Her legs fold on the soft mattress and I give her the space to declutter her mind before I rub a small patch on the back of her palm.Her eyelashes bat on my fingers caressing her soft skin, her throat bobs to gulp down lungful of air before she parts her lips.I spare a glance at her fingers as they fiddle anxiously, indicating the tension brewing in her chest.I'm hoping this isn't a matter concerning her mother because if anything, I hate to see her like this, helpless yet completely selfless to protect someone who isn't worth her care.

"I know this is probably not a big issue for some girls….but I kind of find it….difficult to masturbate…like I know it's good and there's nothing wrong with exploring this and experimenting but I can't seem to know how to….how to do it the right way. I don't feel comfortable doing it.",She nibbles on her bottom lip,my eyes scrutinising her expressions as she stops abruptly and leaves me in confusion. I don't know if I should be relieved at the subject of her stress or absorb the knowledge that she's keen to explore herself. Either way, I lean forth to inch myself near her and tread carefully.

"How did you feel when someone else touched you there?",The thought of someone else getting the privilege to pleasure y/n is aggravating for my mind but I force myself to steer my brain clear of jealousy and discuss this with her.

Her eyes blink tentatively at me and her lips space to answer me but no words escape from her mouth for the first few seconds.She drops her gaze on her lap before facing me again."Nobody has……It hasn't happened to me yet.",I refuse to believe her for a millisecond but as soon as I sense embarrassment on her face, I realise the truth and thoughts line up on cue in my mind.She had an asshole boyfriend and he didn't even care to make her feel good? What can possibly be more pathetic than this?If anything, he needs to fucking kneel on his knees and beg for forgiveness for all the circumstances and trauma he forced her to go through.

"Your ex, he didn't pleasure you?",She gulps down a lump of air down her throat and presses her lips at my question."No, like we did have sex but he never did oral on me. It was only me giving him blowjobs so I felt maybe he didn't like to do it with me.",Her sentence ends in a whisper as if she's ashamed to admit this fact when the only person who is to blame here is her ex.

All the rage and vexation has now towered even more, making me realise this bastard had no limits of abomination. He had this amazing girl has his girlfriend, the person who selflessly gave her everything and had blind faith in him and he dared to fuck this up? Just how fucking mindless one can be? As if this wasn't enough, he made her insecure about her self-esteem and body which is now the sole reason for her feeling incapable. He better have his guardian angels protecting his stars because there's no way in hell I'm going to control my anger if I see him. I might even get reported for beating him lifeless and that still wouldn't stop me from putting him in an insolent state.

I have to suck a sharp breath to calm the storm in my chest and talk this with her for this is clearly not the time to put him as my priority."Is that why you're scared to touch yourself? Because you feel you wouldn't feel the pleasure and you would be disappointed?",I choose my words carefully and she shifts uncomfortably but puts her eyes on me which is a good sign.

"Yes…..I don't know if it'll be as good as everyone makes it look. I had friends in
my previous school, telling me this was normal between couples but whenever this came up between me and him, he always shrugged it saying he wasn't in the mood or said he couldn't wait to be inside me.",She reveals something that I already had a hint of but her words take me aback.He didn't think of her because he wasn't in the goddamn mood? Every word he has spoken to her is utter bullshit and enough to make him rot in hell. 

My temper is slowly surpassing every boundary that I'm building to compose myself but I can't even imagine how betrayed she must've felt. She has been deceived, lied to and betrayed by everybody who she believed to be hers, including her own mother and this induces both pain and wrath in my heart.

A deep silence lingers between us as I stare at her fingers, the tips of mine itching to crawl and hold hers, to caress every part of her body, to cherish and protect her and show her anything that puts a smile on her plaintive expressions.

My body inclines towards her, my hand taking hold of hers and resting it between my palms to provide her comfort and her eyes shoot at me. Heavy tears reside in her sparkling gaze, slowing my heartbeat and weighing my strength down and before I can stop myself, I wrap my hands around her frame, clutching her taut to my chest and soak her vanilla scent.

