Y/n

He quickly turns away from you, and you can't help but feel a bit dejected.
As this is possibly another sign that he isn't attracted to you.

Or maybe he's hiding something?
Hiding that he doesn't like you.

Or that he does-NOT!

Why not? BECAUSE.

That's a stupid reason.
I DONT CARE.

You must just really love going in circles with yourself, don't you?
...
Somehow you've managed the miraculous feat of-
getting on your own nerves.

You silently and begrudgingly make your way back outside to your bike.
Fortunately, no one stole it in the time that you left it by itself.

You close the front door on the way out, and lead your bike around the side of the house to the back yard.
As putting your bike away is a more menial task, you let yourself zone out.

You think about...
What would happen if Sansy suddenly wasn't smol anymore...
You don't know why your thinking of that of all things but your just imagining what you'd do...but what your actually doing is thinking about not knowing what you'd do...
Your kinda used to him being smol and so if he suddenly became regular sized...would that put things you previously thought weren't an option on the table? But what if you did that only for him to go back to being smol again? Would you have to stop because he is smol? What if he didn't want to? That's assuming he'd want to even at the normal size? What if he got bigger than you instead? And you were smol to him? If you were the smol one...would you still want to date him?
Though...knowing you...
you probably still would...
It'd make certain things difficult sure...
But they are probably still doable...
Right?
Gawd! Why are you even thinking about this...it's not like it'll ever happen......well...You suppose it could happen...you never know...
...f*ck.
Are you actually allowing your mind to entertain the idea of dating sansy?
...yes you are.
Noooooooooooooooooooooooooo...
Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...
Stahppppppppppppppppppp...
Dont wanna ruin our friendship ;^;
But...NO!
Absolutely NOT!
You are NOT ruining this!
A Sans is actually living with you!
So don't even think about f*cking it up!
You don't even know if he likes you!
So get a grip...on a knife...and stab your butterflies to death. 🔪🦋

Don't act on it, don't be selfish, don't be greedy...It never works out well for you.
Lay whatever "feelings" you think you have for Sansy to rest.

You can't stop loving Sans..you can't ever go back to the girl you were before you fell head over heels for a magical skeleton. He haunts your headspace. However, Sansy isn't Sans.
He isn't, despite the resemblance.
He is not Sans.
He is not Sans He is not Sans He is not Sans He is not Sans He is not Sans He is not Sans He is not Sans He is not Sans He is not Sans He is not Sans He is not Sans He is not Sans He is not Sans He is not Sans He is not Sans He is not Sans He is not Sans He is not Sans He is not Sans He is not Sans He is not Sans He is not Sans He is not Sans He is not Sans He is not Sans
He is not Sans.

Maybe if you tell yourself that enough then you'll stop thinking about him romantically...
probably not...
but it's worth a try at least...

You eventually reach the side gate, and kick it open. You bleakly drag your bike through with you. Unfortunately, due to your lack of paying attention to your surroundings, you soon feel the sudden pain of a low hanging lemon smacking you in the forehead. Damned lemon tree...

Lemons...

Your first thought after registering that you've been hit by a lemon is of course the fanfiction term.

But of course it does...

From there your mind immediately wanders to sans lemons.

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You blush furiously and quickly attempt to be rid of such thoughts.
That is till you remember that Sansy isn't currently with you so you have no real dissuasive reason to keep yourself from thinking about such things.
It's okay as long as he never finds out right? Entertaining the idea of dating Sansy for reals verses just fantasizing about Sans are very different things. You can't help the fact that you still harbor a deep affection for Sans.
But at least you can try to hide it from Sansy to the best of your ability...

You weave your bike through the backyard and over to the garage. You quickly pull out your key, unlock the garage, and wheel your bike inside.
You take off your biking gear and make sure the garage is locked before you leave it. Not wanting to leave Sansy by himself for too long, you jog back around the house to your front door, and quickly make your way back inside.

Upon having visual confirmation that Sansy is still where you left him.
You quickly put away the groceries, and then do a sweep of the house for siblings.

Only one of your brothers is home.

You inform your sibling that you restocked the food and he pulls you aside excitedly to tell you about something.

Apparently your friend got him into this game called Genshin impact. He is now hopelessly obsessed, and insists that you watch this video.

[There should be a GIF or video here. Update the app now to see it.]

Ok, that...
That was pretty funny actually.
You let out a "pfffffttt" noise followed by laughter. Before you could start to get hypnotized into watching more videos with your brother, a certain smol skeleton who was still waiting on you popped into your mind. Upon remembering him you casually usher your brother away to his room. Once he is behind closed doors, your make your way back over to where you left Sansy.

Sansy

Now that I'm out...and you're momentarily absent...
Is it terrible that I want back in?
Ha..Probably...-w-
I'm probably never going to be permitted to do that ever again though...

Which is completely understandable... and fine...and kinda disappointing...but it's fine it's cool it's chill it's all good ;w; You seemed in such a rush to leave though...gawd why am I like this?
Why do I like you?

Ah wait no...nonono...
I mean...not that I don't..I just..
There's no way you'd want to date me...no possible way...I mean even if you did hypothetically speaking, how would that even work? How would I-er
I start entertaining the idea of it.
D*mmit..

It's so far off from what's realistic and yet I can't help but think of how it'd be such a nice reality to live in..

But at the same time...
I'm torturing myself.

You continually turn me into a flustered mess on multiple occasions...
but I don't even know you that well..

How do I even know if anything you've told me is true? How do I know your not lying to me? How do I know I can trust you?

I suppose it doesn't really matter either way...I'm lucky that I even managed to get living arrangements...even if you were revealed as a twist villain I wouldn't...I shouldn't care...it wouldn't be anything new...

I shouldn't care if you like me...I shouldn't care if you leave me...I shouldn't care whether I'll see you again...you'll end up in my dreams either way...

You pop back inside the house and make short eye contact with me before
Circling around the house in search of something. Eventually, you get stopped by someone; probably one of your brothers. I overhear a video being played but only catch a few words...something romantic confession related...

I hear you break out into laughter.
My breath hitches as my cheekbones lightly glow.

I release a frustrated sigh...
As much as I kinda hate to admit it...
One day...
I wish...
I won't keep going in circles avoiding the truth...but that's a stupid thing to wish for...I'm a fool for even allowing myself to imagine the idea of you being romantically attracted to me...

I notice you coming back this way, so I do my best to pull myself together.