"It's your turn to get it," I grumble as I roll away from Tae pulling the blankets with me and rolling myself into a little burrito.

"It's your house." He says, his voice still husky with sleep as he tries to pull some of the blankets back.

"Pllllleeeeaassseee" I whine as the doorbell continues to ring.

Tae manages to pull the blankets back from me pushing me towards the edge of the bed. "It's freezing." I squeak out as I crawl back under the blankets.

"Your toes are like ice cubes." He shivers while I snuggle close trying to steal his body heat.

"Let's just ignore it they will go away." But a groan leaves my mouth as I hear my phone ringing.

Tae leans over grabbing my phone to pass it to me. "It's Jin we have to get up." He chuckles as he pulls himself out of the bed and into the bathroom to shower.

"Hello Jin"

"I know you are upstairs being lazy in bed! Come and open the damn door sweetheart."

"You're too early! Come back later, I'm tired."

I hear his sharp intake of breath before he starts his rant. "IT'S 11! Do you know what I and Namjoon had to go through to get here so early with food for you! AND how much traffic th-"

"OKAY OKAY GOD IM COMING!" I cut him off and hung up dragging myself downstairs to open the door.

"Hey, tiny one!" Joon greets me as I open the door.

"Joonie good morning!" I say cheerily, a huge smile on my face as I hug him tightly.

"It's lunchtime." He says, the corners of his lips fighting a smile, his eyebrows slightly raised.

"Am I not going to get a hello?!" Jin asks loudly with a silly pout on his face.

"Do you hear something Joonie?" I ask as we walk inside to put the food on the table. I bite the edge of a smile, in a vain attempt to keep my creeping grin at bay.

"Wow look at all this food for just me and you Joon," Jin says with a smirk in my direction. His soft gaze falls on me promising laughter and easy banter.

"I'm not part of this," Joon says, taking a sip of his coffee and giving us a fake smile.

"You know she will beat you if you don't feed her."

My head turns to the stairs shooting Tae with a look that could kill. He was leaned against the wall and as we all turned to look at him a nervous smile spread across his lips.

Jin and Joon snicker behind me and Tae walks over wrapping his arm around my shoulder. "Come on let's eat before you get hangry"

"Hey! Where's Dani?!" I suddenly remember my best friend who went with Hobi last night.

"The other guys took her out... Well except Yoongi he's held up in the studio." Joon says, giving me a tight smile.

"Oh" Was all I could say.

We didn't talk about it anymore as we loaded up our plates with the food the guys brought. We spent the rest of brunch rather quietly.

The food gets stuck, four bites, and I'm done. I was lost in my thoughts as I pushed around the food on my plate. What I was supposed to do. Christine and Ashton could show up any minute.

The guys exchanged worried looks around me but didn't say anything. Jin kept trying to make us laugh with his lame jokes that I usually loved, but I barely heard them as he spoke.

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I was laying with my head on Jin's lap, eyes closed as he combed his fingers through my hair.

Tae was playing some game on the Xbox and Joon was arguing with him to turn it off so we could watch music videos.

"Do you know that Namjoon forced me to turn off my game before I finished it the other night?!" I opened my eyes looking at him. His eyes pleading for some sympathy.

"Do you know this happened at 5:27 am in the morning? I know because I checked on my cell phone." Joon casually says a smirk on his lips.

"It was an important match, and I was SO close to winn-"

"I WAITED UNTIL 6:10 am in the morning! That means I waited 43 minutes!" Joon cuts off Tae raising his voice a little.

"Do you know what 43 minutes times 60 seconds is?! IT'S ABOUT 2500 SECONDS" Joon answers his own question before any of us have a chance. How the hell did he do the math that quickly!

"You couldn't finish the game in that time?" Joon finishes his rant questioning the pouting Tae.

Me and Jin look at the two who are staring each other down before we burst into laughter. Did Namjoon just roast him using math?!