Her body relaxes in my arms, all the tension escaping her body and she breathes in my cologne, sighing sharply to burrow her head in my chest and revel in the warmth of our contact.This spreads a fierce urge to keep her attuned to myself and counter every possible thing that threatens her peace and happiness not only because she deserves it but her weak state havocs my mind, inflicting pain in my skin as if I've been bodily harmed. She affects me more than anybody else, more than I would've imagined but at the same time, I can't get enough of these feelings that dissipate all the vehemence enraged in my body at this moment. Her arms cradle on my back,her face pressed to my chest as she soothes my senses with her mere existence.

I drift myself away from her to look at her pupils, simmering with emotions and delicately cup her hot cheeks, the smooth texture of her skin tempting me to circle my thumb on her cheeks but I look at her before pouring my heart out."You're an amazing girl,pocky. I've never seen somebody being so kind, selfless and loving.I see the way you care about your loved ones, put efforts even for the ones who don't deserve it and this is a really good thing but I want you to know that some people in this world simply don't deserve you, your love, attention and care.You've been through the worst times when you deserve only the best things in the world.",My heartbeat echoes in my ears at her eye-contact and her lips tremble to suppress her sobs as a response but I push myself to continue,"You're worth loving and you should be appreciated. The ones who love you will never make excuses and make you feel unloved and unvalued.Your ex was an asshole, he should've given you everything he had because he had you but I'm happy you left him. You deserve all the perfect things in the world and someone giving you any less shouldn't be the reason behind you feeling insecure. How others treat us doesn't set the standard of what we deserve because people often fail to understand what they have until it's gone.",My eyes alternate between her eyes and lips as an overwhelming wave of emotions stirs my mind, igniting the want inside my body to kiss her but I'm not an imbecile so I retract my gaze onto her again.

"And as for exploring with your body, it's perfectly fine to have trouble at first but you're having it because of your thoughts.You need to let your thoughts take a backseat and the desires in your mind run your movements without considering anything other than your wants.",I explain according to my understanding and watch her clasping her hands, waiting for her to initiate a conversation about this but she struggles to voice her thoughts so I pull the strings.

"When you said you're not proud to ask for your wish, did you have something to ask about this to me?",I linger, uncertain of the thoughts flooding her mind. I'm ready to do anything to relieve her stress about this matter but her silence is threatening."I was thinking…about you helping me with…how I feel about pleasuring myself but I don't want to use you for my sake.I can't do that.",Her sentence piques both tender warmth and heat in my veins. Is she talking about what I'm thinking? I don't want to breed false hopes so I push her to phrase her wants clearly.

"You wouldn't be using me because we are doing this willingly and I'm more than glad to know what you have in your mind.Now I want you to say what you really have in mind.",My voice is firm yet gentle, assuring her so she doesn't step back for my sake.She has spent too much of her life on pleasing people which has shaped her thoughts in a way that she feels guilty to voice her needs and I want to change this.Her brown pupils dive in mine, the hue of the sparkles making her even more attractive but she flutters her eyes shut to lick her lip after sensing my persistence.

"I want you to help me feel good when I'm pleasuring myself.",She speaks in one breath, causing me to rewind the last two seconds in order to assure her words don't transition and my heart skips a beat. Holy hell.

My eyes blink at her to absorb the girl who just insinuated a crashing rhythm of my heart and hastened the rush in my veins. Her gaze fixated on me, cheeks imprinted with red flush, lips spread apart that appear even more tempting to welcome mine and a soft breath that she exhales to stabilise her heartbeat. She's indeed the same girl I met a few months ago, the same girl who teased me like a brat, the one who has been the reason of my crazy fantasies and now she's asking me to make her feel good.

Does she even know all the ways in which I can make her taste heaven and how delighted I would be to do that?

Everything happens at once, the air in the room thickens with a tension, arousal intensifies in our eye-contact as my mind gets clouded with ravishing images.This is going to be bad for my brain and hormones.

