On my iPad –school’s iPad- I went through the photos of Colt as our English teacher set up her laptop to show us some power-point and I just started deleting them. 

Deleting all evidence of our joke of a relationship. 

As I’m going through I can see how incompatible we actually are. He’s a handsome sex God and my small plain frame next him is just so wrong no wonder he cheated on me. Why wait to get some from me when with his good looks he can probably turn a straight man gay? 

I’m not condoning his behaviour I’m still badly hurt but far out I’m not the prettiest creature on the Earth what was he doing with me in the first place? I was just a pale flimsy thing next to him.

I should have known better. 

Suddenly an email from Caleb popped up and I suspiciously stared at him but he didn’t even look at me he just stared up at the whiteboard. I opened it and saw a digital sketch of a muscled body with a cut out picture of Colt’s head then as I averted my eyes down I saw a shriveled up dick. I slapped my hand over my mouth gasping silently. 

No way... Caleb I love you so much. 

I read the text at the bottom and it reads: You didn’t miss a thing Snowflake.

“Clearly.” I whispered and Caleb started silently laughing. “Vampires aren’t as bad as Marcy makes them sound.”

“Oh no we’re pretty bad, you just happened to win my heart.”

“You do know the school can look at our emails whenever they feel like it.”

“I’ll compel them if they do.”

“Huh?”

“When you two are quite finished... Ms Price and Mr Knight,” my teacher Ms Rosebud glared at us tapping her foot impatiently. “Do you two need to be moved?”

“No ms sorry.” I apologised before Caleb opened his big mouth. She went back to her lecture of whatever and I accidentally locked gazes with Colt. 

No look away Snow! Look away!

His eyes look so sweet and I know they’re deceiving me once again. But sometimes it doesn’t hurt to look even if he is staring right back. His lips turned up into a smile and somehow that snapped me out of my spell and I flipped him the bird.

❄❄❄

At break time Caleb and I sat alone under a big tree next to the school’s library and many people have already peeked through the windows and eyed at us suspiciously. Everyone knows about the break up which is so embarrassing for me, after all I was the one that was cheated on with many girls. Some of which don’t go to my school and I’m glad because otherwise I’d be concerned of how many sluts there are here. All of my ‘friends’ did him or knew he was doing others and now they’re just avoiding me. I don’t miss them one bit because I’ve realised that they were only friends with for two reason, my dad’s money and Colt. We both ignored the staring eyes from the windows and people passing by us wondering if we’re together or not. I want them to think that because I don’t think I can trust anyone in this school (any other male in this school).  I snuck my phone out to take a picture of the amber leaves of the tree we’re sitting beneath then for fun we took a selfie for instagram. #mybae

Suddenly Caleb reached into the pocket of his leather jacket pulling something out to show me.

“Is that what I think it is?” I pointed to the little white stone in his hand.

“It’s to help you with full moon.” He smiled.

“Marcy told me about these. Moon stones... but she said they’re rare how did you get a hold of one?” Moon stones are supposed to help a werecat when shifting under full moon. As in they won’t shift at all the stone holds a power to block the moon’s influence.

“Had to haggle up some shrivelled up witch.” I don’t know why but I shivered at the term witch. “But I figured you’re kind of worth it.” He said pretending to be doubtful of me.

“Aw and you’re kind of sweet.” I mocked. “Some Bae you are.”

“Bae you know actually means poop in some other language.”

“Really what one?”

“Does it look like I care to remember?”

“Sorry jeez someone woke up on the wrong side of their coffin this morning.”

“Oh I don’t sleep in coffins I hang upside down and snuggle in my bat wings.”

“We should totally plan a sleepover.”

“OHMAGOD!” He squealed all girlie like. 

“What is with you two? Are you soul mates now?” Marcy muttered from around the corner of the library knowing we can both hear her.

“You’re just jelly of our friendship.” I said reaching over to hug Caleb and us both made kissy faces at Marcy as she walked up to us.

“So now I have to tolerate that.” She pointed at Caleb like he’s a pest. Which he is but one that I adore and trust with all my heart because... He’s my Bae.

“Don’t insult my bae.” I sat in his lap and forced his arms around me to cuddle me.

“What are you two doing hiding out back here?” Marcy said sitting down in front of us crossing her slim legs hidden beneath her black leggings. Her hair even though it’s dark red still matches the orange colour of the leaves. Caleb held out the stone for me and took feeling the cold sink into my hand and there’s something else I sense from it. I don’t what it just makes tremble from it’s power.

