomach, licking and sucking the skin as I went. I loved the taste of her skin, it was sweet and she smelled like pink sugar. I love that scent.. 

My lips came to her abdomen and I kissed across her waist, my tongue darting into the waistband of her shorts earning a high pitched breathy sound before I slid those shorts down her hips slightly. She unlocked her legs, letting me pull them down those mile long legs. 

I glanced up at her, her eyes scanning me worriedly. This was always the scary part I guess, for the girl at least. My face going down to her pussy. It was probably terrifying for her.

"You are the most beautiful girl in this world, Jae." I told her earnestly, letting her know that I loved her body.. that I loved her. 

She sighed softly, closing her eyes and I lowered my body down to her, my eyes taking in her slim, curvy body. Her mound was shaved, her legs widened for me. She was a goddess.

I pressed my lips to her lower lips and she clenched, squealing a bit. She was saturated, wet with desire and I ran my tongue up her slit, tasting the excitement she gave me. She tasted slightly sweet.. I didn't know what to expect getting to this part since I have never done this before, but I knew with Jade, it would be perfect. She's perfect. 

Her pheromones were leaching out of her skin, enticing me and taking me through the rip tide of passion with her and I delved in, using my tongue to lick at her folds, taking one softly between my teeth and nibbling gently. She squealed again and I tried my best to keep from smiling. I loved that she loved what I was doing to her.

I spent time between her thighs, licking and sucking her into my mouth before I went to work with my tongue. I made sure to follow google's advice and not just stay solely on her clit, I made sure to put my entire face in her pussy, licking every inch of her, fucking her with my tongue to the point she was gripping at the sheets, screaming out like a banshee and her legs were shaking around my head, her thighs gripping around  my head. Her hand even dove into my hair, pulling as she bucked into my mouth. 

I knew I was doing this right.

The internet told me exactly what to do to make this perfect... keep doing this until she came. I would know because she would pulsate from her pussy and let out a high pitch scream. She had to be close. It also said that with her being a virgin and what not, I needed to 'loosen her up' with my fingers... so...

When I flicked my tongue over her clit, inserting a finger inside of her, I had already felt that she had a hymen, which I did my research on this too. It was better to go ahead and stretch it so when I entered her it wouldn't hurt as badly when that thin little membrane tore. It was dark so I wasn't sure what kind of hymen she had... perforated.. non perforated... i wasn't sure.

I just went with it.

My finger went inside her and I felt her muscles tightly squeeze around me and I thought there was no way I was going to fit inside...

But the female body can be very sneaky.

I slide my finger all the way into the knuckle as I let my tongue apply pressure to her clit. She was a writhing mess. I loved it. 

"Julien! Fuck!" She screamed out of a hoarse throat, her hand gripping my hair tight in her hand.

God I just wanted to plow into her right now and feel her around me. The thought of getting to that point kept spurring me on.

I had to stretch her and make her cum first.

Pumping my finger inside her at a slightly faster pace, I let another finger play at her entrance, seeking out to stretch her. Pushing it in, she let out a loud moan, her hips arching away from me but  I held her down with one hand at her hip, pushing into her until I had two fingers all the way in.

"Julien!" She screamed out. I looked up to see her eyes so wide they looked like they would pop out at any second. Her mouth was wide open and she was looking up at the ceiling like it was a fucking ghost.

That's when the dam broke and she screamed as loud as I have ever heard her scream, her legs shaking hard at the same time I felt her muscles squeeze my fingers hard and I knew I had accomplished what I set out to do.

I let her ride the wave of orgasmic relief for a moment, slowly easing her out of it by sliding my fingers inside of her. 

She was panting now, her body covered in a sheen of sweat. God, her body was so beautiful. I wanted to lick and taste every inch of her. 

Runing my hands up her thighs, I lifted away from her sated pussy, wiping my face off as I leaned over her body, crawling up to her. 