She doesn't avert her stare from my face, intent to seek my reaction so I don't jump to conclusions."Are you sure about it? I don't want this to be a decision that you regret because if anything I'm going to make this your best experience if you agree.",I state with confidence and watch her breathing the effect of my words. A faint smile tugs on her plump lips, the curve of her mouth providing me an ounce of happiness that I desperately needed and she gives me a nod.

"Are you usually that narcissistic?",She bends her legs to lay them against her chest, wearing a mischievous smirk that lets me know she's feeling better and my vision slides down to her thighs, a gift from those shorts she threw in her handbag last minute.

"Not narcissistic, just aware of my skills. Everyone should be.",I stand from the edge of my bed to walk towards the couch and put her handbag in the closet so she can sort her clothes later, taking hold of her bra to reside it in the pile. From my peripheral vision, I take note of her gaze that follows my movements so I speak to break the silence."So, do you want to do it now?",I exit the closet space to stand against the cabinet of my wooden cupboard, facing y/n who occupies a small space on my king sized bed which makes her appear even smaller in size.

"If there's nobody home, yes, otherwise, it would be awkward as hell even if the doors are closed.",Her comment earns a chuckle from me.I can't get enough of all the sides she has which have an unbelievable range from feisty, haughty to soft and adorable.

"My parents are going to pick junghee when they'll come home at 7 so we're good for 3 hours. Are 3 hours enough for you?",I punch in to tease her and she responds by aiming a horrible shot with a pillow but the grin never fades away from her face, to my satisfaction. My hands grasp the pillow and yank it on the couch before walking to her side.

"So…..",She trails off, biting her lips to conceal the feelings that I can detail from her face when I draw myself close to her. The idea of space diminishes in the close proximity between our bodies as I face her, the tip of my index finger running on the flesh of her thigh and my eyes clamped on her. I sear the fire that blazes in her vision as I trace patterns on her thigh, the tingles spreading across her body and the hazy look of her face sends shivers down my spine.

"So?",I enclose my hand on the back of her thigh, surging her to weigh the mattress down with her knee so she can sit on my lap, her feverish skin squeezing around my waist as she wordlessly understands my movements as she's feeling the same need.My left hand strokes her back to feel her curves that are no longer hiding underneath her cardigans and are bare in shape of a tank top while my other hand takes pleasure in clutching the hot skin of her thigh, my thumb grazing across her. Her skin almost convulses beneath my touch, melting deliciously in my hold, this contact is making my heartbeat thunder but if anything, I crave more of her,both everything that she can offer and the rest, which she fears to reveal.

I don't plan to rush my actions when I can enjoy each and every moment of driving her to the edge and devouring her sanity. As if she understood my intentions, her arms encircle around my neck, pulling us closer so our faces are centimetres apart. My eyes instantaneously capture the curve of her lips, the lips that I fantasise about, the lips that tempt me to withdraw my words and crush my soul against them.

The warmth of her mouth blankets my lips and my control almost melts so I near my mouth in the seam of her shoulder blade to kiss this spot for the first time. She heaves a shuddering breath once my nose nuzzles her nape and my lips press a kiss on her collarbone so I trail my lips down to the swell of breast and fondle her skin with my lips, nipping them amorously to pour all the passion that encompasses my body.

She tightens the grip around my neck in response so I pause, only to sweep a languid lick on her skin and nibble on it, sucking it harshly and branding it with my mouth, her body rewarding me a breathless gasp."I need you to tell me what makes you feel good and stop me if it gets too much for you, yeah?",I speak on her skin, my voice raspy from all the temperature that rises dramatically with every kiss I plant on her body."Do you want the lights off?",I remember to enquire about her because of the thoughts that haunt her and watch her nodding so I do the same before kissing the same spot again.