I wipe the tears from my eyes, pulling myself up as Tae gets up to sit beside me.

"I was gonna win. Kookie and Jimin get it. I wish they were here to back me up" He mumbles, still pouting like a child.

Jin shoots Tae a glare. A momentary look of discomfort crossed his face.

"Sorry, Hun." He says softly.

"No, I'm sorry guys. They should be here with us." I speak. My voice sounds flat even to me.

"Well since you brought it up sweetheart. We all are gonna have to talk so we can figure out what to do with Christine and Ashton" Jin says seriously glancing at Joon.

"I already talked to the boys and everyone wants to help. Kook and Jimin said they will drop whatever it is you guys are doing for now until we figure out how to fix the more important issue. I know you don't want us to talk about you but, they needed to know."

"No Joon it's fine. Thanks for telling them I don't think I could go over it again."

"I think you need to talk to Yoongi first before we come up with a plan," Jin says squeezing my knee. "He's really taking this hard."

I Sighed in frustration. "I know Jin."

At this point, I wasn't sure if I could have a civil conversation with him yet. I loved Yoongi and I didn't want him to be suffering but I was still hurt, and I knew I tended to say mean and hurtful things I didn't mean in the heat of the moment.

"I'll be back guys," I say as I stand and go upstairs.

None of them stopped me but, as I reached the top of the stairs I could hear them whispering. I knew without a doubt they were talking about me but I couldn't care about it right now.

I step into my room grabbing my phone off the bed. I shoot a text off to Dani to double-check she's okay and apologize for last night.

She reassured me everything is fine and she's having a great time with the guys and will be home later. I stare at my phone looking at Yoongi's message. I need to at least make sure he's okay.

Lil Meow Meow🐱

Take all the time you need.

Me:

Make sure you eat, please.

I text him and anxiously wait for him to reply. I know he probably hasn't rested or eaten.

Me and Yoongi related in so many ways and I knew he was probably trapped in his darkness right now. The dark emotions are like salt, just a pinch adds flavor, yet too much ruins the entire dish.

The trick of it all is to remember what is salt and what is food; the food is love, empathy, kindness, joy, compassion. The salt is envy, hate, sadness, anger. If you have vastly more food than salt, everything will be alright, but it seemed that Yoongi and I were living off salt recently.

Lil Meow Meow🐱:

I'll be fine

His answer is short and to the point and I realize he is only replying because he's afraid ignoring me would cause a bigger rift.

Me:

I'll be over later. I'll bring your favorite okay?

Lil Meow Meow🐱:

That's fine, I'll be here.

Me:

Please try and rest... I love you.

I had already told Joon and Jin I loved them. I really did love all the guys they had become so important to me these last few months.

I wanted Yoongi to know that I loved him despite the hurt I felt. I needed him to know that he was still important to me.

I walk to the bathroom to splash some water on my face. I stood there looking at myself in the mirror, sunken eyes staring back at me. I looked as if the muscles in my face had gone on strike. Everything about it was slack. Even my shoulders drooped. My hair was a mess and I looked pale and tired.

I fell forward, catching myself on the porcelain sink, and bowed my head, shoulders shaking. As the ghosts of my past paraded around and within me, a sneaky reminder of all the nights I had spent, struggling to keep breathing when my entire body seemed to sag with exhaustion and numbed agony.

It takes all my effort to crawl back onto my bed. I should take a nap. The guys will be fine downstairs. I lay there, snuggled up in my sheets waiting for myself to slowly fall into the sweet oblivion of sleep.

I feel someone nudge my shoulder. I groan rolling over in my sheets. My disheveled hair was scattered across my pillow, and every breath I inhaled smelled of pine and honey.

"Let me sleep Tae." I didn't want to get up. I don't want to move at all and at that moment it takes all the strength I have to turn to him.

My eyes meet his worried ones and he gives me a sad smile. "Get up Hun."

