I just realized...

the only thing I like that I do for myself is violin.

before you say "well what about writing?" or something, the things you're gonna say are things I didnt enjoy and did because my parents or someone else thought it was good and expected me to carry on with it.

Writing, singing, school-related stuff...most of it wasnt exactly something I did without people telling me I should.

Violin was my choice, in the 3rd grade. No one said "hey, you're good at violin! you should do it!"

Heck, I didnt even know what a violin was until the teacher came into our music class that one day in third grade and talked about it. It was that day I knew the violin was something I wanted to play.

I feel empty now...