The back of her hand clamps on her mouth and she bites her lips to conceal the sounds that I live for."You need to stop biting your lips, baby. These sounds are everything I've dreamt of earning from you.",She doesn't say anything but leaves a string of feeble gasps from her mouth and damn me if that doesn't restrain an erection in my trousers.Her hands immerse in my hair,wandering on the nape of my neck and I feel her heartbeat racing at every spot I kiss her.

"Does this feel good?",My control is ripped into shreds in her voice and I have no control of myself now. I bury my mouth between her breasts, my tongue diving to caress her viciously and her back arches in response."Yeah…",She quivers in the softest whisper that toys with my hormones,making them run wild.My body is frantic with electricity and want and the way her thighs clench around my waist only worsen my state.I don't recognise myself anymore, all I can sense is her body writhing beneath my touch and her sweet gasps when I kiss her body.

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Carving a path of kisses down her chest, I dip my hand under her thin top to stroke her skin and test my limits with the last string of decency tugging my brain before I unclasp her bra and free her breasts from restrain and my fingers crawl to touch them."And this?",My hands feel the curve of her supple skin and I lose my breath.Fucking heaven."Yeah….",She nods desperately to let me know and shifts on my lap, grinding against my erection that tents my sweatpants.This is so fucking cruel, I'm completely surrendered to the heat enveloping our bodies.Even if I'm planting kisses on her body, my heart is throbbing insanely and her raw skin knocks the breath out of my body.

"Off.",I tap on her top and part my mouth only to let her peel off the layer and she enraptures a trance on me by removing her bra too, revealing her bare breasts for my hungry eyes.

My body quakes at this ravenous sight and I wrap my arms around her to flip her and press her back against the mattress, my instincts consuming my body. Every inch of her skin is glorious, perfect in every sense so I run my gaze from her glossy lips, sliding down to the marks that I left on her neck before it lands on the swell of breasts. I'm not even embarrassed for the way my dick throbs because she deserves it, no man can have her under him and not feel the need to take her in every possible way but right now, only I have the right to do that and I'm going to make it the best for her.

"What are you looking at?",She gives me a haughty smile, her cheeks colouring in blush but she mocks my horny state but I'm too turned on to play this game so I let my hand clasp her throat and kiss her adam's apple.

"How fucking perfect you are.",I push my knee forth, between her legs and her thighs clench, her core bucking against my erection to make me insane.Jesus fucking Christ.

Trailing my lips across her jaw, I suck on her neck, savouring every second of my control's ruin. I don't know how my body is holding up because the way her hips grind beneath me are shattering every ounce of strength in my body. I sink my mouth onto her right breast, lapping my tongue around her nipple to nibble and kiss roughly, the goosebumps spreading on her skin but I don't stop the torture and nudge her thighs further apart with my knee."Please…..",her chest rumbles in a feeble moan causing a devilish grin to break on my face and I switch to the other one, making sure to not take her hardened nipple in my mouth.I have no idea how did I survive without tearing her clothes and tasting this paradise and I absolutely have no idea how I'm going to last without doing this again and again with her.

"Please jungkook…",She undulates her chest for me, aching hard and begging me to give her attention so I put my mouth on her nipple, swirling my tongue around the hardness while my other hand pinches the other one. It's intense, rough and passionate how hungry we're sounding for each other as I feel her grinding against my cock to satiate the heat in her core. I always had an idea about her having a dirty side but now that I'm experiencing her begging and moaning for me, I'm already possessive about her, her smart mouth that now utters nothing except my name, her body, her sarcastic words and her soft heart.

My entire body is filled with the need to rip her panties and sheath myself inside her but this is not about me, it's all about her today so I tear my mouth from her breasts and look at her parted lips, her red face glowing with ecstacy and her hazy eyes looking at me with, sparkling with desire."Open those lips for me, sweetheart.",I run my thumb over her moist lips which immediately give me access and allow me to dip my thumb in her mouth, the wetness coating my skin. Fuck.