I still lay there limp staring at him, but I hear the shower going and as I glance at my side table I see he has picked out some clothes for me.

"The guys left and we are gonna go do something fun!" He grins, grabbing my hands pulling me up from the bed.

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The aquarium fish were everything I had hoped they would be. Tae held my hand the whole time as he pulled me around the aquarium. Our hands instinctively sought for each other anytime we were out now.

I marveled at it because there was a time, I didn't want any sort of physical contact with him, but now it seemed like the most natural thing. So, we stood hand in hand like two children, and there was peace in my heart from all the dark things that surrounded me.

I quietly followed Tae to the different exhibits, I stopped for a long time at some tanks and went back to see others I wanted another glimpse of.

Tae's favorite area was the touch pools, he happily picked up anemones and sea stars, but it wasn't until we reached the shark and rays pool that a smile took over his face. The smile reached all the way to his ears and I could see how it came from deep inside to light his eyes and spread into every part of him.

We spent the afternoon walking around enjoying the exhibits, taking some goofy pictures, and just enjoying ourselves. I noticed a sign up ahead and my spirits picked up as I quickly raced on to the jellyfish.

The room was dark filled with huge glass walls and was lit up with neon lights. I let go of Tae's hand and pressed myself to the glass of the moon jellyfish tanks.

I've always loved jellyfish and I was frozen in awe watching them slowly dance in the water letting it soothe and calm me.

I can feel Tae's body heat as he stands quietly beside me. He placed his arms around me, and I leaned closer to him. The softness and gentle touch of his arm against my neck made my back tingle.

I looked up and our eyes met a smile on his face, when he looked at me it was as if every ounce of breath was taken from my lungs floating into the air like midnight smoke.

There was something about the way he smiled; the way butterflies seemed to escape from the pit of my stomach and the way the sun had somehow toppled down from the sky and made a home right there in my heart. We didn't speak because, in our own way, we were already communicating.

He gently took my hand in his large one and we walked out of the aquarium. "Let's go home."

We stopped on the way home to grab some food and even though I insisted I didn't want fries and a shake he got me one anyway knowing I would just steal his if he didn't. We ate, snuggled up on the couch watching Call Me by Your Name, it was one of his favorites.

I looked at my phone. It was 10 pm and I still needed to go and talk to Yoongi. Tae paused the movie giving me a knowing look. "Go talk to him."

"I don't want to just leave you here alone," I say, giving him a halfhearted smile.

"Take my car. It's late and I don't want you walking." He says grabbing his keys off the table, passing them to me.

"Are you sure? I can just talk to him tomorrow." I say hesitantly.

"Go, I know you won't sleep well if you don't settle this with him."

I get up in a heartbeat tugging on my jacket and shoes. He walked up to me slowly and pulled me closer to him wrapping his arms around me. His embrace was warm, and his big, strong arms seemed very protective.

Despite the heaviness in my stomach from going to talk to Yoongi, it fluttered at the feeling of his body pressed against mine. I sunk into the warmth of his side, appreciative of the simple gesture.

"I'll be here when you get back no matter what." He whispers against the top of my head.

I slip out of his embrace and give him a small wave as I climb into his car. I can't stop thinking about him as I drive over to the studio.

How long does it take to fall in love? A second? A month? A year?

It's like asking someone how long it takes to fall asleep. Some people are gone as soon as their heads hit the pillow. Others lie awake for hours and it's only when their brain stops churning for a while that sleep sneaks in and drags them under.

To be honest, I'm afraid of love. I'm afraid of the feeling of having someone sticking in my heart. But each day with him is another day I fall more for his smile, his laugh, his easy-going personality, and everything else about him...

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JINNIE! 😍

What did you guys think of Abyss?!

A longer chapter today My Little Coconuts!!

Who knows what the chapter title says?!

I know a lot of you were not happy with Jillian, last chapter, and let's be honest she's a wreck but I love her and hope you all like her when I'm done with this!

As always I 💜 You!