“Caleb got me a moonstone. So I may never have to shift into a cat.” Ever! I’m pretty happy with that. 

“You never want to shift?” Marcy questioned stunned but she also said it in a sad tone. As if I’m missing out on something big.

“Why not?” Caleb even seemed curious and when he saw me avert my eyes away it’s like he just knew already. Somehow from that act he found out that I’m afraid of all this. Afraid to change and hurt someone like I was... “Meh I wouldn’t want you to either, I don’t need cat fur all over my clothes. That’s why I drank my last one he was such an ass.”

“CALEB!” I screamed as Marcy gasped in shock.

“Kidding... or am I?” He wiggled his eyebrows at me so I elbowed his gut making him groan in pain. His eyes have turned a shade lighter from the blood red pits, now they’re a little golden. I don’t know what that means but I’m not sure if it’s rude to ask or not so I let it go.

“I understand why you’re afraid to turn but Snow it’s amazing.”

“Please Marcy don’t. What are you even doing out here shouldn’t you be with Holly?”

“I’m going to ignore the tone you just used that just broke my heart and she’s got a guy chatting her up.”

“What about Kale?” I asked humorously while Caleb stiffened beneath me.

“He’s around here somewhere stalking me down.” She said rolling her eyes. 

“What happened this time?” I asked.

“He wants to kill Caleb.”

“Lovely.” Caleb said dully.

“Don’t worry I’ll use my feminine persuasion to get him off that.”

“Women really are amazing.” Caleb mocked with awe making the two of us smile and nod in agreement. 

But then she went all motherly on me. “Snow keep that with you and keep it safe.”

“Yes mummy I will.” I nodded as she frowned at me not amused. “Oh and mummy do I have permission to go to the bathroom?”

“I will slap you.”

❄❄❄

“I can’t believe I’m seriously catching the bus.” Caleb muttered.

“Not all of us have super speed.”

“Yes well you could if you would shift.”

“Alright since you’re in another one of your TC moments you I can catch the bus alone.”

“TC?”

“Typical Caleb.” He snickered. “You should be happy it’s very hard to find a good insult for such an amazing ass like yourself.”

“Aw Snowflake you jut made my day. Now are you sure I can go?”

“Positive.” He gave me a peck on my cheek and then just like that he was gone leaving a rushing breeze that caused a few girls skirts to fly up at the bus stop. “Pervert,” I whispered smiling to myself as I waited patiently for the bus to come. Holly wanted to go out to meet up with friends but they’re all allies of Colt so I decided to find my own way home and Marcy well I don’t know where she went. But by the heated look Kale was giving her I thought it was better to just leave them to go all wild rabbits on each other. Rabbits are crazy maters... Is it sad that I know that?

“Snow?” A voice called out but I pretended not to hear. No way am I going to talk to her... Na-uh. She is no longer my friend she slept with my boyfriend and faked our friendship. “Hey Snow!” Winona called out in her high pitched whiny voice and I gritted my teeth together. 

“Leave me alone.” I growled with no temptation to look at her.

“What? Snow hey how you been?” She didn’t hear me. 

I turned my head ready to really growl at her but then she was saved by the bus so I pushed in front and escaped from the blonde. 

I can’t stand being near any of my friends.

I can tell by the way they sweat and how their heart beats are fast paced around me that they’re liars I mean why else would they be so nervous around me? Also the rumours and the list Colt sent me one night during the break to hurt me even more made it clear he had slept with her... twice. Does he not have a life?

I hate him, but I don’t.

And that is what is killing me.

The bus being naturally full of students from other school’s I decided to stand and held onto the pole to keep steady. A sigh escaped my lips as Winona stood outside with a gaping mouth. 

“Be careful a bee might fly in there.” I whispered as the bus moved.

To the next stop few people piled off and more piled on leaving me no chance to sit. All I want to do is sleep.

A male voice asked right into my ear. “How you doing?”

“No.” I groaned.

“Okay...” He said awkwardly backing away while someone laughed. I rolled my eyes and then they found themselves on a group of twelve year old boys.

I perked my brow frowning at them and they quickly whipped their heads away flushing.

This has been happening a lot lately and but it’s getting easier to ignore. 

Well almost.