She doesn't require me to voice my demands and obliges by licking my thumb, circling her tongue over every inch of my skin. My torso bends down to clash my forehead against her,my chain falling in her neck and beads of sweat on hers melting onto mine as I move my thumb away, our bodies vibrating with heavy exhalations. My eyes snap open and drift from her flushed face to have my lips brush against her."Does anybody else know how dirty you are?",I almost convulse when her lips tremble on mine, the steamy air between our breaths turning thick.

"Only you.",Jesus Christ. She has really no idea how sexy she is. There's something maddening about the way her words ignite want in my veins and she's becoming undone as I reach closer to having my fingers inside her.

"Then, suck my fingers like it's my cock in your mouth.",She welcomes my words by clamping her mouth on my fingers, so hungrily and curious that it makes me want to actually shove my erection in her mouth, to feel what she does to me.

Sucking harshly on them, she applies pressure on them to take more of my fingers, a guttural sound leaving her throat and she moves her tongue languid around my fingers, exactly the way I want her to.This feels so good that I can feel the tension shooting straight to my dick so I thrust my hips on her entrance to feel how hard I am for her.Her eyes flutter shut as if she's enjoying subjecting me to this torture and I can't differentiate what will cause me to break down the tension, an orgasm chased down by her or this sweet sight of her face.I can't concentrate on anything, hot tendrils shoot in my fingers, all the blood rushing to them, ready to explode anytime.

As much as I would like her to roll her tongue over my skin, I retreat my fingers to glide them over her chest, lowering them to her entrance until the waistband of her shorts warns me."This is me asking you to stop me right now before I move further because I won't be able to control myself if we do this.",I move my thumb over her cheek to feel the heat radiating from them,"Do you want my fingers inside you, y/n?",I search for a clear answer from her mouth and she stills for a few seconds, her eyes sinking deep in mine, pondering something.

She blinks wordless, making me fear that I've surpassed some boundaries and she breaks the silence with a "yes".

Wasting no time, my fingers unfurl her shorts along with her panties to her thighs and my eyes latch onto hers as I drag one finger over her clit only to realise she's dripping wet."Fucking hell, baby. You're almost melting under me.",Her chest inflates at my words, her hand clutching the back of neck taut when I push my finger past her folds to stretch her entrance. She's really tight yet her body greets with such a thrill that my fingers dance in warmth.

Unable to heave the moan leaving from my mouth at the way she clenches around my finger, I land my lips on her neck, kissing it amorously."A part of me is glad I'm the first one to touch you there because I would be damned if someone else had the privilege to do this.",I suck on her throat gently to insert another finger and circle it in a rhythm that arches her body.

"Oh god…..",Her sweet whimper echoes in my ears and all I can think about is how unlucky is every man who can't feel this, the tension spiralling in her thighs that I nudge apart by my legs to feel,the slow gasps that boost my ego and her touch that shatters my heartbeat.

My mouth descends to her breasts to fondle those curves with my lips while I don't cease my fingers from pumping in a slow thrust, her body shaking like a leaf whenever I push my fingers in her swollen entrance.Her hips buck forth in desperation, incoherent words slipping from her mouth and I enjoy the slick wetness of her clit. Goddamn paradise.She tugs at my hair once I use my teeth to kiss her breasts, her heartbeat hammering against my ears. I don't think I'll recover from this, because once you get addicted to something, you can't suppress your craving and tasting her is proving to be a dangerous addiction.

Her knees cling in defence due to the pleasure building in her core as I can feel her muscles spasming on the edge of orgasm. Every fibre in my body is telling me to fasten my tempo and earn this from her so I do the opposite and break my fingers away from heaven.