She was spent, looking at me like I was some kind of super hero. I loved it.

"What the fuck was that." She whispered, her fingers playing in my hair 

"An orgasm." I chuckled.

She rolled her eyes, typical jade, popping me in the forehead. "No shit. I mean... where the fuck did you.."

"Google."

Her mouth formed an 'o' and she smiled. I returned it, pressing my lips to hers and I know she could taste herself on my mouth but she didn't seem to mind as she kissed my back with just as much fervor.

I slid my sweatpants down my hips, her feet gliding down my thighs to help me. I was surprised at her. She kicked them off of me, the two of us just bare skin pressing into bare skin.

Pulling away, tugging at her bottom lip, I just looked at her as she looked up at me. Taking her hand, I kissed her knuckles.. never leaving her eyes. 

"Je Taime" She knew it meant more to me to say that to her in French, my own first language.

Her eyes softened and she brushed her fingers over my lips. "I love you too."

I reached between us, grasping my shaft in my hand before gliding it up and down her. She shivered at the touch but I never lookeda way. I wanted to watch her face as I entered inside her. Pushing myself so that the head of me was pressed against her folds, I reached and took her hands in mine, pressing them down to the mattress as my jaw clenched, excitement in me as the fear rose in her eyes. 

"Are you ready?" I brushed my nose against hers, knowing she was nervous.

Nodding, she swallowed hard and closed her eyes tight. 

"No. Look at me." It was partly for my own selfish satisfaction but I wanted to see her. I could see her soul when she looked at me.. her soul touching mine. We were soulmates, I truly believed that. 

Her eyes opened and she was so exposed to me...

I rolled my hips slowly, pushing into her. I bit down on my lip to keep from closing my eyes at how rough this part was. It was never the best - so I read. The tightness for me, the pain for her... but it would go away within moments, that I was sure. The internet said so so it had to be true.

I felt her hands squeeze mine as her eyes went wide and her mouth fell open. A high pitched squeak came out and I felt myself halt inside her just a few inches in.

"Relax." I breathed, kissing her neck slowly before I felt her unclench around me. I took this moment to just rip off the bandaid and rocked into her as I pulled back to watch her face. 

Slowly in and out, pushing more and more.  Her lip was trembling and her hands were squeezing the fuck out of mine but I wasnt going out that easy. One last jerk with my hips and I was in. Jade yelled out, feeling the uncomfortable feeling of having something this size inside her.

I immediately met her lips with mine, coaxing her to relax because she was squeezing the life out of my dick and it was hurting like a mothefucker. Groaning into her mouth, she moaned into mine as I rocked out and in, the pleasureable feeling taking over finally.

I felt it too.

Our hips met slowly and gently, warm wetness falling to my cheeks and I realized it was her tears.

I moved to look down at her and saw those tear filled eyes and i stopped.

"Whats wrong?" I was scared I had done something wrong...

She shook her head.. biting her lip. "It's nothing. It just hurt a bit at first. Don't stop though because it's coming back." Her heels dug into my ass, making me slide into her and she let out a breath of relief.

It was like she knew what her body needed.

The warmth of her.. the wetness between her legs. It was like nothing I had ever felt before. So much better than my hand. I wanted to stay here. 

I picked her legs up behind me and locked them at her ankles, moving her hips with my hands so I sank straight inside and I thought I saw god there for a minute.

It was overwhelming, looking down at her as she took me inside her, watching her breasts bounce lightly with every thrust. .I found myself trailing lines down her torso, her hands moving up my arms to my shoulders where she dug in with her nails.

"Faster." She whispered, her eyes rolling in the back of her head. 

Her body rolled against mine, hips meeting me in a synchronized rhythm I had picked up when my pace increased slightly. Feeling myself hit all the way to the hilt inside her, I wondered briefly if this hurt for her. But from the look on her face, I think it felt really really good.

"Oh god!" She moaned, my pace picking up even more. 

