I could feel Craig (glaring) staring at me, "What?"

"I-I said I'm sorry. Y-You know, for everything."

"What?"

I continue staring at the other side of the street.

"I'm s-sorry for everything. M-Making things awkward b-between us and all. I-If you're just hanging out w-with me because you f-feel obligated to," I pause and look down at the ground and take a breath, "I d-don't want you hanging o-out with m-me because you feel b-bad for me."

"Tweek. Do you really think I'm hanging out with you because I feel bad for you?" He asks sounding shocked, confused, and slightly hurt.

I nod slightly, then shrug, "W-Well it's possible. You O-only even said you l-liked me when I-I almost died," I say thinking about it as I'm speaking.

I feel Craig grab my shoulders and turn me to face him. I keep my eyes glued to the ground.

"Why would I be hanging out with you if I was just feeling obligated?"

"T-that's not what I'm s-saying... I'm saying I-if you feel like that, t-then it's okay if y-you don't want to hang o-out with me... It's fine. I-I wouldn't be o-offended," I say (lie. Lies, lies, lies.)

"I want to hang out with you. I swear. I want to be your friend," he says.

"Friend." (I'm pretty sure he just friend zoned you. That sucks, huh.)

"Y-Yeah... (I don't want to be just friends) me t-too," I say giving him a small (fake) smile.

I continued staring over away from Craig's face.

"Good," Craig says. Then, we start walking again.

We walk in silence yet again. I don't think he actually (loves) likes me. Can I just (not) kill myself already?

Why do you keep fighting me? One second you say I should kill myself, then suddenly it's 'oh, no don't do that!'

(I keep fighting you because you don't want to upset Craig. And if you have to go through hell to do that, then you will.)

I hate it when you're right...

"Tweek? What are you doing?" Craig asks stopping and turning back to me.

"Thinking."

"What are you thinking about?" He asks as I walk up next to him.

"(Anxiety pills and suicide, how about you? Thinking about Bebe? Girls?) Nothing."