It would almost be a year since I first knew you existed yet I still hold our memories as if they were born yesterday. I could still feel the monstrous beating of my heart, I could still see your eyes right in front of mine, I could still almost imagine you basked with such finesse under the gentle light of the sun, with those curls adorning your head as if they had their own life.

All these things, they seem so vibrant, so fresh but I am fully aware that they have long gone died between your thoughts and your being and I am the only one cultivating, insisting that these memories are for revival. I hope you'd find the heart to let other people love you.

It's a beautiful thing. You are much more than what you think. I see so much in you. I hope you'd open your heart and embrace love in it, just let me, let me. No matter the cost, no matter what may become of me, of us after. With all of what's left of me, I will love you, less or more, I would, just let me. Don't be scared, I'm not asking for anything in return.

My affection for you knows no bounds and knows no paybacks. All these months none dwelt in my thoughts longer than you did. You are my first thought in the morning and the last thing I think of before I sleep.

See how you mattered? But nevertheless I remained invisible, worthless and rocked into a rubble. Yet in anyway, I choose to stay. I know you are worth every blow pain, you are worth every bullet, every thorn- you are worth everything. A debris has floated in surface, after all the toils and sleepless nights spent with you in thought. But fear not, I am well. With all of what's left of me, I hope you're doing fine. Take care of yourself, I love you Kevin.