"Fuck, youre so tight." I grunted, my hands pressed in the mattress by her head now. She leaned up, locking her arms around my back and her lips finding mine. 

Something just snapped between us. It went from soft and sweet to animals. She was in charge. She held me to her as I devoured her lips, holding her to me with one hand under her lower back a I rammed inside her, feeling her shake and cry out into my mouth. 

Her hips bucked at the right moment, her nails digging down my back as I plummeted inside her. 

I couldn't hold it much longer. Something was rushing toward the surface but it felt so much different than the orgasms I had with my hand. This was sooooo different.

She screamed suddenly and the warm wetness between her thighs clamped down on me, holding me as she dug her nails hard in my back. She clutched me tightly, muscles spasming -- romantic poetry.

I needed to taste her lips.

I found her mouth, placing my lips on hers as I claimed her kiss, slamming into her in a few hard thrusts before I exploded, my chest swelling with love and my eyes scrunching shut as I came inside her, filling her up, her muscles still spasming around me, squeezing what I had to offer out into her.

I literally collapsed, but held my chest off hers with my hands. My eyes went wide and I was looking into her beautiful jade colored orbs. I didn't want to move away. I wanted to stay right here forever. Right here. with her.

"fuck." she whispered. 

I leaned my forehead against hers, our sweat mixing. 

"God, Jade." I kissed her lips one last time, dreading pulling out of her but I felt myself softening. 

It was like a blinding light opened my eyes and a cage lifted from inside my mind, I  could see now - clearly.

I could see everything for what it was and I saw her - our friendship.. it was much more than that. it was much much more.

"I fucking love you." I whispered in her ear, still inside her.

Her hand brushed down my cheek, a soft smile on her lips. 

"I love you too." her voice was soft.

I pulled out slowly, she winced as I did. 

"Does it hurt?" I was worried, but she shook her head.

"just a little uncomfortable. I'm okay." Her reassuring smile had me returning it, wanting to feel her lips again. 

I don't think I could get enough of her now.

Moving to lay beside her, I rolled her with me so her chest was pressed against mine, her head tucked under my chin as I tried to come down from the high.

She felt perfect in my arms... against my body...

"Julien?" She peered up as I looked down at her.

"Yea?"

"um.... you didn't wear a condom." 

Fuck. I knew I forgot something.

Fuck Fuck Fuck.

I sighed, remembering I read this somewhere on the internet. "It's okay. We'll go to the pharmacy for a plan b in the morning. Sorry. I knew I forgot something." I pursed my lips apologetically.

Jade nodded, snuggling into my chest, forgetting about the matter alltogether.

I loved this girl. So much. My best friend.

Fuck. Best friends....

Well this was certainly going to complicate things, but I don't want her to go anywhere. I want her in my life forever... I don't want this to hurt us.. I wanted it to make us, not break us.

If anything happened and she wasn't in my life anymore, I would break - literally. 

"Jade.. "

"hmm?" Her fingers began swirling patterns into my skin and I relaxed, knowing she wasn't freaking out in her mind.

"I just... I want you to know you mean the world to me."

She smiled up at me, kissing my jaw. "Fucking same."

I couldn't help but to laugh at the way she made moments like these into laughable ones with her witty sense of humor.

This is a reason why I loved her.

We drifted off, but it didn't last .. thirty minutes later and I was kissing down her body again, wanting more of her. She didn't protest as she clung to me, flipping me over so she could 'explore' me.

I let her do that.. and i'm so glad I did.

I don't want to let this go. Us. Together. 

AND SCENE.

god I hate virginity scenes. Mine was taken in the back of my boyfriends car when I was 16 and it was... lets just say It wasn't a memorable experience lol NEVER ask a girl if she came. seriously? If you cant figure it out, you don't need to be doing it lol I was pretty 'whatever' about the situation though .I just wanted to get it over with bc my bestie had already gotten hers out of the way . The next guy was great though! lol