Rey's POV

Kylo Ren. He was the man who had kept me awake long into the night. The man who had left an imprint on my mind, soul, and spirit. I suttered as his strong arms wrapped around my waist. 

"Rey?" His chocolate voice filled my fogging mind. 

"K-kylo?" I whispered. 

He dropped his arms and resumed his harsh expression. "Excuse me." He went to brush past me. 

"Kylo?" I called after him. 

"What?" He spit out. His eyes betrayed him and I saw the hurt and the torment that had probably plagued him for these years. 

"I didn't do anything." I tried to reason. 

"Sure." He rolled his eyes. "Sure you didn't." 

"It wasn't me!" I pleaded. My eyes clouded with tears. "I swear!"

"Rey. Who else could it have been. I wasn't prepared to open my notifications up to see stuff about you snuggled up next to that Dameron guy." He spit. "I thought you loved me. But obiviously I was wrong. Clearly the only people who 'love' me, use me." 

"Kylo, I never did anything with Poe. I was giving my friend a hug. That was it." I covered my eyes. 

"Uh huh. I was over in America busting my butt, getting in shape and ready for this season, and you were in the UK, I was over 24 hours away from you. It was too much for both of us. I should have known." He clenched his fists. "With him being so close and so involved in your life that you would eventually grow tired of me and dump me. I was ready. I had prepared. And then to get slapped with that." He snarled. "It was too much. Do you know how many things I broke? How many new scars appeared on my person for being disobedient to Snoke?" 

I rocked back and forth sobbing. Kylo stalked over to me and forced my face up. "Do you realize what you did to me?" His chocolate eyes probed mine. "You broke me in a day. You destroyed the man inside of me. You broke me down to attempt to rebuild me. In our time together, you never embraced me for who I am.  I am Kylo Ren, just as much as I am Benjamin Solo. I am the same human. Kylo Ren is my shell. He is my resort for the fame. Ben Solo is my true self. I was Ben for you. You never asked me to be Kylo for you. Always Ben. I need to be myself. And if that is me being Ben and Kylo that I will be both." 

I reached shaking hands to cup his face. "I will love you no matter who you are." 

He glanced down and my trembling lips and lowered his head to press a searing kiss to them. He tore away, chest heaving to give me one last look before stalking away. 

I touched my lips absentmindedly. He and I could work. We just need time.