"I won't give up on hope, secure another rope. I'll try for another day"

Vera's POV

"Vera what will you do?" Mrs Jones asks as she walks to the other side of my bed.

I'm going to do what I really want.
No one's going to lead me again.

"Honestly, I don't know.. What if I don't make it?"

"There's a 0% chance you won't make it. Its a fact. Since your immune system is strong, you can live without it. Do t worry Vera. What I'm asking is.. Do you want to give in?"

Do I want to?

"I don't know" I say again

She sighs and gets up.

She pauses and looks at me, but I keep my eyes glued to the floor.

"You know Vera, I know what they've done to you in the past. Even though you might not have forgiven them, besides that, he's still your brother. And I know you too well. If you don't do it now, it's something you'll regret later"

she finishes and walks away, closing the door behind her.

What do I do now??

I know I should give in, but maybe they have a deeper need behind all these.

Can they?

***

"What's wrong with you?" Florence asks catching up to my pace on our way to the Cafeteria

I keep my eyes glued to the walk way.

"C'mon Vera answer me. You've been moody all day. Did anything happen to Mrs Jones??" she asks

She has asked this question several times.

"No." I finally respond.

"Then what's going on in that head of yours?"

I sigh and shake my head.

"You wouldn't get it Florence.." I say as we sit down in our usual spot.

"I was there when your grandma got kidnapped. I was there when your friends left you, and If I know better, I know everything about you. So what's there not to get"

"You don't know everything!" I snap at her

My reaction took her aback

She stares at me with shock.

"What happened?" she asks more worried

This isn't what I need right now.

Without saying any other word, I walk away from the cafeteria.

I hope there's no one in the class.

"Vera!" she calls back.

I forgot something!
I rolls my eyes at what I was about to do, I turn around and pick up my History project.

"Wait!" she says again

I ignore her and resume to class.

****

"Thank you class, have a great day!" History teacher finalises and leaves.

After how many decades.

It's already the end of school.

Today went by really super fast.. I couldn't think straight in each class I attended.

The subject teachers either called my attention or threatens me.

Now.. Time to go back home.

My thinking place..

I must decide before this Friday..
I know he has six months left, but six months might just be a month.

"Are you going now?" Florence calls from beside

I almost forgot she existed today..
Well actually, she called my attention thousands of times today..i constantly ignored her or snapped at her.

Not today, not today.

I look at her and nod.
A light nod.

She gives me a hopeful smile
The kind of smile that says "at least she's nodding"

"Oh. Wait for me then. I need to collect my eraser from Laura in the other class" she says and disappears

Why does she always lend people her things? Tomorrow, she can lend someone one of her notes.

That sucks.

"Heyy" a soothing calls from behind

I immediately stop packing my things.

"Hi" I say almost out of breath

"You okay?" Tobi asks

Dammit!

I nod, a stiff nod I must say.

I continued to pack my things.
Was that too harsh?

I could feel his gaze upon me, but I kept my eyes on my books.

Ignoring his earlier question, I turn to the door.

"Hey wait up!" he stops me

But I rather slow Down..at least I slowed down.. Right?

I couldn't even turn to look at him.

My past hates me.

"I-I-need to go now" I say shakily

Be.
Strong.

"I don't think so." he stops me as he's directly standing in front of me..

Just like how we stood face to face the day Mrs Jones went to the hospital.

Every single second was angelic to me..

A few steps to his body..

Not the time..

"What's up with you lately?" he asks

"Uhhhh I don't know what you're talking about" I say trying to make this conversation as quick as it should be.

"Florence told me you've been moody all day. You didn't even answer her throughout" he says

What in the world?!

So Florence went behind my back and reported me to him?
He's not not father you know!

He has no freakin right over me!

Maybe he cares?

But still... She shouldn't have told him anything.

"Please.. I'm late" I say walking past him

That might be rude, but I ain't got time for shit right now.

"Vera!" he shouts as I walk out of class

"Veraaaa!!" Florence calls

"Wait up!" she says running

She finally caught up to my pace

"Okay what the hell is wrong with you?! I've been trying to reach out to you, but you won't give in. You've been acting all bitchy lately! No offense but you should mind your behaviour around others! I'm only saying this because I love you, and I'm your friend. Tobi was trying to get to you and you pushed him away?! What the hell Vera? C'mon just talk to me, Talk to Us" she says angrily

Bitchy?
Friends don't call each other bitches!

"I mustn't be late today." I say about to resume my walk

I stop and look back
"Oh and Florence, you're the one with the bitchy attitude."

I could hear her gasp at my sentence.

Do not mess with me when I don't want to be messed with.

*******

"Modern Loneliness we're never alone but always depressed, love my friends to death, but I never call and I never text. Modern Loneliness, we all take it high but we don't know how to come down."

Vera's POV

" Florence called me today. She told me you've been acting all strange and snapping out for no reason. Is there anything you want to tell me? " Mrs Jones asks immediately I entered the living room.

Ignoring her question, I walk up to the kitchen to get a snack..

Been hungry all day.

"Young lady! I won't take up nonsense from you today. What's happening to you?"  she snaps.

Damnnn.

I've never seen her like this before.

"I'm sorry, I'm not in the right mood today, that's all" I say

"Didn't you hear my question? WHAT GOT YOU IN A BAD MOOD?" she asks

Oh you really want to know?

You really really wanna know?

Okay okay..

My younger brother who forgot his sister and dead mother here in this country comes back sick and asks me to give him part of my body. My elder brother comes back without know his own mother died a long time ago. I'm pretty he's the first to know on my dad's side.

I sigh and look at her.

"I'm on my period ma." I lie straight up to her face.

Her face falls and she smiles

"Oh! Is that why you're acting like a drama queen? Vera it's nothing. Just don't get all moody when it happens, it makes it worse." she says and pats my back

I smile sheepishly

"I'll call Florence and tell her about it" she says and leaves the room.

There's no way Florence is going to believe any of that shit.
We literally started our periods on the same day... So we practically have the same dates..

And ours was last two weeks.

She's definitely not going to believe a single thing.

She should be the least of my problems now.

I face slam myself mentally at my future decision.

I pick up my phone to search for the number I saved.

The call starts to ring.

Biting my lower lip, I let out a silent prayer.

Lord please lead me aright this time.

"Hey?" the unfamiliar voice questions

"Hey Johnny it's me, Vera" I say shakily

Here goes nothing.

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