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You know that feeling when everything inside squeezes, aches, and it's empty? I experienced that in one second once I saw his face. He couldn't be confused with someone else, because this person caused so much pain that it didn't go away throughout these years. I wanted to cry, throw everything at him, scream and beat him as hard as I could, but instead of it I squeezed my fists, gritted my teeth and, sighing heavily, let out the most hated word "dad".

"What are you doing here? How long have you been here? Is your mother in Korea, too?" I was bombarded with questions that I didn't really want to answer. He was no one in my life, that's why he didn't need to know anything.

"I want to ask you the same question. What are you doing here? You left your own son all alone!" I lashed out. I couldn't control myself, because everything inside of me was boiling with anger, "You feel guilty, huh? Unfortunately, It's too late," I went on, "After what you did, you should've been here all the time, praying for him to get better," I cracked up. I screamed, breaking my voice, but I didn't care, "You acted like a bastard, trying to kill your son first, and then disappearing! Leave, my brother is doing fine without you! I'll take care of him myself. I hope you won't come back, because, admit it, you don't give a damn about my brother!"

The man was still standing at the door, listening to all the assaults. He had no shame, and he couldn't utter a single word, because I was right. I was right, damn it!!!

"Listen...I'm sorry," the man started, but I cut him off instantly. I didn't want to hear his crazy stories...

"You have no right to say anything!" I shouted, "You betrayed us! Get out, my brother doesn't want to see you!"

Taehyung, who appeared at the door, stopped me from losing it completely. He stepped inside the room, standing by me.

"I'm sorry, she's been out of control lately," Kim smiled, "Can you leave, please?" he bowed. My father clearly didn't understand anything, but he didn't argue and left.

I felt relieved once he was gone. I didn't see him for a long time and didn't consider him  a father. I won't deny, I was angry. Not only was I angry at him, but also me...The grudge I was holding against myself wasn't that big, but it was getting bigger every year.

"Thank you," I thanked him, "You always help me. Really, thank you..." I repeated, whispering, leaning my head on Tae, "Oppa, this is Taehyung. He is the best and he always helps me out. He does it because you're not with me..."

"You look so similar," he smiled and darted his eyes from my brother to me, and I just nodded, "I hope we can be friends when you wake up. Hyung," Kim turned to my brother, "Wake up soon, your sister really misses you..." Taehyung understood what I was feeling...

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I was in the car, leaning my head against the window and thinking about today. Why did my father come? He didn't care about my brother for years. He was a beast in my eyes, and it wouldn't change.
They say if your youth was hard then you'll be happy in the future, but...how much longer should I wait for happiness...?

"Miyeong, stop thinking," Taehyung didn't tear his eyes from the road, "Just forget and relax, ok? You always overthink...Go home and take a rest. I know you're worried about your brother and I'm sure he's, too, but please, think about yourself more. I'm worried. Remember why you're here? I want you to not forget about your dream," he removes his hand from the wheel and ruffles my hair. His words really touched my heart. I felt his concert and kindness. I always needed to thank him...

"All right," I nodded, "Thank you for today. Maybe, we could go somewhere this weekend? I'm paying!"

"Hm, if so then fine! It's just..." he fell silent, his face turning into a contemplative one, "I want you...to be a girl. You've already met Yoongi as a girl, but never with me, your best friend...It hurts," Tae scowled. He was so funny.

"Ok, if it's your condition, so be it."

After some time, we arrived at the dorm. The light in my room was on, which meant that Min wasn't asleep yet. We slipped out of the car, the breeze hitting our faces right away. Perhaps I should start wearing warm jackets.

The boys from the next rooms were sitting in the lobby. Two of them were playing something I couldn't even understand, some of them were eating ramen despite the late hour. I greeted them, getting the same in response. Our dorm was really friendly. Especially in the mornings. When the bathroom was occupied by your roommate who woke up first.

"All right, I'm going to my room, Jimin and I still have something to finish. Don't forget, you promised to take a rest," Kim whispered, his index finger poking in my forehead.

"I remember! Just go. Tell Jimin I said hi!" I waved my hand and disappeared behind the door.

Min Yoongi was sitting on the floor next to the bed, looking at something. A trash can was placed close to him, and he was throwing some ripped papers in it. I waltzed closer and stood behind his back, peeking from his shoulder. 

"What are you doing?" I asked, shoving my bag under the bed. He started moving instantly, grabbing the lid of the box and slamming it shut sharply, but he forgot to remove his fingers.

"Fūck!" he screamed and got a grip of his red fingers, "Why did you scare me like that?!" he placed the box under his bed, farther, close to the wall, pretending as if nothing happened.

"What are you hiding?" my curiosity got the best of me. Those papers were pictured, they looked pretty old, "Who's this? Why are you tearing them?"

"None of your business. You said you'll stay out of this," short silence fell upon us, "You were with Taehyung again?"

"A? Yes, we had some business. And he has a car so he drove me," I shrugged. Grabbing my clothes, I went to the bathroom. I heard him behind the door.

"I have a car, too! And mine is way better than Kim's," Min shouted, "Why didn't you ask me?" because you know nothing...

"Well..." I went on, unwrapping the bindings, "I saw Tae first..." I put on the baggy hoodie and stepped out, "That's it. What, are you jealous?" I squinted my eyes and smirked.

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