Down in the seat next to where I am standing a girl in some catholic school’s uniform snickered at the boys. I pretended not to notice and watch a pregnant woman board on searching for a seat but no one offering one for her. Even the catholic girl acted as if she can’t see her.

I thought it was common courtesy for a Christian to be considerate of others so out of the kindness of my heart and because I’m feeling mean right now because of Blondie back there I tapped her shoulder. “Hey snicker girl move it.” She turned her head up at me creasing her brow at me confused. “I said move.” I ordered picking her up from the collar of her navy blazer and practically tossed her aside next to me. “Free seat here.”  I said to the woman with a satisfied smile and when she sat I glared at the girl which I’m still holding tightly to. 

“You give your school a bad rep.” I whispered then released her. Shocked she just moved herself far away from me as possible.

Finally a seat was spared near the back next to the window unfortunately I got a slightly old looking man sitting next to me almost trapping from escaping with his big belly. I avoided touching even with my shoulder and knee and pressed myself closer to the window then decided to just close my eyes for a bit to rest.

For once Colt was no longer the important thought my mind as I thought about the woman with the red eyes. I still can’t remember that name she said. 

A cold hand suddenly ran up along my leg waking me up from my daze and my eyes shot open to glare at the hand that the man next to me quickly whipped away. I clenched my jaw and piercing my eyes into him for at least half a minute before I glared out the window.

But he kept touching my thigh with his sausage fingers and from the reflection on the window I can see his joker smile. I shouted. “Stop it!” 

All the students behind us shot up from there seats concerned and a guy asked me. “What’s happening!?”

“This creep keeps touching me!” I exclaimed and they all scared him off the bus so I relaxed on my seat. 

“Are you OK?” A familiar voice asked me making me stiffen. My legs suddenly went numb as a scent happened to pass by my nose making me gasp. I gazed up at his mesmerising green eyes and I can’t bring myself to stop staring. 

Until he scowled at the sight of me making my stomach drop. He didn’t... what? Why would he scowl?

“Thank you Anthony.” I all but growled. He sighed, leaning on the back of the seat next to mine and I took note of how good he looks in a black leather jacket and those ripped jeans. Don’t drool, keep the sober stare! I need to seem neutral because everyone is just watching us with interest and I don’t need anything else humiliating happening. I should have broken that man’s hand... I think that’s just the devilish cat side of me talking now...

“Are you OK?” He asked but I know he’s just being polite. I need to calm my heart down it is beating faster than a moving train. Just think of the movie unstoppable about that train that was oh how ironic unstoppable. He’s not even that hot (Lie he’s gorgeous) and I’m still getting over a relationship what is wrong with me?

“Now I am thanks again.” I said. He nodded and prepared to turn away so I quickly said too loud. “I’m sorry.” Great another embarrassing weight lifted off my shoulders now can I go die in a hole. The bus finally came to my stop so before he could reply I rushed off. Today can’t possibly get any worse, at least I sure hope not I mean I was just harassed by a perve, saved by the guy that hates my guts, Colt tried to be social and then there’s the drama monologue next week which I forgot to prepare for.

Why was his scent so enthralling?

He probably wears really strong cologne that is affecting my sensitive nose. Yeah-no I am attracted to him but he hates me now anyway so better toss that dream away like I tossed that catholic girl.

I must be a really bad person because I just laughed at that.

❄❄❄

I reached my house but froze at the edge of my lawn when Colt just happened to be standing at my front door. No what is he doing here? What more does he want from me? I would say it pained me to see him and made my knees turn to jelly.

But the blonde hair isn’t doing it for me.

I shook it off as Taylor Swift ordered and strutted up the pathway to my front door. Yes I repeat I strutted trying to seem unaffected by his handsome presence. But when he took notice of me and tilted his head slightly to the side I almost tripped over. He did that every time he checked me out and liked what he saw. 

I didn’t trip or stumble at all –thank you Werecat gracefulness something good came out of you- I just passed and pretended he didn’t even exist as I got out my keys.

“Really you’re just going to ignore me just like that.” He said coming up right behind me and breathing down my neck. 

Just like that? Oh just like that... hm. No not just like that! I’ve been suffering through this for longer than I can bear. He’s just going assume I’m a heartless bitch, no I refuse to allow that. I refuse to give him the satisfaction. I whipped my whole body around and shouted. “It’s not like you tried to fix this Colt. I didn’t receive any calls from you throughout that break!”

