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(We're sorry) 

When Severus comes back to, Harry is laying on the floor, shaking, naked, and covered in blood and cum.

"Harry?"

Harry flinches.

"H-harry what. What happened?"

Harry bows in front of him, not wanting to be hurt anymore.

"What are you doing?"

Harry shakes.

"Please tell me that's My blood."

Harry quietly cries.

Severus apareates them to their bedroom.

Harry lays next to the bed.

"Go take a shower... or three." Severus says as he changes seeing the bandages are soaked.

Harry does as he's told.

Severus runs to Lily's room.

Lily opens the door.

"Lily. I blacked out again."

"Nothing happened last time why ar-" He cuts her off.

"I hurt Harry. I ignored the voice and I blacked out and. Harry hurt ..."

"How?"

"There's blood. and. he's scared of me. he's acting so submissive."

"Anything else?"

Severus goes to tell her he thinks he raped him. But just shakes his head

"I'll check on him."

Severus nods and lets her.

Lily walks to their room.

Severus goes back to his office.

Harry sits beside the bed when he hears the front door open.

Lilly walks in looking around.

Harry looks up at her.

Lily Kneels next to harry.

Harry look at her.

"What happened?"

Harry stays quiet.

"Harry talk to me."

No talking. Harry remembers.

"Harry?"

Harry looks down.

Lilly gets up and goes to Severus. She walks into the office and sees all the mess."

Severus is sitting on the floor looking blankly around.

"Sev?"

Severus starts crying.

She hugs him.

"I didn't want to. I don't want to."

"What, Sev?"

"I don't want to hurt him. I don't want payback."

"Payback?"

Severus shakes his head.

"Sev what happened?"

"The voice was there. I thought I'd control it like always."

"And?"

"He told me to."

"To what?"

Severus starts sobbing.

"Sev, what did you do?" She asks, hugging him.

"They're going to kill me."

"Sev?"

"Black lupin and potter are going to finally kill me."

"I won't let them."

"Yes, you will. I deserve it."

"What happened?

"It wanted me to punish him..."

"How?"

"M. Make. Him. Fell. Feel how. I. Feel."

"I don't understand."

"I think. It. Made me. Rape him."

Lily hugs him and starts to sob.

Severus does not move.

"I'm going to help you with this."

"I don't deserve it."

"You weren't in control."

"I want to be...''

"But you weren't, we'll help Harry together."

"He's scared of me."

"But he'll listen to you."

"I'm scared."

"I'd call you stupid if you weren't."

Severus stands up and offers Lily a hand.

Lily takes it.

Severus apareates them to his bedroom.

Harry is in the same place he was earlier.

"Harry stand up," Severus says softly.

Harry obeys.

"Please tell me what happened."

Harry looks at him like it's a trick.

"Did I tell you not to talk about it?"

Harry nods.

"Harry I need you to listen carefully okay. I know this may sound like... a normal. Abuser. But. That literally was not me."

It's a trick! Harry steps back a little.

Severus frowns. "harry you read the demon book didn't you?"

Harry nods.

"Didn't you read that I can black out and do things without remembering?"

Harry looks at him confused.

"I blacked out Harry. I have no clue what happened."

Harry looks down.

"Harry?"

Harry drops to his knees.

Harry?"

Harry stares at the ground.

Severus kneels next to harry.

Harry looks at him for the first time.

"Hey, love."

Harry looks back down.

"Hey talk to me."

Harry open his mouth. Don't talk. He closes it again.

"Harry please. I promise. I don't want to hurt you..."

A silent tear runs down Harry's face as he tries to believe him.

"Harry Love. you know don't like hurting you."

Harry looks up at him.

"Come on Harry. Talk to me."

Harry shakes his head, realizing something, if Severus wasn't the one who did it, someone else would punish him.

"Harry love please."

Harry shakes his head as he starts to shake.

Severus looks at Lily.

Lily summons a notebook and pen and hands it to Severus.

Severus looks at it. Then hands it to harry. "How about you write?'

Harry takes it.

"Write what you want to say, love."

Harry nods.

Severus watches him.

Harry writes some nonsense on the paper.

Severus looks at it.

Harry stays quiet.

"Harry please write down what I want to know."

Harry nods and writes what seems to be nonsense again,

Severus frowns and stands up.

Harry watches him.

Severus goes to Lilly.

Harry stays there.

"What do I do?"

"What do you mean?"

"He's not answering with the notepad he's not talking. He doesn't trust me."

"Let me see that."

Severus hands it to her.

"It's a code..."

"Of what?"

"What did you ask?"

"Write what you want to say. Write what I want to know."

Lily nods and waves her wand and neatly written sentences appear below the words.

Severus looks.

"He's not allowed to talk or he'd get beat. You came at him after you got up. He scared that since you said you didn't do it, the one who did will be back for him."

Severus goes back to harry. "Harry love he'll never be back. I'll make sure of it."

Harry looks at him.

"Please harry trust me. I don't want to hurt you."

Harry grabs the pad and pen. "Trust" Is all he writes.

"So you trust me?"

He underlines it and puts a question mark under it.

"Harry please. I've told you multiple times j don't want to hurt you."

"Do you?"

"Do I what?"

He circles trust.

"Of course I trust you..."

Harry nods.

"Do you trust me?"

Harry nods,

"Then talk."

Harry tries but it hurts him.

"Harry?"

Hary's eyes sting with tears.

"Harry, what's wrong?"

Harry tries again, but it hurts worse.

Severus decides to put a diagnostic spell on him.

Harry's vocal cord seems to be scorched and some are 'snapped'.

Severus frowns and goes to get a potion.

Harry drinks it but it burns and makes it worse.

Severus sighs and decides to get James. Well, guess I'll just die now.

Harry silently cries.

Severus goes to James office and knocks on the door.

"Come in!"

Severus walks in his head down.

"What's wrong?" James asks.

"I hurt Harry... well. technically it was not me. But. It was me."

"Blackouts?"

Severus nods and tries to control his emotions.

James gets up, "You're wanting me to check on him?"

"Me and Lilly tried talking to him. I. Apparently told him not to talk. And messed up his vocal cords... I tried a potion but it made it worse."

"That sounds like something that can't be fixed... maybe demon put a spell on him."

"Maybe..."

"Try teaching him sign language, until we can find if we can fix it."

"I don't know sign language."

"Learn it with him."

"Okay...'

James opens his drawer.'

Severus stiffens.

James pulls out a book.

Severus relaxes.

James hands it to him.

Severus takes it. "So. You cant help him?"

"No..."

Severus sighs and says, "thanks for not killing me."

"It wasn't you."

Severus nods and goes back.