Her eyes rise and the passion in them is accentuated even more, like she isn't afraid to demand this from me so I put my eyes on her."If this was about us or even me, I would be making you come all over my fingers and cock, pocky, but this is about you. I want you to use this,",I palm her bare entrance,"use me to fuck yourself and chase this tension out of your body.",I nod at her to make her understand and she returns me one like a good girl so I move further, to rise from the bed and stand, leaning my back on the cabinet which gives a clear view of her naked clit that is shining in the daylight escaping through the window behind me,her legs spread apart and her face looking at me with a gleaming need,

It's embarassing how I'm standing with a boner poking through my sweatpants but if that means I get to watch her getting high off the things we did, I can cockblock myself all the fucking time."Now let your mind feel everything and your fingers satisfy you.",I help her attain confidence and she nods speechless to close her eyes as her throat bobs with a heavy gulp. Slowly and tortuously, her hands drift towards her thighs, dipping between them to reach her wet entrance. She leaves a gap of two seconds before inserting her middle finger inside her folds, sighing loudly, making both her and me feel the pleasure at once.

If I thought nothing was more erotic than me bringing her on the edge of insanity, this definitely raises the bar, y/n laying naked on my head and fucking herself like she's rewarding herself for all the times she went through to have the confidence to do this is better than anything else. I'm so fucking happy but aching in my cock at the same time that I might get blue balls for the next day.

My eyes absorb the movement of her hands palming her breasts, her fingers running over her wet nipples to pinch them and a moan grumbles in her mouth. Her body doesn't remain still due to the pressure as I've learnt and she increases the tempo of her fingers, her mouth parting to let out dirty whimpers."Fuck, jungkook…",Sparks shoot all over my body and before I can capture this memory in my heart, she tilts her head back to goade in the pillow,"I think... I'm gonna c-come.",I have to fist my hands to control myself from either jerking off myself or surging high in her body when she rasps.

"Think how my fingers would stretch you, thrust in you to fuck you into oblivion and let me see how you come apart. Do that for me,baby.",As if it's the last thing she needs to hear, her hands twist behind to hold the pillow in pleasure and she hastens the speed to dive headfirst, hitting the fingers at a spot that brings red hue on her face. One last cry screamed in the room and the orgasm rips through her, her body arching to rest on the bed with heavy exhalations and I feel the same satisfaction that arouses in her chest.

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I open the drawer to retrieve the napkins to clean her before I reach towards her and hold her against my chest, her heart beating against mine. Her arms wrap around my back with the little strength left in her word so I kiss her forehead to comfort her."That's it, baby.You did it.",She buries her head deep in my chest, breathing gently on my neck, her body clinging to mine so I caress her bare back, her skin damp from post-orgasm. Leaving strokes across her back, I feel her hot body seeking comfort from me which washes me in joy. She writhes her face away from my hoodie, only to put her heavy eyes on mine and her lips curve into a weak smile.

"I don't know what to say…thank you for doing this.",She gives complete credit to me when it's her who took the plunge and leaped for herself. For a person like her who has always been dependent on others opinions and validation for her, accepting oneself is a crucial step and by giving herself this high, she has surely covered a long path."Don't thank me. It was all you, y/n.",I cup her jaw, my eyes hovering over moist ones that are full of sparkles,"And I'm so fucking proud because you deserve every part of your body being loved and shown attention.", I use the words that make a lot of difference in her mind and she expresses her happiness by giving me the most beautiful smile and a kiss on my jaw that stirs deep admiration in my chest.

I'm not sure if this is majorly out of my happiness for her or with her but there's no word in the world that can explain  the way my heartbeat thunders everytime she looks at me and rewards me with the sweet smile on her face. I want to protect this smile and her for all the time I've got in this life for both selfless and selfish reasons.

"I'm going to clean you and run the bath again if you want to freshen up a bit, okay?",A chuckle slips from my mouth and she nods to cover her body with the blanket so I use the tissues to wipe the sticky matter off the sheets while struggling to hide my semi-erection. She probably notices it when I stand to throw the napkins in the dustbin but chooses to not address it, well aware of my horny body around her.

For the sake of my dignity, I leave for the bathroom in hassle, attempting every possible way to avert her figure as she turns the light on and clasps her bra but I hear a shout from across the room as I pace through the closet to enter the bathroom."Good luck with your buddy.", She's making me crazy for her and I love every bit of it.