I am afraid, I am afraid, that's the only thing running inside my head before you came in

I am afraid of everything, I am afraid of myself

I always loose control, scars are my witness, blades are my friends

Every night, my shadows are paying me a visit

I am afraid, yet no one hear my screams

For I, will not deserve any kind of love

Aggression, depression, and anxiety are part of me.

I am afraid, my heart says

I am afraid, my body tells.

Until your light lit up this dark tunnel of mine

I told you not to fall in love with me, not to love me, not to stay by my side.

I am afraid, but this time it's different

My head is filled up with unorganized
thoughts

My heartbeat beats so fast as if I ran a thousand miles.

But I can't give you what you want, what you need

I am so coward to surrender everything

Too coward to give everything you deserve

So I let myself to pay the price.

I am no good for you

You don't deserve me

A crazy self-harming being like me

My sanity is not as normal as you think it is

I can do things you can't ever imagine I can

Let go of my hand and take your freedom

Run away and never comeback

I am afraid, well atleast I can still feel the pain.

Pain of being lonely

Pain of being misunderstood

Pain of pretending someone I'm not

Pain of being sick

and pain of falling in love with you.