052 // FALLING

"always be kinder than you feel."

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Helena hands Yoongi her script for today.

her lover looks back at her with confusion clouded before brown eyes. "you're not coming today?" Yoongi questions, grasp on her wrist gentle.

"nope." Helena runs her finger across the back of his warm hand. "Jimin's back so we need to sort things out in terms of Helia and him." she explains. she declines his suggestion for him to be there. today's for her family.

"i understand that."

Yoongi stares at the sheet in front of him. "but don't you have a speech to make today? isn't it this?" he asks. he loves her passion in everything.

"it's okay. i'm graduating soon. i'll have to get used to not making any." Helena laughs, looking at the room they were about to walk into. she's done with classes and needs to go home for today's emotional reunion. "do you want to read it for me?" she asks, prodding Yoongi with a happy smile.

Yoongi turns pale, pulling Helena closer towards him. "what? you know i suck at public speaking." he stutters. the image of him on stage, saying his girlfriends words is creating a pool of anxiety in his stomach.

"all you have to do is read." Helena squeezes his hand. Yoongi already knows she's leaving. "i believe in you." her words make him smile.

"make sure you take the boys with you." Helena adds. Yoongi wants to pull her back, tell her not to go but he wishes her good luck instead.

Helena wishes him good luck too as his hands holding the paper shakes. he can't believe the love he feels for her and he feels his heart shake too when she speaks again. "i love you." she calls and leaves, her presence evident even as she walks away silently.

so Yoongi drags Taehyung, Jungkook and Jin to the speech room. he needs all the moral support he can get so he makes them sit at the front. Yoongi tries to ignore Taehyung's phone recording him and their goofy smiles.

Yoongi clears his throat and imagines his girlfriend sitting in front of him. "my girlfriend told me to read this for you since she couldn't make it." he explains and appreciates the welcoming smiles retrieved.

"love comes in all forms."

"i got lucky. i fell in love with someone's soul first. every curve, every flaw and every disappearance shaped the person that is meant for me."

Yoongi can't believe what he's reading. a love letter from Helena? to him? is she crazy?

"the beauty about love is that it comes when it's unexpected. you find yourself falling down this dark cave, no idea where the bottom is and what the outcome will be. will it end? will you hit rock bottom? will you keep falling?"

"i'm still... falling."

"my mind begs to remember but i cant remember anything."

his heart shakes with every word that is spoken. "i find myself wanting to remember every word my lover has ever spoken because i truly believe he speaks poetry like no other. i could hear him talk under the stars forever, he's admirable and he doesn't even see it. he is the beauty of love and love is lucky to have him and me."

Yoongi almost chokes with tears because Helena's speech about love wasn't just about love. it was about loves beauty and his and hers.