I walked along the road quietly with my hands in my pocket. It's a normal day I guess, but I think it's gotten harder on me since some problems I've had. I think I'm the only one. I've always been the third wheel for years and I have this irrational fear. I donno why, but I'm a afraid of falling for someone just to get my heart broken. I always hear that all men can think of is a woman's body, and they never think if she had feelings. They don't seam to care.

THERE ARE MONSTERS ALL AROUND US.

Well whatever, I'm also afraid of being replaced by my closest, and maybe only, friend I have. Some times I'm afraid of that friend hating me and chooses not to say anything just to spare my feelings. I just think of myself as that annoying friend that nobody likes. They never tell them they are annoying and just say it behind their backs.

WHY CAN'T I BELIEVE THEIR SMILES WERE REAL?

I constantly feel lonely and talking to my dog never helps anything. It's hard to act positive with all this going on I guess. So many of my thoughts are just negative. Anyways, it's not like I can talk to my one friend forever if I'm lonely. It's just that emptiness inside that really gets to me.

I'M EMPTY INSIDE AND YOU DON'T NOTICE!

I just opened the door to my room and closed it behind me. I want to keep all this off my mind. I log on YouTube and play the song "Ponponpon" and open up DeviantArt to look at some art. "I wish I can draw like that person." Then I see the artist saying their art is bad. I would beg a differ. At least they don't do poorly drawn anime like the looser I am. The song I was listening to ended to I put it on a loop because I'm just a lazy person like that. "Ah ah, you make me happy!~" I must have made a good decision because people don't avoid me like the plague. I log into my wattpad account (A/N Hi mom! I broke the fourth wall!) and scroll though fan fiction. Like some Hetalia crack. I laugh at the parts where England cooks and everyone runs off claiming they would rather have food poisoning then eat his scones.

I can find something to make me smile.

Life may have sorrow and emptiness, but if you want to make it though the sad times, find something to make you happy and the pain will go away.

A POTATO FLEW AROUND MY ROOM!