but maybe,
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jimin sat at the corner end of the school's rooftop, legs hoisted up to his chest as he stared at the calming afternoon sky. it was break time and jimin clearly ditched his friends and sneaked up here, not having any appetite to consume any food.

"if i were to die, would you-"

"hyung! what bullshit are you going on about right now?" jungkook crossed his arms, sitting up against jimin's headboard.

"i'm just saying-"

"i don't want you to ever leave me, i love you, you're my hyung"

i love you.

jimin bit his lips, blinking his eyes furiously to stop the tears that are threatening to fall out till he heard footsteps nearing. the brown haired boy looked up, seeing the person he has fallen deeply for with two others.

"go away, slut" the black haired spatted out, cold eyes looking down at jimin. jimin scoffed lightly, not even moving.

"this isn't your rooftop, i can be here" the elder retorted, receiving death glares from three pairs of eyes. jimin plugged his earpiece back in, ignoring the figures in front of him. he was honestly officially done with jeon jungkook.

jungkook won't lie when he said he was shock, wasn't jimin scared of him? he hissed before shoving his hands in the pocket of his hoodie and walking off, jaebum and seungcheol following after.

jimin sighed, pulling off the earpiece from his ear.

when your heart is broken it is the saddest thing in the world. all your energy leaves you and everything in your life seems to lose all meaning. you gave your heart and soul to this love, and now it is no more.

how can your heart ever be whole again?

how can his heart be whole again? be mended and healed again?

every morning he sees his face, he feels like he is in a different place for that fleeting second. a place where they both smiled, laughed, and talked, a place where they could hold hands wherever they walked, he is reminded of this each and every day, then the sleep clears and it's all blown away.

realization sets in and he's all alone, everytime he checks his phone, in case he called or sent him a text, then it hits harder as what come next, is the empty screen with his smiling face, and the emptiness of this forsaken place.

he withers up inside as all his hopes disappear, and the burn in his heart really starts to sear, everytime he sinks back in his bed and think of the black haired, and wonder if there's anything he can do. he's knocked back every time he tries to get through, because the decision was his.

leave him out here in the cold and the rain, leave him to choke on the tears and the pain, missing him every minute of every day, he just hope they can dream it. a lovely, warm couple, together in their place so serene.

dream.

jimin shook his head, wiping the tear that dripped down his chin as he chuckled bitterly,

i'll be gone anytime soon.

✦
maybe you are too oblivious.