“I sent you messages.” I gave him a ‘really?’ look. “Didn’t you get them?”

“Yeah I did get them.” I said then added to annoy him. ‘When you name it I believe it, if you text I’ll delete it...’ At least Miley Cyrus said something right.” I crossed my arms over and he chuckled at my use for sarcasm in this situation.

“Snow I am sorry.” He admitted.

I shrugged. “OK. We done?”

“Come on!” He yelled out as if I was being unreasonable.

“What? What do you want me to say? That I forgive you? Fine, there you happy?”

“No...”

“Neither am I. Go back to Grace already I can’t stand looking at you right now.” I got inside and slammed the door in his face. I didn’t think much of my parents not being home and stormed upstairs to my room throwing my bag onto my bed. 

“Snow!” I screamed when I saw Colt on my balcony pushing the glass door open. 

“Colt get out.” 

Once upon a time he would sneak up on my balcony to cuddle with me during the night. I should’ve known he was doing it to get lucky because he would always make a move but never pushed anything when I said no. Now I realise why he probably got some before he would sneak over.

“You don’t really want me to leave. I know you don’t.” 

“Yes I do.”

“I don’t believe you.”

“Feeling’s mutual.”

He sighed then stared at my bed with white covers and a black rose pattern. I am so glad I cleaned my room. “Remember when I would sneak in at night while your family was asleep to cuddle with you?”

“Yeah I remember you always trying to make a move on me to get into my pants.”

He directed his finger at me. “When you said no, I never pushed you.”

“Now I know why. You have the whole school to sleep with what do you need me for?”

“Well I do remember you most of the time not wearing any pants anyway so excuse me for assuming the best.”

“You’re such a pig.” I spat throwing my bag onto the floor.

“Snow I love you.”

“Stop it.” Stop using the word so casually. Stop trying to hurt me. “Get out.”

He cupped my face in his hands and smashed his lips on mine trying to stick his tongue in my mouth. Easily I can keep his tongue out, easily I can push him away, and easily I can say no. But instead the familiar feel of his lips warmed my aching heart and made my knees buckle. I pressed my body against his and he wrapped his strong arms around my waist. 

I pulled away and struggled to shoot a glare up at him. “No.”

“I don’t think you mean that.”

“I do.”

“No you don’t.” He kissed me again and I whimpered against his mouth. 

“Colt why are you trying to hurt me?”

“I’m not.”

“Well you are. Please leave or I’ll…”

“What are you going to do?” He practically threatened and I found so hot then I smashed my lips on his again. 

“What do you want from me?”

“I want you.”

“Don’t lie to me.” I whispered caressing the side of his face and he leaned more into my hand. “You can’t expect me to fall back in love with you after that. Not to mention I can’t take you seriously while you’re blonde.” 

He smiled and rested his forehead on mine. “I’ll do whatever it takes.”

“Kissing you is great Colt. But we will never be more than that.”

“Girls I’m home!” My mum shouted and I heard the front door slam shut.

“Snow.” Colt started but I pecked his lips to distract… -and to feel them one last time- then forcefully pushed out on my balcony. 

“Don’t ever call me, text me, or say I love you to me again. If you don’t mean it I want you remain silent and Colt, tell your friends to leave me alone.” I shut the doors in his face and locked them this time as well as drawing my silver curtains.

❄❄❄

I screamed as I took another spoonful of ice-cream and swallowed it down. Horror movies and chocolate ice-cream yes a really strange mix but both are helping me with my emotions. I made out with Colt! How low can I possibly get? No time to fret over him that’s why you put the horror movie on Snow.

Everyone else has gone out and I’m here in just my purple woolly socks and a loose white tee that reaches mid-thigh. A stained tee since I keep screaming and dropping my ice cream everywhere.

“Wait where’s the chainsaw guy? AH!” I screamed. The ice cream went fly and splattered all over the hardwood floor. “Mum’s going to kill me.” I placed the bowl on the coffee table and rushed through the dining room to get to the kitchen. 

I turned on the lights and saw this pale blue girl in the middle of my kitchen. 

“AAAAAAAHHHHHH!” I screamed then she screamed back. “AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!”

“AAAAAAAHHHHH!” I continued.

“AAAAAHHH!”

“AH?” I screamed confused and she jumped up and down excitedly clapping her hands. 

“You speak my language!” She leaped at me and engulfed me in a hug. What the fudge?